Everything is falling apart. Time to hit the [reset] button.
[Online university] DLC has been a bad experience for me. All I make are broken promises. How many times I’ve made a ‘lesson plan’ and ditched it? I couldn’t even motivate or stick to a habit long-term. I’ve been falling behind in classes. Everything s#cks. Yet, I still hope I could reset things. I have a “tomorrow could be better” mentality. Every single time. Every single day.
It s#cks. This happens because most of the time my mind is too lax and sunny. I can’t handle pressure well. I realize what’s going on in real life, but my mind automatically says, “everything is fine”. Yup. Like that meme of a dog, sipping coffee inside a room on fire. Am I living that meme?
By the way, as I said before, I can’t handle pressure well. Yet, I excel most under pressure. Oh, the irony. Yet I start a brand new day with my mind hitting the [reset] button. Toxic, toxic, positivity. [Positivity] is a buff that has become a debuff for me.
I heard that having a high [Wisdom] stat can cure this buff/debuff, however, how do I lvl up [Wisdom]? Wisdom is what I seek, but each day I seem to stray away from it. Maybe I should stop being an optimist and be a realist instead.
Note: Yes, I don’t want to cuss without filter.
Note 2: What do you call the way of speech used in r/outside? I really don’t know, so for the time being I’ll just call it “life is an MMORPG”