My size is S (eu 36) or XS (34). Im really hoping to be more XS/XXS.
TW ED MENTION
Yesterday I thought about recovering. And later that day I binged and purged, which in my case is the opposite of recovery because I haven’t purged in…I think almost 2 years…
Tbh I’m not good at “diets”. I think my favorite is vegetarian since I eat that way for more then a decade. Vegan/Plant based also sounds appealing for me.
Week ago I ate pizza. 🍕
Back with food log 😈
Total intake: 1053 kcal
Burned: 370 kcal
Net: 683 kcal
It could be better, still feeling hungry.
Gentle reminder 4:
for some people their ED isn’t a 24/7 thing. Some days they can ignore that voice and eat more than usual, some days they may go out with friends and have a meal. Some days they may choose to have a big dinner after eating breakfast and lunch.
Most days this doesn’t happen.
Just because you have days of “being better” doesn’t mean that you’re any less valid or any less disordered. Just because you ate a healthy amount before doesn’t mean you’ve recovered. It doesn’t mean you’re not struggling. It doesn’t mean you’re not as bad as the rest of us.
ED’s can be quiet some days for you, that’s okay and normal. You’re still valid, your struggles are still real, you still deserve help.
I think we need to talk about the pattern of “on/off” EDs a little more
It’s actually…pretty common? Which I didn’t expect bc until recently I hadn’t met anyone else who did this and I thought I was crazy.
I experienced this for a few months before the pattern of my ED changed more recently, but im sure some people can relate to it right now.
It’s where, you might be totally fixated on your ED, like you might restrict and count calories and all that for, maybe a few weeks. And then a few weeks after you just stop counting and maybe even eat normally again. But then you might go back to counting and the cycle starts all over again.
THAT IS STILL A DISORDER. You weren’t faking anything and you weren’t cured. You just have a different pattern/behavior!
It’s not normal to go through cycles like that. Maybe you did it without even thinking, or maybe you purposely triggered yourself to start counting again before falling out of it. But that’s not normal! You are still valid!!
Is it possible to recover and sustain at your gw? If it was I would go to therapy as soon as I reach it.
There is so many…