not to be zep on main i’m catching up on the episodes i missed and leif singing tainted love literally made my fucking MONTH
boromir had so much love in his heart. so much love. the ultimate corrupting influence in the world saw him and it could only use his love for his people against him, and he wanted to help people so much, he loved his country, he loved his brother, he loved the hobbits…..fuck….he worked so hard…..i just need a second fuck
i’m pretty sure one year ago today was when i made my first tumblr post….. i remember being so scared to post it…. now look how far i’ve come… posting literally constantly to a very annoying degree….. growth :,)
i am OBSESSED with this scene. these few seconds singlehandedly cured my depression. this is all i need in life.
Remember when Bones figured out that Dr. Miranda Jones was blind way before anyone else, but kept it to himself until the knowledge was vital for the safety of the entire ship, because otherwise what a person chooses to share about her medical condition is her own business?
Because that’s the courtesy and respect we like to see.
watching star trek with my dad is so painful it’s literally just..
spock: *has a polite conversation with literally any woman for two seconds*
my dad: oh he’s into her!!
meanwhile no comment from him when jim and spock share some of the most romantic moments in media history
“I’d like to speak to all of you this morning about support. Who do you turn to for help? I’m not just talking about prayer. I’m asking who in this room do you turn to? We aren’t just meant to lean on God. We’re meant to lean on each other. Galatians 6:2 tells us to “Carry each other’s burdens.” So please join me as we hear from the choir and think about who shoulders your burdens.” || zoey’s extraordinary playlist S2E10
The way I'm ready for Perry's son - August? - to appear in more episodes. Kid was so good! Also, if you could fancast more people for the show - played by unknowns or a-list people - who would you want to see?
oh my god yesss i want to hear him sing again!! (also i would love to hear his daughter sing too, idk if the actress is a singer though). as for a fan cast…. idk, the first person coming to mind is eva noblezada. idk who she’d play, but she’s my favorite actress and her voice is AMAZING. also i think emmy raver-lampman should be on the show bc i’m in love with her and i think it would be awesome for her to get to showcase her singing as well as her acting on tv more, also it would be iconic to have not one but two actresses who played angelica in hamilton on broadway to be on zep. anyways, there’s definitely more people i would love to be on the show, but those were the two that came to mind.
when emily sang “you can’t wake up, this is not a dream, you‘re part of a machine, you are not a human being”…
the small, cursed part of my brain that had lowkey shipped maggie and deb since season one (post-canon obviously) grew considerably since tonight’s episode
…………….. i miss my comfort characters :/
i love seeing how zep has been handling mental illness and even though i can’t relate to the specific experience of ppd, some of what emily (and zoey for that matter) were describing feeling like this episode really resonated with me and i just. it’s so important to see these characters i love go through these very real things and to see them get the support they need to start feeling better is just.. So Good 🥺
I LOVE DAVID CLARKE AND EMILY KANG AND THEIR BEAUTIFUL MARRIAGE SO GODDAMN MUCH 📢
Simon, talking to his new friends Mo and Max in between seasons 1 and 2: I mean, Zoey is just so good at reading people! She seems to always know what’s going on in everyone’s head! How does she do that?!
Mo and Max, who both know about Zoey’s literal mind-reading superpower:
AHSKTJFJSAKSJAKSHHAHA THIS AGED FANTASTICALLY—
i just got q on a star trek personality quiz and almost cried tears of joy something is deeply wrong with me
since i’m very impatient and don’t want to wait to watch the tos movies, i just watched david marcus’ death scene and i’m SAD—
i was playing ukulele for a get-together with my family and i played ‘kiss me’ bc i’m obsessed with it,, anyways my sibling was calling me out by going ‘i could hear you putting on mackenzie’s voice’. yeah and?? it’s not my fault i’m in love with her??!!
HEY!!!!!! my sibling wrote a fic!! they don’t have tumblr so i’m promoting it here for him! this is his first fic, and in my completely non-biased opinion, it’s very good. spock almost dies, it’s really sad, and then jim and spock make out a bit. great stuff. please read it and support them even though my summary was terrible.
okay so as i’ve ranted about before, my dad is… Very Straight when watching star trek, to put it lightly. my sibling and i have been very careful that he doesn’t find out about spirk or any of our queer hcs/ships just because he’d totally make fun of us for it in a gross and patronizing way. anyways. we were watching ‘and the children shall lead’ and we got to the elevator scene. y’know, the one i just reblogged where jim and spock are literally inches and moments away from making out??? so my sibling and i are watching, freaking out inside but not saying anything, and my dad just goes, in what i think was his attempt at a jim voice, “kiss me, you fool!”. then he laughs and says “sorry, i had to say it.” AND HE DIDN’T MENTION IT AGAIN. i am literally losing my mind. he cant just say these things. he cant give us false hope. he cant just apologize for saying what we were all thinking. i’m. i cant deal with this. i’m going to sleep.
Been thinking about And The Children Shall Lead and how the kids play on everyone’s inner Beast, and trying to decipher what fears each crew member may have based on what the children made them do and see.The asterisk means it’s either an approximation because their fear is too specific, or if they had this fear they’ve since developed means of coping
James Kirk: Autophobia
Autophobia: Fear of being alone
I feel like this one’s pretty obvious. People tend to make the argument that the Enterprise (the ship itself) is Kirk’s overpowering true love, but I don’t think that’s it. It’s more the friends and the life that he’s made within The Enterprise that he’s terrified of losing. Some of the places we see Jim at his most upset and afraid in the series are when he feels he’s been abandoned or is forcibly (and seemingly permanently) separated from the crew. How visibly upset he is on the empty Enterprise in This Side of Paradise and The Mark of Gideon, lashing out at Spock when the crew reluctantly relieves him of duty in The Deadly Years, and his deep resentment toward Deela when she kidnaps him in Wink of An Eye. This is also further reinforced by his actions in Star Trek: The Motion Picture & The Search for Spock. He’s also one of the two characters (the other being Sulu) where his fear counts as an actual phobia and not a hypothetical phobia, ingrained personality trait, or symptom of Neurodivergence.
