04.08.2019 - 1 year ago
When will it end?
The sun rises
But it’s not like the rest
I’m stuck in a limbo state of darkness
To where the sun does not shine
I can no longer find the light
Trapped in this state of agony
The nights feel longer
Time moves faster
And yet I can still feel myself breaking
Or am I already broken?
My body feels like it’s shutting down
Anxiety leaving it’s scars in my veins
Only the use of alcohol and substance to try and numb these pains
Post traumatic screams, leaving it’s stains in my pillows
But I can no longer shed any tears
My sense of morality, burned away
When will it stop?
I’m on a rollercoaster
It’s in moments where I find a place to be happy, smile, and laugh
Are these my last hours of life?
Trying to make the best of what I have left?
I don’t wanna be here anymore.
I see flashing marks, each moment I blink
I tense up, every moment I think
I grit my teeth, each time I breathe
I can still hear the screams.