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i may not be able to put it into words but i know that my touka is canon divergent.
cause like, i hate how badly she was thrown into her old sorta role and if not worse about it? the start of :re she was like fucking thriving she was top tier in being yknow better than who she was before and quite frankly she deserved to stay on that path. a lot of mine is different in her personality, thoughts and actions and i refuse to accept like anything that ishida did w/ her in :re later on cause home girl was in the realest glow up she deserved.
like u can be strong n gentle, and sure mine’s still rough around the edges but its cause she’s like awkward abt things. she’d give you maybe a playful bonk on the head or shoulders, but nothing that would hurt u? she doesn’t want to hurt others cause that’s what drove people away!!! like why would she bring anything like that back when it didnt work for her in the first place? let her fix her issues and not rely on them as ‘teehee funni’ because her arc before at the start of :re was golden top tier. and i will NOT stop being angry about it.
You are a knight !
Knights would be entrusted with the defense of the medieval castle and were expected to fight with bravery and courage to defend the castle whenever required. … During times of peace time a knight could be given the duty of looking after the land and the people.
People with the knight role have a strong sense of loyalty. They are kind and protective and always expect something bad to happen. Knights may be insecure and mentally ill without anyone knowing due to their secretive nature. You know how to keep a secret and you are very trustworthy.
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im the master of getting into things none of my friends are into
i see one ( 1 ), bunny and i lose my mind
ya boi gettin all set up w/ a new computer, one that lets me play videos games. i got a bunch from steam downloading
You know something I hate and wish got acknowledged more? The anger and low tolerance I get from depression and trauma triggering.
I wish the link between anger issues and ptsd was talked about more. Because seriously… When I feel low, I take shit so personally and feel annoyed so easily.
I just get filled with frustration for everything and snap really easily.
The thing is too… Anger is also often a sign of trauma. It’s not always being all shaky and fragile, though I get like that sometimes too. But for me it’s mostly anger and despair.
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“If you could go back and change things, would you?”
‘ if i could change it all? ‘ there is a pitting in her stomach, her mind running through time from the very start. letting it skip by her childhood, there was nothing she could undo that’d ever make a difference. he’d leave her or she’d die trying to keep him alive– those were her only options and then he’d still be just as cold. but– then there was him. she had every chance to try and warn him about her. he came by so many times to watch rize. the girl who caused everything to fall apart. what if she had said something? would it have made a difference? ‘ even if it meant losing this feeling… i think i would. i would have told him not to get involved with her. it could have saved him from all that pain he didn’t deserve to endure. i’d never get to meet him but i think i’d be okay with that. ‘
She listens closely to Touka’s words, taking them to heart, and Shini soon realizes that the two weren’t so different after all. She too had the feeling of being somewhere she didn’t belong, like the house in Kyoto, the horror she endured in those walls wasn’t something she’d wish on anyone ( but she inflicted it down on the poor girl… it’s only now when she’s carrying her own child that she realizes what she did was horrible ).
❝ Ever since I was small, I didn’t think I fit in either, it was something I struggled with for awhile, even when Hiro had saved me from that house I still felt like I didn’t belong in Tokyo. ❞ She thinks back to those days when she had first arrived, the first couple months when she’d sneak out of that apartment and lurk around the ward, she remembers when she had first seen him, Renji. Smitten with him the second her eyes laid on him. Not knowing how to handle it, she’d spend hours following him around, watching him from rooftops in what she believed to be a safe distance. ❝ But I made myself a place at the top of the food chain. ❞ Yet here she is, thinking she’s at the bottom once more, and Antieku being her safety net.
❝ You know, when I was a bit younger than you I tried to work here. There was a boy from the fourth ward I liked, and he left the streets behind, so I followed him. The manager says I did well as a waitress, I just couldn’t make a decent cup of coffee for the life of me. ❞ Words are spoken with a soft laugh, those days will still hold a fondness in her heart. ❝ But he’s just like whoever you were talking about, he’d rather die than get help from those who care about him, he just wants to be strong enough to protect those he loves. ❞
‘ i don’t think i would’ve stood out, had things gone differently… ‘ but that was not her fate. her fate wasn’t so secure and lofty. no ghoul could ever get such peace of mind. from the bottom rung of the hierarchy to the very top. death was always constant.
her story– it wasn’t that relatable. not to her– falling for someone? trying to change their entire life for that one special person. there was always her– but she didn’t want her to ever know. for her own sake, to keep her from turning her nose in disgust, to keep her from mourning the loss– if it ever meant the same thing it meant to herself. how could she even try to picture letting anyone in so easily?
it’d only end badly.
it always does.
‘ he probably doesn’t love anyone. he hated our father, never knew our mother. given the chance? he’d leave me to die. he knew i needed him more than he needed me. “ you’re weak, just like dad was “ is what he’d probably say, and thats why i deserved to die too. i couldn’t let go, so he let me go. ‘
mouth goes ajar in (mildly) exaggerated shock, but it’s hard to fight off a growing smile. “oh, you held onto that? ha! okay, touka, okay. i’ll remember that.” this was nice. it’s been too long since they were able to unwind, be themself.
