I’m so sorry hun:( I saw your last post. Anything I can do to help? Btw, you can always come talk to me about it if you want! Even if you just want to chat in general, my dms and asks are always open 💜 praying for you! hope you feel better soon!
Hi friend, thank you!! Idk I think I just need to cry this one out :/ thank you for the invite and for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers! I appreciate it 💕💕
Super love that I’m always the problem and I’m always the bad guy for wanting to take care of my self. Like I’m sorry that I have a job that awards me PTO to use for personal time sick or not and you don’t but if I can barely walk why the fuck wouldn’t I work from home so I don’t have to be on my feet all day answering questions I shouldn’t have to answer???
#now my evening is ruined so that’s cool #like part of me wishes that something bad WOULD happen to me health wise but then I’d be the bad guy for having accident insurance provided #by my job #but instead I’m just gonna cry on my couch #👌🏽#lex irl
i saw the words “ur not the first person in your lineage to be queer” and it’s rocking me to my core. how many generations down the line did one of my ancestors feel the way i did, feel differently than i did and so damn queerly it was a crime? how many of us were there? did they have hope? did they find peace? i don’t know. at the very least, maybe i am proof their identity was never wasted. reincarnated.
lex you were the first person i followed after i came back to tumblr a year ago and i have literally never made a better internet decision. the fact that we have become friends is still SHOCKING to me because you are literally a goddess in human form and i am unworthy
i’m soso proud of you for going back to school and the independence with which you live your life is so inspiring. your writing amazes me every time i read anything you post because your ability to weave words together is such a gift. i’m so happy you’re in my life
(also you’re legit gorgeous okay that’s all)
(i think tumblr is being silly and i don’t know if you saw this or not so i’m just gonna drop a tag to be safe @cowboystokes)
I feel like I’m doing the wrong thing by leaving him downstairs every night (it’s only night 3 now) but he literally will not go up the stairs on his own and I can’t carry him up every night :/ but when he’s in his crate in my bedroom he rips up the dog pillow that’s in there even though he’s got a couple chew toys too. The last night we did the upstairs crate he ate enough of the pillow stuffing on accident that he puked and I could not let that continue to happen which is why we switched methods.
I was trying to get him familiar with the stairs but I backed off a bit because I didn’t want to overwhelm him since so many new things were happening at once and they really freaked him out but now I’m like…maybe that was the wrong move??
Idk I just don’t want to stress him out but I feel that whatever I do is going to make him super anxious
#and I won’t be able to afford dog training until mf April #joey tag #I’ll take advice if ya got it #I just want my boy to be happy and feel supported
guys i can’t emphasise enough how important this is
please consider all of these factors facing fanfic writers, who are doing this for fun and no return whatsoever beyond the love of the thing. thank you.
this is really important and sorry I’m gonna ramble—
I spend a lot of time (probably too much time) on tiktok, and while I think the fanfic reader side of tiktok is hilarious, I also notice a lot of nitpicky comments that forget that fanfiction writers are nonprofessionals who are doing this for free. like, while I understand the impulse to complain about a favorite fic being abandoned, or to talk about weird word choice during smut scenes, but at the same time, it’s free. fanfic writers dedicate their time and passion and effort to this for free.
many of us aren’t formally trained in writing, or, like me, we’re formally trained in a style of writing that’s not creative writing. also, you often have no idea if this is someone’s first fic or their fiftieth, or if this is their first foray into writing, or if they’re writing in a language that isn’t their first, or how old or young they are. jokes and memes like this can be discouraging to writers who are putting themselves out there against a lot of obstacles.
really, as writers, we’re figuring out this as we go, fitting time to write and upload and interact in our busy daily lives, and sharing it—once again—for free. we don’t ask anything of readers except begging for comments sometimes and so we ask that readers not demand perfection out of us in return.
I’m just going to have ankle pain for a while. I’m not paying for a specialist visit to have to pay for a new set of X-rays to get a new MRI order for an MRI that I’ll also have to pay for to find out that I’ll have to have surgery on that ankle that I will also have to pay for.
I’d rather hobble than go through all of that again.