I don’t mean anything bad honestly, I just now know it’s hard for you to think about me or consider my feelings.
Sometimes it feels like I’m invisible
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I am afraid to fail.
I have so much I want to share with the world and show that I can do, but the fact that I’ve become very “to myself” I don’t see myself having support,
I have so many ideas is it okay to do it alone?
Can I do this?
You try to support friends,
And find out they’re not friends. Lol….
I like to do things myself
Was it your goal to make it worse?
I want you to feel okay, and I thought that I could help.
It seems like it doesn’t matter what I say or do.
You’re going to feel how ever you want to, and that’s okay, I’m just learning to not be so frustrated with the way you feel.
I may not agree, but I can only try to help you see the positive and if that’s not what you want to do, then so be it.
So there are days, when I just miss my sister so much, she’s so different now, and I don’t think she even realizes.
We never had that great of a realationship.
I feel like I wanted a sister so badly, you know that sisterly bond, where you can call and run to. it just never happened.
She called her friends sister more than she would me.
We would fight like any sibblings, but she never listened lol.
Like literally never. She had problems with things I said, or told her to do.
I think it’s because she never thought of me like an older sister.
I always hoped in the future we would get close and get along.
She never texts, or calls.
I try to text her sometimes, and she won’t respond, or respond extremely late, like the next day, or the next week lol…
I don’t think she ever really knew how much I love/loved her.
I never had the respect as an older sister.
It was really hard for a while trying to understand that my sister doesn’t really care about me. I would cry and cry and ask the gods why. Lol
Today I just breathe it in, and understand that I’m alone. And it’s okay, she has her life, and I hope every day that she is happy. But I really worry for her. Her SO is very strong.
And I feel the relationship isn’t fair. But I would never say that. She would only distance from me more.
I see her maybe once a month. She lives 2 hours away. It’s sad.
I want to go to a festival 🥺
And listen to ice cream
Even in the sun you know I keep it icy
I need sleep.
She always be talkin like she know know know
Late at night when all the world, is sleeping
Am I going to be alright?
I wanna kick myself for falling so hard
How does he sleep at night,
Mama the nerve of this guy.