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yall with adhd or autism or such ever just get…. bored. like so Painfully bored. like its not “oh hehe i was so bored and i made this” to flex or “oh im so bored bc i have nothing to do” but like a “i am physically incapable of ending this horrible understimulation with any activity i might attempt” and its genuinely fucking painful
God, yes. I have been too bored to fall asleep before.
It is so hard to explain to NT people that my boredom is not the same as their boredom. Their boredom is fleeting and easily remedied, my boredom can last for days if not weeks and is more often than not physically painful. Like the pain is not imaginary or an exaggeration, it literally hurts to be so bored and not be able to stop being bored even if there’s a ton of things around me that NT could easily jump to to end their boredom. I absolutely want to be doing something fun and engaging, I can literally see those things around me within my reach, but I need to stop the pain of boredom first before I can do those things…but I need to do those things to stop being bored. Do you see the problem?
[ID: a TikTok of @ wheelierin in a wheelchair responding to a comment. The comment reads “You literally can’t do fucking anything without the help”.
Erin says: “Hey there! So, totally common misconception. I, like, completely understand where you’re coming from. I just thought, like for educational purposes I would um give you a list of things that I can do, and that I do quite frequently.”
The video cuts to Erin wearing sunglasses with a colorful filter over the video. Text reads “1. your mom” and “*diarrhea*” in smaller text underneath. /End ID]
my father said to me once that one of the things he deeply regretted was not putting music on for his father while he was fading away. he told me that grandpa would just sit in his old armchair in the quiet, and not until after he’d passed did my dad think of how he could have played of his favorite classical music tapes for him so grandpa could listen to something while he still could. i was very young when this happened and not much older when my dad told me this, but it always stuck with me as something important.
my mother died at home in a hospice cot, slowly shutting down over the course of about a week. when she had stopped responding, i remembered what dad told me about wishing he’d played music for grandpa, and i put the radio on her favorite country music station and kept it on for her until she died.
daddy died in hospital. no cassette players, no decent radios. the day after he was brought in, i thought again of what he told me, and i bought a little portable bluetooth speaker. even though he never woke up, was never aware, i played music for him too.
there’s no real significance to sharing this, not really. my motivation is selfish, again: i just want to hope that someone might think of this when their loved one is stuck in silence somehow, and maybe they’ll play music for them, and they won’t have to regret not doing so. i want to hope it helps someone. and i want to hope that someone will remember my dad with me, even in just a “story i read on the internet” way.
Hey, OP, you actually might have done a very significant thing for your parents indeed. Hearing is the last sense to go when someone is passing away. It’s why palliative care doctors tell patients’ relatives to continue speaking even if the patient stops responding. So even if your mother and father could not wake or respond to you or those around you, they perhaps could have heard the music they so loved, and perhaps were comforted. So what you did wasn’t selfish at all, and I’m sorry for jumping on to your post, but it’s likely that playing music for your parents as they passed away did much more for them than you might have known at the time.
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