psa: different people with the same mental illness will act different. Two people can have bpd and be VERY different. two people with anxiety can be different. the point is, stop acting like someone with a mental disorder or illness has to be a cookie cutter of the symptoms. not. everyone. is. the. same.
a child with an undiagnosed mental illness: I think I need help. I struggle with things nobody else seems to be struggling with.
a parent who never got diagnosed for the exact same mental illness: Oh sweetie. EVERYONE struggles with that :)
That’s what makes bpd suck so much is I’m never sure if I did something that was really me or if I did something that was my disorder and was my reaction to someone, the thing I said back, was I communicating? Or, was I manipulating and controlling? Was I making something about me or was I participating in an interaction that I was 50% of. The only way I can be sure I’m okay is if I wasn’t feeling anything at all. As soon as I’m feeling I’m in the realm of my disorder
how do you feel about me?
my energy likes your energy. i like the things you say and how you say them. i like your concerns and turn offs and turn ons. i like to look at you while you are excited or intrigued. every once in awhile, you’d drop your guard…kind of like a woman’s sideboob….lol…and i’d see that you were masking some private emotion with your smile or tone of voice or both. at first it made me uncomfortable; then it made me sad.