Sometimes you just have to take the moment.
Hi everyone in the world.
I am trying to make my life the way I want it. And the way I want it is to live in my own place. I don’t want to just throw my money into a never ending pit of rent. Rather I want to invest it in a tiny house for myself and my dog.
I am asking everyone that will listen for help to achieve this dream.
Please follow the link, read my story, and donate.
This vest is very warm. On one side it’s a nice chocolate dark brown and the other side is oriental art of sorts. It is reversible with pockets on both sides. I like it because it is puffy and with the pictures inside it looks really cool.
I love good clothes but I don’t like paying the price for them. I am really excited that an app like this exist!
This is a very blue vest with red zippers for the pockets and a red zipper that zips all the way closed. The hoody part can also be zipper. This vest keeps heat in for sure. And it looks really cool.
This is a fun fake fur vest for a kid or a small adult. It is soft and shiny. It doesn’t have any buttons so it hangs open. It’s really nice with a long sleeve white shirt underneath.
This feels like a sweater. It’s really warm and I love the color with anything. It’s a really cool scarf that I haven’t seen anywhere in all the time that I had it.
This is a green, blue and a little pinkish-red Egyptian scarf from Cairo. It is nice for when it is chilly or for when it is really hot and you want to cover your head. It’s an easy to grab accessory for any occasion.
This scarf is a very nice “girly” peach with a tiny bit of white. It has little peach balls that hang from the edges all around. There is a small hole but it isn’t noticeable unless you show it. It’s a nice scarf for spring time.
My heart is warm.
I started off filming this video for a completely diffident reason than how it turned out. I wanted to make a step by step video of how to actually get into a cold shower. But my method quickly killed the whole thing!🙈
One of the most important steps however, was getting warm before it. I.e. Working out. So I had my boyfriend film me doing some of the things we did in our workout.
I really enjoyed doing it! I wanted to do more and show more detail but by that time my muscles where already so tired😅
I went home that day and started editing the video on an app in my phone.
Never would I have guessed how easy and fun it would be!
Now I can’t wait to film my next workout! I want to show people that it doesn’t have to be a complicated thing that they dread doing. ..or if that’s too much to ask, at least inspire them to get to the gym 😄
I also want to do some “At Home” workout videos.
I feel like I didn’t have a real direction I was going in with my videos, but now I feel like I found my itch. I want to keep doing it and practice more and more with the editing.
That is all for now.
Now I will gaze at the sun while it rises.
Have a good day everyone who reads this.
If he wants you over me.
You must be something special.
If he wants you over me.
You must have what I don’t.
If he wants you over me.
You must really be it.
If he wants you over me.
You can have him.
I pulled it… you wouldn’t?
Since I last proclaimed that I was going to quit my job and take my time into my own hands, I did just that. I quit my job.
Maybe I should tell you what my job was.
I was a 5'3 female granite and marble installer. I am still a 5'3 female but no longer an installer.
I really did enjoy my job, I was just tired of living a mans life.
From morning till night I was doing hard labor for the past six and a half years. I hardly ever got a chance to dress up much less wear nice “girly” clothes. I only ever wore work clothes or workout clothes.
My time was also not my own. I would wake up early to go work all day to get home late and then be too lazy to make a real meal. I recently decided to go completely vegan and this lifestyle needed me to make a lifestyle
Since I quit, about a month ago, I have been able to create my own schedule for the days. My time is completely my own. Which come to find out is actually a bit scary.
I started driving for Uber now. I am still learning the ropes… people say they make a lot of money doing it… I am wondering how! I go out to the spots they recommend and I stay the long hours but I just can’t seem to make as much money as other people claim to be making.. I will get there tho.
So many interesting people have gotten into my car.. people who seem to have themselves together and others who seem to be falling apart.
This job is going to teach me so much about people. So far I am still very socially awkward tho.
I have encountered a few set backs already in my grand plan to do Uber and travel places I want to go. But still I am not discouraged. My plan and I are going thru a learning curve at the moment and I choose to be ok with that.
I will not back down from the challenge of creating a life for myself.
Too long have I been in cruise control. Just going thru life. Not making it what I want it to be.
It’s a little tough sometimes because I don’t live in a montage. It requires patience and effort.
It’s gonna be all good tho.
I have recently decided to quit my job. I have. Or done it yet but it’s definitely going to happen. I want to live on my own schedule.
Obviously I will still do some work so that I can have money to live on this schedule I want for myself. Just as long as I answer to myself and not a boss.
Full disclosure.. I work a construction type job and my boss is my dad.
This has allowed me to work really hard for most of the year and then go on a big trip at the end of the year.. sometimes even in the middle of the year.
I feel like leaving this job is leaving my dad but I know he can find another worker and maybe it will direct him in the direction of keeping a better work schedule.
While I do feel slightly guilty for quitting I also feel like a load will be lifted from me. Which will allow for only positivity to keep flowing all the time. Or at least a better chance for it.
Being the only girl most times on jobs has given me experience I can use in life but now I am just so tired of that environment.
I want to be able to dress nice every day and not always be in work clothes.
I want to paint my nails and not have it all gone by lunch time.
I want nice shoes and cool pants and wear them on any regular day instead of always always work boots and work pants and work shirts and nothing new because then it gets ruined by caulk and silicone and epoxy and dust and and and. The list goes on and on with all the stuff that has ruined my clothes.
I want to have time that is my own.
I want my life to be exactly the way I want it.
Taking this chance to make this change is exactly what’s going to allow me to do that.
Sure it can be easy to fall into a lazy boat and not do anything but obviously then the change I want will turn into something I don’t want.
Anyways. There I’ve said it out loud.
Next update will be to say how my dad took it…
If there is no update. He didn’t take it well.
(Although I don’t foresee that. He will understand.)
Everyday is a good day to see a rainbow.
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I have recently set out on a quest to find my life’s purpose. But before I can find that, I need to figure out what it is that I am passionate about. What is the one thing I have been sent here to do. I need to figure out the one thing that no matter all the things I’ve done and will do, if I don’t do this one particular thing, I haven’t fulfilled my life’s purpose. So much at stake and still I don’t have any idea of how to find it and where to start.
Now of course I hear myself saying all these words and I just feel ridiculous. Although I am ok with that. I gotta start somewhere.
Anyway. This is day one of tracking my progress. Maybe I don’t write something every day. But I do have to write something twice a week. It’s gotta be consistent. I need to start creating habits that will serve me. It’s gonna be tough. But I want a life badly enough that I am willing to completely give up whatever ideas I had for my life and start brand new.
It’s nice to sound so optimistic in the beginning of a new idea. It will be entirely up to me if I write or don’t write. My goal is to write.
I am about to be 27 soon and I have nothing tangible to show for it. I would like to build up my life with tangible things of my very own.
I want to become an adult. My kind of adult, but still adult.
I want to be someone who speaks confidently to anyone when I am talking about my life and what I do.
I want to be proud of myself.
I want to feel good about what I do.
I want work that isn’t just work.
I want work that makes me feel good.
I want to have long hair.
I want to look exactly the way I want to look.
I want to be a friend to someone who is a friend to me.
I want someone who calls me on a daily basis just to chat.
I want to start my real life. My dream life.