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นักเรียนพลังกิฟต์ The Gifted | Chanon/Pom | Character study/Canon compliant | 4,1k
TWs: Suicide (reference to a canonical one + suicidal thoughts) | Depression | Mind control | Memories erasure/Amnesia (very tgg tws)
Occasionally Chanon feels like a cat playing with a laser. He runs
after the little red dot, all his instincts alert, but he ends up
slipping on the ground and bumping into a wall, a little dizzy,
frustrated and empty-handed. Something is here, right here, at the
corner of his mind, he can feel it, but he doesn’t apprehend what it is,
and he can’t even catch it.
Chanon, from his memories erasure to his reunion with Pom.
Medieval Welsh poetry refers to [Arianrhod] as possessing the cauldron of poetic inspiration (called ‘Awen’) and the Tale of Taliesin recounts her swallowing her servant Gwion Bach who is then reborn through her as the poet Taliesin. In the 12th century Gogynfeirdd or Poets of the Princes, according to Hutton, Ceridwen is transformed from a sorceress into a goddess of poetry. Robert Graves later fitted her into his concept of the Threefold Goddess, in which she was interpreted as a form of the destructive side of the goddess. (x)
the day of becoming you is so funny and lighthearted I love it.
I genuinely didn’t expect to like it I don’t like (more like hate) the body swap trope at all I started this solely because of steven zhang (aka one of my favorite chinese actors I definitely recommend to watch skate into love and go ahead with him)
But it’s done really funny and not that cringy? Yes, you’re gonna get second hand embarrassment from time to time but there would be no drama at all without it. I love the acting of both main leads I love how chill they are with each other when the body swap ends and in general they’re so good with amazing chemistry from the very beginning.
I swear I laughed so hard because of these two. They’re so funny but cute at the same time. And I guess there would be several body swaps and with them their relationship will evolve more and more.
I can’t believe that I’m enjoying a trope I don’t really like with this drama.
What an episode! After three weeks of hating this show and slowly removing myself from accepting this show as a favourite. FUTS hits me in the feels and gut in a way that I always knew it would. The realisation of my errors and judgement made me close to tears, dramatic, I know, but it’s frustrating when your intuition tells you something, but for some reason, on the surface, it seems to be the opposite. It’s a struggle. I wanted to defend this show, break it down and yet there were times I was ashamed I saw more from what it gave. And even so, we still have to mourn the fact that it could have been so much more had the director taken a different approach.
What I enjoy about this show is the meta and characterisation of its characters and their arcs and depth. You can tell that there’s so much to understand before you judge them, they all are struggling, but the show fails to show why their struggles matter. Why what they’re going through is important. Especially when it comes to its main protagonist and love interest, Mork. The show’s comedy overshadows at times and makes us dislike what we see and throw it to the wolves as shallow and unimportant. It’s hard to understand that something lurks in this narrative about themes like self-discovery and dealing with anxiety, self-deprecation etc., that could make this show so much more profound and needed than it seems to be. With so many frustrations and uncertainty about; where the story is going, what the message is if the romance is even romantic. FUTS can be a wild ride of struggle, frustration and yet happiness and comfort. It’s a whiplash that causes annoyance and disappointment in its misunderstood moments. How does a show do that? The narrative is meant to be incredible, and yet somehow, its final product and performance are abysmal at times. Why? This isn’t a hate post. This is an analysis on FUTS episode 11, and why after so much confusion, we finally get to the bottom of it, something that clicks and again brings back why this narrative is incredible and just not done in a way it deserved. But first, let’s address the biggest fish, Mork.
The Problem With Understanding A Character Like Mork
Finally? An understanding of Mork’s desperation after what seemed impossible and painful. It’s ironic; what FUTS does is it tells and shows you with clues that at some point, Mork and Pi both are similar in how they go about their romantic storylines; they mirror each other’s desperation, stubbornness and pride. There has to be an idea of a difference and an idea of self-worth that makes them chase love like it’s their all.
Both Pi and Mork start this story as admirers determined, serious, selfish yet doubtful and insecure. But it’s hard to see how these two people who seem so different in terms of society’s treatment and approval can both be having the same ideas of lack of self-worth and insecurity.When you look at Pi, you get it. He’s been traumatised into hating himself into self-sabotaging because he believes he’s not good enough. This leads to his standoffish characterisation, his selfish, close-minded, and victimisation mindset. Where nothing matters but his comfort and safety. Nothing he does is good enough to please society. He’s been moulded with the perspective from the start that he’s destined to be alone. He mocks it, but as the story continues, we see the mask fall. He’s not okay with it at all.
