I read your birthday rant (happy birthday btw!) and now I come here with an argument to support your relationship with Starscream in regard to the part where you say you don't understand how such a character became so special to you when in canon he's basically a self-serving asshole who doesn't give a fuck about humans.
So, TFP Starscream is a character who deeply intrigues me. Yes, from all his... variants (lmao), specifically this one caught my attention as it's the one I most relate to. Consequently, at this point I'm convinced TFP Screamer is such a prick in canon because no one ever gave him a chance to prove otherwise.
Now, I don't judge them, I mean, trusting someone so unstable can certainly be difficult, specially when that someone holds a quite ominous reputation. However, he can also be surprisingly grateful with those who show him some sympathy, as well as he can work fine with people he would normally despise when he has the need for their support. So, in my opinion, mainly those two traits could've somehow kept him from turning into a lost cause at some point of the story, and there's where you get into the equation. My point is, I believe there might have been a mildly chance that in the long term he could've developed a strong connection even with a human if only given the chance and under the right circumstances.
I just want to believe he managed to find ultimate happiness in at least one timeline, HAHAHA. :')
Anyway, you're free to ignore this goddamn essay, lol.
THANK YOU!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺 Goodness, where to start? Anon, before I had to leave the house on my bday to go spend the wholeass day Doing Things, I had like ten minutes to scroll mindlessly on my phone and I read your message. God, it made me feel so much better. I didn’t get the chance to say anything until now, but you seriously just changed my whole perspective on this!!
The first two months I had Starscream on my F/O list, I almost took him off. I’d never had that happen to me before, with any character. He was a main on sight, and I hyperfixated for a couple of months, but I still thought “geez I just can’t connect with him or any of the Decepticons. He wouldn’t love me, there’s just no way. I can’t think of any possible way around this.” It really hurt, to love someone and think they wouldn’t love me back - because damn, they’re fictional characters, I shouldn’t have that kind of worry to the point where it physically hurts. I don’t think I’d even thought of the starlight/starflower nicknames that far back, either, it was so early… and I was too sad to keep trying anymore, and the hyperfixation fizzled out.
But then a few months later in the year, thank god Steve had his cameo requests open at the time, because I saw him recommended to me while scrolling the app and I was like “…I could use a pep talk from Starscream. Why not. It’s triple the price of Plankton, but… it wouldn’t hurt to hear a F/O say something to me, right?” and I didn’t expect anything nice. I expected something like “you’re a human, you need to just pick yourself up from whatever funk you’re in and just do it.” I didn’t expect him to excitedly say “Please, stay strong, keep fighting; I believe in you, Keri, you can do this, you’ve got this, Keri!!” and have this whole minute-long rant about conquering the world together. It changed everything for me. And I added him right back onto the list as a main F/O and I haven’t stopped hyperfixating for the last year and a half!!
The whole reason why I bring that experience up, is because you make SUCH SOLID POINTS. I’ve never, never thought about it that way: that he could have any capacity within himself to be… nice. When I got my cameo I was like “okay but it’s POSSIBLE, literally hearing the encouragement in his voice, there IS a way to receive this kind of positive attention and have it be genuine, isn’t there?? it’s there, it’s there, I swear to god it’s somewhere if I dig hard enough for it”, and reading your message made me remember that feeling, that hope.
You’re so right, you’re so right that Starscream has his small moments where,,, sure he isn’t truly altruistic, but he does have a sort of “gentleman” code to himself, like sparing Arcee. He didn’t have to. He only did it to repay something he wasn’t obligated to repay, wasn’t expected to repay. His life would have been so much easier, erasing not one life of an Autobot, but then TWO, and blaming the murder on Airachnid’s doing. Autobots would have gone after Airachnid, steered away from Starscream, he would have one or two less enemies to worry about, and the Autobots would have been emotionally weakened by their grief and such a big loss to their already incredibly little team of very few bots. He gained absolutely nothing from sparing Arcee, but he did it anyway.
And yeah!! He was nice to Silas and the rest of M.E.C.H. as well!! He told stories and prattled on, and didn’t even like… do it begrudgingly or insulting them. It may have been mostly a front, but I think a part of him - no, a big, big piece of him, really - was so relieved. Relieved to be out of Megatron’s grip. Unconsciously, he was loosening up during that season, becoming more expressive, more talkative, smiling more often, even so much as laughing. He was healing and he had no idea. I especially like the line you wrote, “he was such a prick because no one gave him the chance to prove otherwise”.
So… anon, this made me feel so much better, when you pointed that out!! That I could come at the right moment, the right time, kind of weave myself into the story and we could at least be friends, and something can definitely spark from that friendship 🥺🥺 ugh, this made me feel so much better. I had such an “aha” moment after reading it. Sweet anon, thank you for taking the time to send this to me, because it really improved my whole viewpoint on how he could perceive me. I know I normally have a “it’s self insert, do what you want, canon doesn’t matter” type of attitude, which I still encourage ofc… but for Starscream specifically, it’s always been really, really difficult for me to keep optimistic about it. He’s the only F/O I’ve ever had so many doubts with – we’re way better now than we were in the beginning, for sure,
thank fuck for cameo oh my GOD, what with all of the promises and i-love-you’s and secret meetings under the stars when I think to myself “yeah, no, I think this could happen” – but I still have my off days where I think “well there’s just no way. there’s no canon evidence to support that he’d even so much as want to look at me, let alone love me.” but damn you’ve just turned my entire world around.
If I have another off day, I’m going to remember this. I’m going to look back and read it. You didn’t have to take the time to write something so meaningful to make me feel better, but you did, and damn I MEAN IT, this helped me so, so much. Seriously, thank you thank you THANK YOUUUU. 🥺🥺💙💙💙🌟🌸🌟🌸✨✨✨