I have drafts that have been sitting for a few years. debating if I want to share 1-84
I have drafts that have been sitting for a few years. debating if I want to share 1-84
back arched spine tingles
I’m in a state of bliss
only captured by the moon
riding the curve of my breast and back
wind cascading across my shoulder blades
eye’s watching from behind
while sounds of pleasure escape my lips
fingers must be knee deep.
soul screaming; vaginal walls singing
praises, thighs slowly raising eye’s
glazed over from orgasm after orgasm
muffled the sounds of my screams
deeper…faster walls tightening around finger tips
release your fingers from these grips
I enjoy you.
dominating my body slut and whore glittered in heat that night
thighs ride slowly across satin sheets as I reached my peak.
swollen and pink from the inside wet like water and honey
dripping slowly from my lips,
delayed trembles and ticks you kiss my lips
next time I’ll turn over…
anyone oppose to draft workings being spammed on your timeline? I’ve written a lot over the last year or so and haven’t felt compelled to post. I just write (to get it out) and then draft it. It kind of reminds me of people that light cigs just to get that first puff or so then distinguish it on the pavement. lol.
there are 68 post that are drafted you can pick a number and that’s which one I’ll post let’s see how this goes lol.
I like it.
we’d go to war with ourselves.
bruised and beaten we rise up from the dust
broken bones protruding and wonder
why we’re hurting.
I don’t post much if at all anymore because I feel like there is enough of myself on this Tumblr to go around where I don’t need to post. Also there isn’t much interaction on here so why post in the first place? If there are questions— I have an inbox for that feel free to utilize it as much as you see fit.
I am happy, healthy and content with keeping the remainder of my personal life private. Thanks for the concern though.
Corrine Bailey Rae - till it happens to you.
It used to feel like heaven
Used to feel like may
I used to hear those violins playing our strings like a symphony
Now they’ve gone away
Nobody wants to face the truth
wow, played 285 times? Can’t believe it thanks for the support to everyone who has listened. :) more covers/originals iamellemusic.bandcamp.com
- Are looks important in a relationship?
- Are relationships ever worth it?
- Are you a virgin?
- Are you in a relationship?
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- Are you single this year?
- Can you commit to one person?
- Describe your crush:
- Describe your perfect mate:
- Do you believe in love at first sight?
- Do you ever want to get married?
- Do you forgive betrayal?
- Do you get jealous easily?
- Do you have a crush on anyone?
- Do you have any piercings?
- Do you have any tattoos?
- Do you like kissing in public?
- Do you masturbate?
- Do you shave your neither regions?
- Do you shower every day?
- Do you think someone has feelings for you?
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- Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
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so I finally did a cover of it. debating if I should upload it to my band camp or not lol
its kind of ratchet but…
apparently I have become unworthy of being stalked so I’ve been told smh lol
I’ll try my best to ignite your stalking pleasures once more my dear lol
as of late I have been really considering becoming vegan. I thought it would be difficult but in actuality it has been quite simple. I haven’t fully converted to veganism just yet; but the probability of it is strong. After making a few dishes mostly desserts I realized that I wouldn’t be depriving myself of anything it would just be a different way of living. I’ll research and experiment with recipes more. Are any of you vegan?
heard this song over the last 3 days about 5 times..and before then not in about 2 years..
must be tryna tell me something…
originally by corrine bailey rae..and i’m usually all about original versions but was very impressed with this version..very similar in tone and altruism..thanks elle for a new take on an old favorite..
thank you for sharing my cover and for the lovely compliments xoxo
that last post really did it for me— although I wasn’t able to go into that great of details as I would have like to it was still nice to just get some things out and hopefully settle my mind and body well enough to rest as I do need to be up for work in the morning it’s about 1:45 and I need to be up at 5 out by 7. I can do it though.
sidebar yes indeed I have a job now, yay! I can’t go into details about that as of yet but I will soon enough. I am just so proud of myself all I can say is visit my Facebook.