But Mork? Mork is the opposite; he’s loved by society to the point of suffocation. He has a fan club of praises and supporters; he’s seen as handsome, intelligent and cool without even having to try like Pi; he’s effortlessly wanted and loved by all. So how can he be insecure? How can he even think for a second he should be suffering from having a fish upon the sky effect when he usually’s everyone else’s fish, ideal and dream? Why would he think he’s not enough to keep what he wants? The answer is pretty obvious to our face, and even I missed it. It’s the lack of understanding of his pain because of his pretty privilege.Pretty privilege sounds like an impressive feat; you get what you want cause you’re hot, you’re adored by everyone, and everyone perceives you as happy and living a happy life because you were blessed and lucky with what is envied and desperately sought; approval. But alas, no, because of this, you tend to be judged as too perfect, stale, no growth, no flaws, and no personality. People overlook your own struggles because you’re seen as the lucky one. And the thing is because FUTS is in Pi’s perspective when it comes to him and Mork, we also view him through that lens. I just forgot that we’re looking at him through the lens of our very own main character, who’s very naive and wrong about how he perceives everything around him.
Mork’s obsession with Pi doesn’t make sense because Pi doesn’t get it. How is he so confident and cool and yet always acting nervous like Pi is the one in control of him? Like he’s scared to lose Pi, why should he feel like he will fail with Pi when all he has to do is let him go, and Pi will come running back because he’s worth returning to. Everyone knows this; everyone praises him because they know this. Pi will later always realise just how cool and important he is. Why is he so frustrating and has no worries apart from Pi not wanting him?? Like why is he so one dimensional? But it’s ironic; what we see of Mork is again how Pi sees him, and in this episode, Pi finally knew more about him and finally saw Mork’s insecurities and reality. And the thing is, Mork lives a very ironic painful life, where it’s actually important to notice that again his flaws come from his own ways he deals with his own fears and perception of himself.
Because instead of being pushed by the trauma of being rejected by society, it’s the opposite. Instead, his flaws stem from the obsession that society has with him; it’s actually his pretty privilege that’s always been his burden and curse. The reason why he acts possessive, desperate, scared, and controlling is because of the fear that he will lose what he has just because of his pretty privilege. Stay with me, let me explain it more:
The Kurosawa Effect
An example of a character like Mork is Kurosawa in another BL called Cherry Magic. Everyone loved him, praised him, admired him, but it suffocated him and made him be taken for granted; in fact, it is during his suffering and drowning, he finds love with someone who perceives him as the opposite. Yes, that person thinks he’s fantastic and whatnot, but Adachi is brave and cares about who Kurosawa actually is on the inside; he saw through him. But you see as the show goes on that it’s Adachi’s insecurities about himself that makes Kurosawa, later on, suffer; he has it all; he can get anyone he wants. Yet, every time it comes to getting who he loves, they see themselves as lower than him and don’t trust that they are suitable for him.
This is the irony of FUTS. Pi is someone who is being punished for the lack of being pretty to society, for not being wanted. He had to develop a hard wall to deal with this crippling fact that destroyed his sense of self. The irony is as he developed a way to deal with this, as he chose to shun and hide from society; that’s what Mork fell in love with when looking at him. And now you already see something Mork envies from Pi even though he watched him struggle;
Pi is not wanted by society, but Pi is allowed to be himself, free and uncaring, and this lack of being bothered (a mask Pi used) made Mork want to know him. Because he couldn’t do the same. Pi offered a world where he could join and be just as close to and away from society’s cage, where they both could hide in.
But even with all the pain and anguish Pi went through, Mork saw his strength, watching him stay kind, helpful and caring to society despite his closed of energy. Something he didn’t understand how he could do that, but because it’s Pi, Mork fell hard for that part that Pi didn’t even notice.
Lastly, it’s watching Pi slowly grow his own confidence, his own fight and his own determination of self-preservation, shunning society as they shunned him. Mork found Pi’s tenacity in not letting people affect him actually attractive, and he liked that and wanted that. Pi didn’t suffocate.
Mork liked that despite what the world did to him, he refused to let himself drown and break, he overlooked Mork for what people saw in him, and he spoke to him anonymously as a natural person, not an object.
But alas, Pi was the only one in the world who didn’t want him. The very person he wanted by his side, and yet the very person he was scared to lose because of the exact reasons he fell for him. Pi shunned society, but wherever Mork went, society followed him. This is why he didn’t go give him the umbrella. He was insecure and worried and scared of losing him immediately to the claws of his cagers.
The Suffocation of Popularity
Because although he would have gotten Pis love and adoration, Pi wouldn’t fall for him authentically (what he felt for Nan, as we find out slowly, it was fake/a lie he used to cope). Pi would chase after Mork, but it’d be shallow, unreal and fake because Pi would see him as impossible to love. And we see this, no matter how much he spends his energy (reason for why he’s so determined, serious, possessive and obsessive) to convince Pi why they should be together; Pi refuses to see Mork as nothing more than society’s most beloved and wanted. It should be why he gets to be with who he loves, but it’s a punishment. Ironic right? It’s so much of a sentence that his birthday can’t be celebrated privately because fans are always on the lookout for his life; he has had to deal with this constant invasion. This is why he keeps on trying so hard to make Pi accept that it’s his life; something he can’t escape.
