Amidst a surprisingly productive day at work, I am being swallowed by the incredible dead weight which looms over me all the time. All the incredible work related guilt, and the background white noise of my own clocks which keep circling back. Cannot be escaped, only avoided. College was the best.
I am sleep deprived. Yeah, If I were to completely strip apart my mental illness and the weakness it generates in minds of others, I have been terrible to people for the past couple of years.Thoughts are ephemeral, just like words, just like any “success” in you thesis. And the effect has been absolutely horrifying. Convict on the run, Charles Sobraj of the poor.
I look around at situations where I’d been the sink, too. “They must have been mistaken.”,”We’re all human”,”Probably didn’t think it through” these are words I’d used. Wait, My demons are here.
“Ya hear me, boys? A little bit of that for yourself. What? Not tonight?..Alright. ”
Interviewer: You said there’s a big fear in Dawn Chorus. I thought it was about grief.
Thom: It’s not, strangely enough. It was written a really long time ago. Most people endure a crisis or shock at one point in their lives and they look back and wonder: what happened? It always turns out to be different than you thought. In the song the line “if you could do it all again” is followed by “a little fairy dust”. Every time a sincere line is followed by a deeply sarcastic Disney-line. That’s why the cumulative effect is so frightening. You are in a room with all the questions you ask yourself. You hang the questions on the wall and close the door. See it like that. For most people anger, irony or sarcasm are the first defenses if they are in crisis or something frightening happens. That’s why Dawn Chorus fits so well with the rest of the album. The weird thing about it is: Dawn Chorus has no melody, it’s a poem. There’s only one note. And words. That’s unusual for me. Normally I hide behind the melody, but for this song I refused to do that. It had to be what the words were. Very uncomfortable. That’s probably why it took so long before the song found a home. It’s been around since In Rainbows.
-Interview in oor magazine
My man. My sweet, sweet man.
“The greatest tragedy of our generation is the infectious idea that you can’t change or improve.”
This show has taken us on a lot of wild rides when it comes to character development. But if you had told me in season 1 that my favorite character at the end of all this would be Theon Fucking Greyjoy I would’ve laughed for about 6 days straight. And yet, here we are.
This man, a boy who was taken from his home at a young age, who was raised alongside the Starks, his siblings bound by love, not blood, who was the ward and honorary son of Eddard Stark, has come such a long way. Because let’s be honest, even before he betrayed Robb, he was annoying af. Then he went running off to the Iron Islands, betrayed the Starks (who had been nothing but kind to him), and all to please a father who was so unloving he would barely acknowledge him as his son.
And along came Ramsay Snow, who was honestly one of the most terrifying people in all of Westeros.. Theon’s scenes with Ramsay almost made me stop watching the show. I cried through all of them. They were horrifying, every single one of them. Watching Theon’s transformation into Reek was one of the most difficult things this show put us through, because even though he’d been a shithead, and even though he’d done horrible things, he was losing all of his humanity. It was heartbreaking, and how can anyone help but start to root for a man who’s hardly a person at all anymore?
His character arc from Reek to man who died saving Bran in 8.03 was absolutely spectacular, and most importantly, not at all linear. It was clear that he still cared about Sansa after the scene on her wedding night, yet he still betrayed her when she asked him to light the candle in the window. He saved Sansa from the Bolton’s, got her to safety (by Westeros standards), and seemed to be on the up-and-up again by the time he got back to the Iron Islands… and then he abandoned Yara when she needed him most, only to finally come back for her. It’s one of the most realistic arcs in the whole story because it shows us that change is gradual. There will be triumphs. There will be mistakes. Nobody is perfect.
Theon was complicated, tormented, and haunted by his past both physically and mentally. But all of those things, as Bran said, led him to where he finally ended up: at Winterfell, his home.
Honestly, Theon was a lot of things over the years. A coward. A traitor. A usurper. A murderer. A victim of torture. A snitch. He was all of these things, and many more. But he died a hero, defending the family he loved, and that is how he will be remembered.
Thank you Theon.
A Hero of the Battle of Winterfell.
You will be missed.
I believe in Theon Greyjoy.
Best Character arc in GoT.
I believe that people can be tormented, make bad choices, be ashamed, traumatized, hated, haunted by the past and yet come out as an overall good person.
I legit cried when Bran called him a good person.
Self- Forgiveness means giving up all hope for a better past.
Kit Harington Monologue - SNL
I feel you Night king, I feel you
Southern states are a terrible land for people who are used to socializing. Without a Car, residential Dallas is an impossible place to live in. It’s not pedestrian friendly, unlike most of Asia and even Europe. The only place you can go to is the local Deli or a Jack in the box.Biggest Issue seems to be public transportation, the whole thing feels really shady.
I don’t want to blame the system which is earning me my daily bread, but dear lord is it the ‘dwellers’ heaven. You are supposed to be engrossed in work, and if you are not, your only solace is your room. For people like me, that’s the worst possible thing to happen. In hindsight, none of the truckload of cringey crap which happened towards the later half of 2018 would have happened if I didn’t have time to dwell on.
A man with nothing but a head to think with and room to put his bed in is a dangerous, dangerous thing.
““I think it’s the same as with literature and with art. A lot of the time you confuse the personality with a piece of work. It ultimately doesn’t do anybody any favours, you know? In a way it negates the work as well, because I think what can happen is that essentially, if you’re an artist, Like Rothko, and you choose to kill yourself, then that colours the work forevermore. Which is totally not the point. And not only that, it destroys the work. Like, there’s a Rothko room in The Tate, in London, and when kids go in there they sort of go ‘Wow! This is great!’ and all they see is the joy of the colours and the paintings. And all the adults see…is this poor sod who killed himself.””
— - Thom Yorke (via thomfuckingyorke)
I am trying to read ‘children’s’ novels/novella. I find great interest in layers you find in books as an adult, yet they can be read plainly by a child too. To say I loved Le petit would be an understatement. The symbolism is so ridiculously elegant that it ripped right through my heart and soul. The rose, the different planets with their own characters, I could relate to all of it. Not to be captain obvious, but Prince’s planet is such an accurate representation of the human existence, with love, joy and of course- the dreaded baobabs. The book is like a marathon of the most elegant existential one liners of all time. This is the kind of art which makes life a little bit livable, you know!
So what do you do with bad times and traumatic periods in your life? You make art out of it, that’s what exupery has in store for us with converting a saharan hunger scare and hallucination episode to one of the most seminal works of literature of all time.
Phenomenal. Lives up to it’s other-wordly fame.
Adorable baby panda squeaking
*Hits a wall to feel like a man again*
“For in spite of language, in spite of intelligence and intuition and
sympathy, one can never really communicate anything to anybody.”-Huxley.