How I failed my first Nanowrimo
Last January 2018, I promised myself to write at least one book to completion or else I was going to give up writing at all.
Why the ultamatum? I thought it was time for me to ask myself if I was ever going to take writing seriously. It’s been 10 years since I started writing as a hobby. I only made plot outlines but never the book itself. I did have aspirations on becoming a published author and doing it full time.
Why the ultamatum, Now, I think the ultamatum wasn’t necessary or even a good idea. The me last year decided to agree on that self-contract though.
First to third quarter of the year passed and I didn’t start a single word despite how daunting the cost of the promise was. When Halloween season came around I thought “why not join Nanowrimo?”
Nanowrimo would be a good thing for me because I could see how much I progressed. And as someone who likes to see progress and have a reward at the end, it made a lot of sense to me.
So I signed up and did my daily word count every day. My initial feeling was excitement. I had a full outline of the story and everyday when I see the word count chart rise I was feeling even more motivated. That is until I hit my 10,000 word count. Here’s a look of my chart:
Okay looking at it again, you can see my procrastination by the dots at the bottom. On the first day I didn’t even write a single word! The highest I had gone was 2,249 words on the 9th day. And by the 13th day I probably have given up altogether. In total I had only written 10,527 words.
I don’t know why I suddenly stopped altogether when I’ve reached a milestone but there is one I can think of: I was actually afraid to finish the book.
Ooooooh wait what? Yeah even though I’m so far away from reaching 50k, the thought of finishing a book was scary. I was in limbo with the early stages of being a writer. If I advanced to a draft writer, that is a whole obstacle I couldn’t fathom. This was all in my subconscious though.
The me from the past was probably settling with procrastination as soon as I reached 10k which was a great milestone to reach for lil’ ol’ me. It was a pretty amazing goal and I somehow negotiated with my self-contract that I technically wrote a book. It wasn’t complete but 10,000 words is freaking satisfying. Besides I finished writing the First Act anyway.
Will I be joining this year? Yeah I will, but with a different story this time. It would be cheating to continue my last book I think. This time I’m thinking of something simple to write. A story that is not too deep with the genre being romance or fantasy or thriller.
TLDR: I failed my nanowrimo because I succumb to procrastination.