His popularity is almost like a curse, not a blessing to him, in a show where popularity is coveted by the main. Ironic right? And it’s incredible because, again, people are the source of his issues: society and the public domain. Pis pain is his insecurity, hurt, trauma, and need to be accepted by people to honestly think he deserves happiness. Whilst Mork is the opposite, his insecurities stem from being a burden to the one he loves for just… loving them. For just wanting to be happy with them. And the thing is just like Pi becomes selfish and becomes flawed because of his resolution to deal with the hurt and pain and anguish of his feat, Mork is the same; he also becomes, you guessed it, selfish too, almost to the point at times of toxicity. But it’s toxic positivity, the reason he’s flawed is his clinginess, possessiveness, stubbornness, but he became this way because he’s determined to keep what he loves to be happy; he became strong to deal with his pain. Still, his strength and determination become his flaw. And Pi is the same; Pi became strong selfishly only focused on himself and his happiness to curb his anxiety and futility of thinking he could ever be loved by others.
Even when he now has friends, a lover and acceptance of family, Pi still thinks he’s the worst, and the way he runs away from this is intentional self-sabotage. He becomes the monster he believes he is; hence his selfish character, lack of empathy, insecurity, and stubbornness to stay unloving is provoked when he feels vulnerable and attacked. Mork suffers for Pis strength and mask, and Pi also suffers for Mork’s obsession and determination. They both ironically hurt each other when they both strive to protect each other.
Pi believes Mork can be protected by not being with him, and Mork believes Pi can be covered by him taking his burdens and constantly being by his side, but it’s both ironic; they both hurt each other because of society. It’s society; Pi is protecting Mork from; he wants him to be loved and accepted and stay his cool, pretty way. And Mork is also protecting Pi from society by telling him:
“F society let’s be by ourselves in our own world protected, and safe. If society doesn’t want you, I want you, let’s leave society and not care about it let’s be ourselves”.
And yet, it triggers trauma for Pi because each time the more Mork strives to show him he’s protected, he’s hurt even worse for being with him. He’s triggered even more with his trauma for any step they take to be free. See why it’s ironic? And yet ironically so perfect and great as a narrative??
A Fish Drowning In The Sky.
These two find themselves the victim of society and its norms, and they find themselves unable to know what to do to survive and be happy because of what society does to them. Mork’s actions are romantic, but it’s negative. It’s toxic at times, but that’s his flaw, that’s his desperation not to lose Pi, not to let him run away from him, not to leave him alone once more alone to deal with this cage he always thought he’d be trapped in. Being an object, not being seen or being happy. He’s a fish drowning in his bowl, an ironic metaphor, and Pi is his fish in the sky—the place where freedom actually is. But Pi is drowning in the sky because it feels hostile and inhospitable; he can’t stay in the sky. There’s no water to survive. He doesn’t want Mork to join him there. It’s ironic because when it came for Nan, he saw Nan as his fish in the sky, but it shows you how that was just a way to distract himself and have the incentive to hope he didn’t actually want to join the sky with him. Because the sky was always scary and hostile to him, Nan was never in the sky; he was always in the bowl, and Pi knew this but let himself lie that Nan was what he wanted. It’s again ironic.
There’s so much to say about this episode, and I don’t know if I will continue breaking it down, but this narrative has always been incredible. It was the way it was edited and shown to us that failed. The director made so many moments that could have been done differently done the way that makes us disregard this show. Mork is a character with dimensionality; he has depth, pain, ‘insecurities and flaws; he just was being viewed in a lens that made us all misunderstand and disregard it. It’s surprising that rewatching this show after knowing all this, the whole show changes for me. It becomes a tale about two people who are ironically made for each other but are so destructed and affected by the world around them. Society is their obstacle: Romeo and Juliet (hence the balcony scenes mirroring that) torn apart by society but meant to be. But the show won’t give us enough time to see their growth into escaping this toxicity they have grown with. Pi still has so much to grow and learn before he lets Mork in. He needs to know he’s worth it, and he’s on that journey; he finally has people around him to show him he’s okay. Mork just wants someone in the world that makes him feel safe, and that’s Pi, and he also is slowly close to getting him to stop hiding and trusting him. They both are slowly closer to their mental freedom and happiness. That’s how good this show could have been—man, what a fantastic episode.
i get it. they want someone who’s right for the role. i couldn’t change my personality to be what they wanted. oh… i like the way you are now and i also believe that there are lots of people who like you the way you are now.
There’s a sense of ownership, like, “Okay, I need to do these sets of people who I will be able to represent - with justice.” It’s going to be, of course, impossible to encompass all of those experiences in just one project. But in orienting ourselves with SOGIE and all the different lived experiences that other people go through, our portrayal is done with a sense of big responsibility.