(cont) I’m smiling now and every so often I find myself smiling and it feels great. I feel like my self pride has been restored like I’m no longer in a situation with family and thinking am I good enough, did I do well enough. My father (although we don’t get along) is proud of me as well. If you didn’t know (which I’m sure none of you do) I prepared our entire Thanksgiving dinner aside from the turkey lol [inside joke] and everything came together so amazingly well I couldn’t have been more pleased to see everyone enjoying the food, smiling and raving even my father had to call me once he got home that night and the next day to tell me how great the food was and how proud he was of me. I’ve been really enjoying watching myself come out of struggle and flourish going full throttle into my potential. I couldn’t have asked for a better way to solidify that than having it being recognized by my family.
I feel so refreshed and restored. I can’t find words to express it.
against my better judgement I’ve decided to post— it is quite difficult considering the ’t’ keeps sticking meaning I have to press down very hard in order for it to work properly; but that’s neither here nor there.
The point of this post is simple. I’ve been tossing and turning every night for the past two months and sleeping has become quite difficult in the last two weeks alone. I’ve been having dreams about the same person every night different scenario’s but ultimately the same person. Either we pass one another while walking in a mall, or we’re in bed together laughing or just being still (trust me it’s not as weird as it sounds) it’s actually quite beautiful but it makes my heart so heavy at the same time.
It’s crazy how someone can reference something and it stirs so many emotions inside you that you had since buried in the most shallow grave ever because a part of you is still too attached to fully let go. I’ve been noticing that more and more lately.
sidebar I’m happy— God has bought me through, and to a lot that I never thought I’d be able to handle and overcome. I’ve seen and felt things that I wouldn’t wish on anyone and I am grateful for those experiences both past and present however I am at a point where I feel a few things need mending, a bit of healing mentally and spiritually. I’m coming to a point where I can actually see fault and foul play and just want the chance to work through it the way I wish I could have when everything first transpired— not to try and change the outcome but simply show that I am a much better woman than I presented myself to be at the time.
(cont) now back to where I left off these recurring dreams, constant thoughts and estranged feelings are weighing heavy on me to the point where I literally have had to get up out of bed and pray or sit up for a moment. I’ve realized that for awhile I’ve been denying myself things out of fear or convenience to do so simply because it’s easier to not deal when you are going through so many other things that are truthfully greater than your own personal conflicts with yourself or even someone else.
Now I will say that by denying yourself no matter when you arrive at the conclusion of your other problems you will still be faced with everything you’ve since ‘pushed away’ or hid from— and although I don’t quite feel ready to deal I know that I am in a much better place— mentally than I was before hand.
sidebar Have you ever lied awake at night (or anytime really) and your mind is just fixed on one person and from those thoughts you can recall every single moment you’ve spent with that person down to the exact second it first began? I am at that point. I’ve always been able to do this as I think it’s something standard that goes along with being with someone whether it be a friendship or a monogamous relationship. I get to the point where scenes flash in my mind on a continual bases until I am fleshed with sweat and exhaling deeply.
My brain is so emotionally connected to this person that most times when I’m awake— like now. I feel like they too are awake and thinking and have had the same thoughts and feelings as I have. It’s astounding to me how much the mind controls who you are all together. It can either set you up or set you back— but in the end it’s all based on the way you think and how you react.
(cont) I am learning how to cope and by 'cope’ I mean confronting situation as they come and knowing that I am not superwoman and I do not have all the answers and for awhile as I was going through these personal trials and not even being able to express them to the persons I loved I realized that I can not and will not carry anyone’s burdens as easy as it is for me to take on as if it’s nothing I learned that not even for my mother will I do this at least not anymore.
It came to a point where I was so stressed out it reflected in a relationship I had and because I couldn’t speak on what was going on (not because of them, but because I was asked not to) I couldn’t fully enjoy our time together not to say that is an excuse but that’s what happened. I was flustered all the time, angry, sad, irritated, agitated you name it— I was deep in it. As I reflect on it now I feel even worse because I know better. I also know that I allowed something to remove itself right from under my nose when that was never the intent.
sidebar I really hate when I can’t be the best me or show someone the best me because quite honestly I’m really awesome— howsoever these past few months I was not able to be the best me
at all. I feel sadden because the expectations I set for myself to be my best are great in all aspects and to know that I wasn’t able to produce that greatness at any point and time is quite disheartening to say the least. To be honest these last few months I was at a point where I was weary so tired of being strong, so tired of praying, so tired of not crying and complaining, so tired of not being able to give my best because these trials beat me so bad I had no more best left.
