october 2009 vs october 2020
“Selena is always there for me. Yesterday she was like, ‘You’re so pretty.’ When someone just randomly says that to you, it means a lot - especially if they know you have issues with that. We’re together almost everyday and she’s always making sure I’m okay.”
i came across my melena tag (miley and selena) and GOD does it make me sad. i found myself wishing they were friends for a second, even though they’re probably closer now than they’ve ever been. idk that feeling of wanting them to be friends makes me remember all of the years wishing demi and selena would speak again.
there was a time probably in 2009 my mom applied for section 8 and i thought we were automatically going to get it. i was planning on printing out rares of demi and selena, putting them in picture frames in my new room, and pretending i was one of them and the other was my friend back home to seem less unpopular. no i will not stop projecting onto celebrities. wish i could but i don’t know how.
I love everyone who’s inspired me to write a song, whether you know it or not. Anyone who can sing along to my songs when I play them live. Anyone who’s ever requested my song on the radio, or even remembered my name. If you ever see me in public, I want to meet you. I will thank you myself. You have let me into your life, and I will never be able to thank you enough for that. I love YOU, and I love God for putting you in my life.Happy 14th birthday to Taylor Swift’s Debut album!
taylor singing ‘i’m shining like fireworks over your sad empty down’ on the speak now tour with fireworks exploding behind her is FOREVER iconic. it is also iconic how she goes from ‘i should’ve known’ to ‘you should’ve known’ because he should have known better. it is also iconic how 19 year old taylor wrote it and dragged 30-something year old john mayer, including mentioning his name in the very title of the song. in conclusion, dear john is just so iconic
i don’t know what it is about the cold that reminds of me… 2016? 2018? probably the latter. i used to watch that kendall & gigi vogue sleepover video on repeat. i wanted my life to look like that – glamorous dresses and city views. i spent way too much time looking into this fake window thing that was like a tv with perspective software in the hopes of having a fake city view. think eyeplus and winscape. around that time, i finally understood the hype around bella hadid. i also was obsessed with ariana’s “no tears left to cry” video (and song). it premiered on my birthday.
speak now taylor really did not care at all…here’s a song about crashing a wedding…7 minutes of calling john meyer a dickhead… I bet you got pushed around somebody made you cold but the cycle ends right now BUT first I’m going to call a liar and pathetic and alone in life and mean…the entirety of better than revenge…
the scene when snow white is led to the forest in mirror mirror reminds me so much of the black & white ball from general hospital. younger me lived for that melodrama. i still do i guess. the dresses, the setting, the lightning, the life and death situations… it’s like that one snowy stydia scene even though i stopped watching teen wolf before i got to that episode.
I used to feel so cool knowing what TGIC meant.
rewatching one of my favorite hannah montana episodes. (make sure you have an adblocker). younger, emo-er me related to ‘when you were wish you were the star’ a lot. obviously not the star part, but it’s one of the few episodes (if not the only one) where miley is unhappy and not over something temporary like overspending on a credit card. she was alone since no one remembered her. yes, i can even make a kids’ show emo.
this is why i still want a loco hot cocoa – because miley’s dad brought it to her when she was really down. my mom made us meet a lot of her boyfriends not long after she met them in the hopes of becoming a family. i related to miley’s resentment of her step mom. i also secretly wanted to be lily in this episode? as i’ve said before, this was at a time when being pretty meant wearing trendy and usually pink clothes. she went from being ‘one of the guys’ and feeling insecure about it one episode to being one of the popular girls. i’m gonna make whatever version of a loco hot cocoa i can in a little bit. i don’t think i have whipped cream though.
i’m reading a preview of gisele’s book and she mentions blockbuster 🥺