This is art
Can you imagine the casting ad for this
nothing in heaven or hell could have prepared me for the product reveal
I nearly drowned when I was 3. My mom had to jump into the pool fully clothed to rescue me. 44 years later, she still complains that I made her ruin her Mickey Mouse watch.
My mom broke my arm when I was 6. She tells a funny story about it. She doesn’t tell the part about when she came to me immediately afterward and complained impatiently, “Stop crying! It doesn’t hurt that bad.”
When I was in my 30′s, a doctor committed malpractice in his treatment of me, resulting in me permanently having less than 50% kidney function. Every single time I mentioned the kidney disease to my mother—panicking about what this would mean for the rest of my life, explicitly asking her for comfort and reassurance—she told me that it was my own fault for trusting the doctor instead of researching everything on my own.
Some people will tell you that nothing is more important than family.
I’m here to tell you that love is more important than family. Loving yourself is more important than family. Finding other people who offer you unconditional love is more important than family.
If your family causes you pain, then there are a hell of a lot of things more important than family.
YOU are more important than family. Always remember that. Always.
Sometimes when your brain yells at you “it wasn’t that bad!” you have to ask yourself, then why would you be where you are right now, if it wasn’t that bad? Why would you be in this much pain, having all those symptoms, feeling anxiety, grief and all those empty holes inside of you? If it wasn’t that bad, why would you be having this conversation with yourself, would it even come up if it wasn’t that bad? Would it be bothering you if it was nothing?
Your feelings and symptoms can never appear out of thin air, or of your own doing. If you’re hurt over it, it was bad. If you can’t stop debating it inside of your head, it was extremely significant to you. If you have trauma symptoms over it, it was traumatic. If you’re crying your heart out over it, it was awfully painful to you. Nobody can tell you how something was for you or what you should be feeling, it’s your feelings alone that show you just how much something affected you.
And if you’re terrified of something that haunts thru your past, experiencing so much grief you have to dissociate from it every now and then to handle it, living your whole life in secret, feeling ashamed of your own feelings, of the way you’re experiencing your own life, helpless to change what you’re going thru even when you desperately want to, then it was worse than you think. Because events that cause that level of trauma can’t even be experienced in full intensity in real time, but the pain and the trauma will creep back to you years later, showing you bit by bit, just how bad it was.
I have to tell myself it wasn’t that bad because I need to force myself to know that I’m overreacting.
Keeping my ridiculous entitlements subdued is the only good thing I can do for the world.
I hate people who say, “why doesn’t [noun] JUST [verb]?”
cousin bartók needed to take nap while growinge out his winter beauté furs
he is arrivinge …
Hello, my name is emrisemrisemris and today for #MERweek I’m going to be having feelings about Garrus and his romance arc with renegade Shepard.
Garrus hero-worships Shepard in every version; it’s one of his primary character notes. He doesn’t just love them; he wants to be like them. But where a paragon Shepard lifts him up, renegade Shepard drags him down.
Renegade Shepard validates all of Garrus’ worst tendencies: the disregard for due process, the impulse to cruelty, relishing the kills too much, the reaching for revenge rather than justice. Renegade Shepard looks at Archangel and figures the only thing wrong with the idea is that Garrus trusted the wrong guy.
“There’s no one I respect more than you” takes on a very different flavour when you have a Shepard with serious red in their ledger.
I have the sudden urge to talk about my renegade’s garrus romance.
Since Tabris is from Denerim, I decided the squad had to go incognito. I dressed them all up in-game and made up a story for them. So, Zevran and Tabris are pretending to be a rich couple from Antiva, wanting to make a large donation to the Chantry. Tabris is the Fereldan wife who misses her old country. Now they’re traveling Ferelden, looking at different Chantry locations with two representatives (Morrigan and Alistrair) who are showing them around.
having a bad day or a breakdown or a relapse does not restart your progress. please never forget how far you’ve come and don’t discount all the amazing things you’ve done for yourself so far. forgive yourself and keep walking the road to recovery. i know you’ve got it in you and you can do this! recovery is possible
i am so happy…. i cant believe it …
I won’t die until after I’ve done a completely good, completely evil, and inbetween playthrough of Fable 4.
I don’t care what kind of game it is, or if it ever exists. I will have three distinct playthroughs.
There are people who I’ve wanted to be friends with. I miss them more than anyone I actually knew and loved.
anyways i have a game recommendation that no one asked for (felt like rambling about this after my last post about how outer worlds was meh)
it’s a couple years old now so i’m kinda late on this but god damn that game is amazing. AMAZING. i beat it last week, and immediately started a second play through. i’m halfway done this play through and i’m already getting hyped about my THIRD play through lmao. like, it’s THAT good.
it’s a survival horror rpg and it’s one of the best damn games i’ve ever played
Prey is one of the best games I’ve ever played. It’s such an amazing setting and world, full of people who put their passwords on post its next to their computer.
i wonder if my pets have like a proper language and when i try to speak back to them im just speaking jargon
like for example my cat always speaks to me when I come home and i meow back to her and she’ll meow again & even though i don’t think twice about it to her it’s probably a situation where it’s like
her, meowing: “im glad you’re home”
me, meowing back: “tax benefits”
her, meowing: “why do u always do this”
cats actually have a human-specific language. cats don’t often meow at each other and seem to use subvocal communications that humans can’t hear to chat cat-to-cat. however, cats seem to use what humans would call “shout-until-you’re-understood” to speak to humans. so basically, it’s more like:
“I’M GLAD YOU’RE HOME!”
“NO, I’M GLAD YOU ARE HOME”
“IT’S OKAY. I LOVE YOU TOO, MY DUMB HUMAN”
The domestic house cat’s wild ancestors have a much harsher voice, too. The going theory is that early cats mimicked human infants which tripped humans’ nurturing instincts, and then selective breeding did the rest.
We make a big deal over how dogs have developed the ability to understand human expressions and tones (and let’s be fair, that is in fact awesome), but cats are possibly the only species that has changed their vocal language to try to communicate with us.
what I love about this post (apart from cats because cats are ADORABLE) is the assumption that cats have words for tax benefits.
It makes sense. Cats are dependent who should be written off, and they know it.
D.C. Fontana, 1939-2019
Star Trek Legend, DC Fontana The official Star Trek site has reported the passing of Dorothy Catherine “D.C.” Fontana, the legendary writer who brought many of Star Trek’s greatest episodes to life. Fontana passed away peacefully at age 80 on the evening of December 2nd, following a short illness.
As a writer, Fontana is credited with many episodes focusing on Vulcan culture and helped blaze a trail for female writers in sci-fi television. She is the mind behind The Original Series and The Animated Series episodes like “Yesteryear” and “Journey to Babel,” which introduced Spock’s father Sarek and mother Amanda. She co-wrote the Hugo Award nominated The Next Generation episode “Encounter at Farpoint” with Gene Rodenberry, and she continued to write for TNG and Deep Space Nine.
Her last produced credit was an episode of webseries Star Trek: New Voyages, starring Walter Koenig.
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