@52sunrises

omg I just applied for a job

ok! it’s ok!

anxious. nervous. nauseous cause of it

okay yeah i think im gonna try to get my teaching credentials

think ive been smoking too much weed

wish i could motivate myself to read

anyway jw why my stomach hurts when ive consumed a versatile diet of coffee, nicotine, and a single slice of toast

kinda feel like T is losing interest in me and :( i don’t know what to do about it

i need encouragement, or something

ginopizza:

HATE languages

- Physical violence

- Acts of disservice

- Words of malice

- Gift removing

- Wretched time

i keep almost fucking things up because my depression has been bad and I just keep wanting to sabotage myself and it’s like! bitch! don’t do that! but i just can’t shake the feeling that I am ~undeserving~ and also just plain evil lol. and so I keep kinda, undermining and second guessing myself even though I know, I KNOW, this will be ok. I just feel so stuck ahhhhhh

wasted the afternoon being high

transfemmbeatrice :

“I don’t think that I accepted that I wasn’t gonna die young until I was 26 or 27. I really don’t think I fully…when I was 14, 15, 16, 17–I mean I knew as sure as I know that I am wearing green shoes that I was going to die before much happened. It was a certainty for me. And I had shaken off the directly suicidal urge by the time I was 21 or 22, but I still was pretty sure I was going to die pretty young, it really felt like an inevitability. It takes a long time to realize no, you’ve changed…if you shared those feelings with people at some point you go, ‘well, I guess we’re going to stick around.’ And it’s a funky thing to admit because there’s a part of your inner younger self that kind of judges you for that.”

John Darnielle fucking me up with the single most relatable thing he’s ever said

laralaralara :

i’m gonna make it through this year
if it kills me

little sad that im not smoochin T at midnight tonight. actually, you know what? i just thought about it & im a lot sad about it

it’s like when julien baker said “bury me face down so I can keep climbing in”

another day of emotional suffering today, ladies. really one for the books this time

tonights mood? me getting high and doing the lizzie mcguire movie dance but to motion sickness alone in my room

beginning of quarantine i always kept my phone brightness at max

remember the time I used my ed treatment outing funds to purchase marya hornbacher’s wasted and my treatment team had an entire meeting to see if that was allowed

infernallegaycy :

its-prettybent:

born a lesbian, raised Catholic

[TERFS/transphobes dni]

[id: a set of illustrations of a pair of hands doing the “here is the church/here is the steeple/open the doors/and see all the people” motions. “i worshipped her in church,” reads text written on the hands, “and god loved it. he made light so that i could see her face.” /end id.]

feels weird

aaaaaaahhhhhhhh

love :

by Dave Brosha

hotsharkgirl2000:

long overdue for a scream in the woods

finally started watching succession

drinking some coffee, thinking some thoughts

ok yea i am feeling pretty bad rn

my mind is like: i know it’s confirmed that she likes you but also what if she actually secretly hates you?

about to have some awkward interactions with my parents