S’chn T’gai Spock: *OCD (fear of losing control)
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder: Obsessive thoughts that lead to repetitive actions.
If anything what we might perceive as OCD-like (or at least Neurodivergent) behavior may be typical of the Vulcan condition. I don’t think Spock has OCD, or at least I don’t know enough about it to say for sure, but what came up whenever I looked up “fear of hurting others/losing control” it came up without fail. While we don’t actually get to see whatever is making Spock’s hand tremble, momentarily defy orders and act as though everything is fine. I think we can surmise that his Beast convinced him that following the order would somehow hurt Jim or that he would be possessed/controlled to do so. Operation: Annihilate, Amok Time, Plato’s Stepchildren and essentially Spock’s whole character arc prove this to be true.
Thanatophobia: Fear of death, dying, watching others die and/or others watching you die
There is a headcanon that Dr. McCoy is autistic with the hyper-empathy symptom, meaning he has a really hard time watching others suffer. This may have been the reason he became a doctor in the first place, or became worse/was triggered by his father’s death. While not technically a phobia and we don’t see Bones face his Beast in ATCSL. Evidence from other episodes supports this, Miri, Metamorphosis, Plato’s Stepchildren, The Empath, and For The World is Hollow & I Have Touched The Sky all heavily support this.
Astrophobia: Fear of getting lost or dying in space
Seems like kind of a ridiculous fear for someone who builds, maintains, and lives starships to have right? Maybe, but if that is something he’s deeply afraid of, it would make his surpassing ability to make certain the ship doesn’t explode despite impossible odds make plenty of sense. I don’t think it’s space itself that freaks Scotty out, it’s the idea of being stuck out there and/or suffering the cold and grizzly death that is getting sucked out into space does. So he does everything in his power to ensure that never happens. Out of all the supporting characters, the events of the episode that sparked this post aside, Scotty seems to have the best handle on his fear, the only evidence of him being spooked by this prospect outside of ATCSL is The Galileo 7, but even then he’s about as worked up as everyone else. He is also uncommonly steely-eyed and level headed whenever he has the con, even in the face of his fear. I used to theorize that maybe he was afraid of failure/imperfection, but Scotty’s Jerry-Rigs and Duct-tape way of doing things doesn’t lend itself to that idea. What stuck out to me was his comment “we’ll all be lost, forever lost!” in And The Children Shall Lead that made me think Astrophobia would be a good fit.
Nosophobia: Fear of contracting deadly disease
Uhura’s fear seems to be dying a slow and painful death by disease, one where she is irrevocably physically/mentally altered by her suffering. There’s evidence for this when she sees the appeal of immortality in I, Mudd, and that she’s scared she’ll end up like Chekov in The Tholian Web. Nosophobia is not hypochondria (convincing yourself that you have a disease/compulsively self-diagnosing) or germaphobia (extreme fear of germs and sickness). Nosophobia is more long term, an irrational fear of things like cancer and Alzheimer’s and other such conditions as well as potentially deadly viruses. It seems to me that if Uhura were to die she’d rather it be quick and painless rather than endure that sort of battle.
Cleithrophobia: Fear of being trapped
Again, someone I thought maybe was afraid of failure (afraid of failing by destroying the ship with the swords in ATCSL) before I picked up on a very interesting pattern I noticed from The Corbomite Maneuver. Sulu gets really fatalistic and/or agitated when it seems like he’s trapped with no way out. He hyper fixates on the countdown when their trapped and condemned to destruction by Balok in The Corbomite Maneuver, he makes dark jokes while trapped and freezing to death on the planet from The Enemy Within. He seizes up instead of fleeing or fighting the Law Givers in Return if The Archons, and even panics a little when they’re trapped by the giant hand in Who Mourns For Adonais (and usually Sulu is insanely chill under pressure). Cleithrophobia gets confused with Claustrophobia often, but Celthrophobia has much more emphasis on the trapped and no way out elements than just enclosed spaces. So him being terrified by being unable to move because it’s surrounded by swords actually makes a lot of sense! Honestly, I find it uniquely fitting that a flyboy with an enthusiasm for growing things would be agitated by places that do not allow growth or flight.
Pavel Chekov-Proditophobia (in reverse)
Proditophobia: Fear of betrayal
Proditophobia is the fear of being betrayed, but there is more evidence to suggest that Pavel is waaaaay more terrified of betraying or being disloyal rather than being the victim of that action. There’s certainly evidence for it in both The Trouble with Tribbles and Day of The Dove, where he is driven to act out violently on the behalf of those he feels deep loyalty towards, in his head, allowing someone else’s reputation to be trashed counts as disloyalty. And The Children Shall Lead also shows us, at least at this point in Chekov’s character development, he feels more loyalty to Starfleet than the Enterprise crew (something that certainly changes/evolves by the time the movies roll around). The case might even have been that he was all bark and no bite and really wasn’t actually going to kill his Captain or mentor, he was just hoping they’d believe him so that they’d go peacefully and he wouldn’t have to worry about betraying Starfleet at all. I used to think maybe he feared punishment or retribution, but he’d never break any rules if that were the case, and if I know anything about this feral gremlin of an Ensign, he’ll do that in a split second if someone questions his loyalty.