I was literally at war with myself and the world. I won’t go into detail about the things that transpired that got me to the point of weariness because as I said before I am happy God bought me through and showed me that even in the midst of wanting to give up I was strong enough to make it through.
(cont) In my head this post was a series of images replaying themselves to the mood theme in my head; alone together, thinkin’ bout you, far away etc. Then it became a release for so much more than the usual love— relationships: life situation which I am grateful for because there are just things that I’ve held in for so long again trying to be strong and then something clicked inside of me and said: “let go” and as tears began to well in the bottom of my eye’s when I first began writing— the more and more I wrote the less I felt like crying and more so felt like exhaling and letting go. I’ll probably start writing more often again as it has proven yet again to be the pit of sanity when everything else seems to be in such disarray.
sidebar I’m still very much feeling in love with her but not just any kind of love.
—the end to a new beginning of writing.
in my mind we’ve had sex a thousand times and even still it feels like the first.
I will be in Chicago this coming weekend 3 March 2012 at the Open Casting Call auditions for NBC’s The Voice. I am really excited and could use the moral support and prayers from those of faith who believe in my gift.
If you’re in the Chicago area and would like to hang or tag along at the audition with me here are the deets!!
2301 S. Lake Shore Drive
Chicago, IL 60616
my audition time is @7AM hope to see you there
new blog GO!
can’t delete this one (bowties-lipsticks) but I won’t be posting regularly on here as I will the other blog just a FYI
was definitely not suppose to be any sort of poem or spoken word lol
darn my thoughts
I literally think about you 24/7
I wake up out of sleep because I was
thinking about you in my dreams
and my thoughts became so overwhelming
that I felt the need to wake up to a more
controlled setting so that my thoughts
don’t begin to scare me.
I’ve cried tears of overwhelming
joy and when the word love
is uttered from my lips
it’s meaning– rooted from
my heart beams like a light
shining through my soul
I say thank you to you
for loving me the way you
do blessed to have the honor
to acquaint you with my heart
hopefully you’ll stay here
I’ve grown out of it– and the more I think about it
it annoys me that I still have it.
I just feel like the energy I put
into this blog which is mixed energy
does not reflect the person that I
am becoming therefore this blog
is no longer a reflection of ‘me’
I do have another blog though
that is more my speed and will post that
link up before this one is officially
deleted just giving a heads up
I had my first ‘photography’ experience today it was such a rush and exciting I’ll post pictures in a second. This just encouraged me to work that much harder to step my camera game up. I need a new one don’t want to look like a puppy 'trying’ to hang with the big dogs lol
I think often pending the situation people don’t take me seriously and this is usually in a casual setting but often in a business setting as well. I love being happy and genuinely so, I’m talking Mary Poppins 10AM spoon full of sugar happy and that strikes people as odd or ‘too much’. Well let me just say I’ve been on the other side and the grass isn’t any greener in fact it’s just a dusty moss color that kind of faded into green because there was so much negativity and 'smiling faces’.
but anyway I just enjoy life and yes I do twirl in glitter, beam my shiny soul and glittery spirit for all the world to see while riding a purple unicorn and I mean that with the utmost sincerity. I spent too much of my time having to be an 'adult’ and 'grown’ that I forgot what being a kid even felt like; and so when someone is disrespectful to the fact that I have joy in my heart it doesn’t irritate me– it simply makes me sad that you don’t. I choose to be happy, uplifted, lighthearted and spirited because it brings me joy and contentment and with that I am satisfied and much closer to that 'peace’ I’ve been seeking for so long.
Regardless of what anyone thinks or how they feel personally I don’t give a hoot and a holler about it because despite it all– I’m still beaming and that’s what I intend on doing for a very long time.
everytime I want to share details about my personal life.
suddenly a little button in my mind stops me lol
and I hear the words being sung in my head ’they don’t have to know’
and you know what you don’t. I mean sure I’ve shared about my sexual addiction,past loves, even let you go inside my head through my spoken word pieces
but this life I’m leading now as I am growing more within myself does not need broadcasting I much rather share this in a more intimate setting than anything else.
I’m happy and content that’s all.
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