“don’t worry about that, though, i don’t skip meals. i burn a lot of energy! can’t afford to miss a meal. should see how much i cook every day.”
‘ you know cup-o-noodles don’t count as cooking right? ‘ it was something cheap and quick people ate– they seemed to stock up on it from what she’d seen of people leaving the convince store down the road. did they taste good? maybe, otherwise they wouldn’t go back for more.
‘ guess i’m not one to talk. my brother always called me a bit of a picky eater. not like he’s any better. we both just pick what we get, i tend to pick something up before home. never was the homebody type to cook. coffee and food aren’t the same beast unfortunately. ‘
HEADCANON :// 001 - scent
due to working in the café, touka has a constant scent of coffee. it can overwhelm any other scent. but regardless, she chooses a lighter floral scent. jasmine, rose hip, honeysuckle and daisy. however under the warm scent of coffee and the sweet floral perfumes is a lingering scent of dried blood due to her status as a ghoul, and the need to eat human meat– preferring it fresh and warm, leaving that scent on her as a result.
first comes understanding. there’s something about them that you just GET, and they get you. you’re soft around each other, extra considerate, allowing this person into the domesticity of your life just because they make the little moments better. because you like to see them happy. they deserve to be happy, after all. you want what’s best for them because they’re your f… you want them to be more than your friend. you look at them and see someone so completely worth loving, and it kills you not to be able to say that to them - what if you lose what you have? it’s enough, you tell yourself, just to be able to love someone so fully. it’s enough just to be near them. of course, meanwhile, they are thinking all the same things about you, wondering if your small gestures actually mean something, or if they’re reading too much into it. things are so good now, maybe it’s not worth upsetting. you live in the torturous pleasure of their orbit, but one day, the truth comes out, and the relief that comes is the sweetest you have ever tasted.
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GHOST SQUAD SENTENCE STARTERS : quotes taken from the 2018 japanese film ghost squad.
- “don’t you think there are things you can see that don’t exist?”
- “you can’t see things that don’t exist.”
- “that girl. she’s bleeding from her head.”
- “does she even know she’s dead?”
- “oh gross, blood is mixing with her drink.”
- “hey, cut the creepy stuff.”
- “have you gone nuts?”
- “think that way and we can’t date.”
- “i’ve seen people who don’t exist since childhood.”
- “then you pay this time!”
- “i’ve always paid.”
- “i’d never seen a ghost eye to eye before.”
- “maybe you like ghosts more than people now.”
- “i feed you and you dare avoid me?”
- “persistent guys suck.”
- “stand there and you’ll get stabbed.”
- “it was a cute girl. but when i looked closely, i saw she had no body.”
- “if you don’t mean it, don’t say it.”
- “i see ghosts.”
- “as a ghost, i sympathize with your solitude.”
- “am i just some convenient human to you?”
- “you’re nice for a human.”
- “i’m scared because i don’t know what i am anymore.”
- “i’m not supposed to exist, but i exist.”
- “the cruelest thing is to be abandoned by one’s family.”
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anyways touka adores sanrio, no true tough person can resist. top ones are kuromi, melody, badte-maru, pannepitta, and pochacco, with a small shout out to pompompurin for the hide vibes
all you get this sunday is
touka is a woman of simple needs, she just needs sb to top her, put their hand on her throat while fucking her and telling her she’s good girl. what more does she need
the two who def influenced touka in fixing herself were yoshimura and kaneki. she took a lot of what yoshimura had taught her and showed her, showing kindness to anyone can truly make a difference in their life. and sure, she didn’t always take it and run with it. it’s one of the old habits that die hard. yet even through her ‘grit teeth’ she still allowed for mercy and kindness. she could never see herself ever get consumed with her own greed and resentment, and kaneki def pushed her limits– yet when he showed her kindness she hadn’t shown him, it definitely helped begin to sway her to show it to others. i def think a lot of it is yoshimura but when we learn she ends up befriending both shuu and nikishi, i think a lot of what kaneki showed her was influenced in that choice to do so. i think he also is the reason the other two gave it all a shot.
i just love how warm she truly is and then all it went to waste w/ ishida’s writing for her and i refuse to accept.
it was deep ramblings really– just stuff held so tight that it felt like it was going to burst. but it was where she chose to keep it. talking wasn’t her strong suit and nothing she spit out made much sense even in her head. it went in loops and turns that would fall back into line before dropping of the edge.
typically when the café was empty– just her on her own. where everyone having long since checked out for their shifts and at the register. that she’d begin to talk to herself. trying to figure out what it was she truly wanted to say. it was her burden so no one really needed to hear it, right?
except– someone did hear it.
how did she forget he was even there? well, he was the quiet type. he lurked inside the warmth of the café at his leisure. she’d rather him be in here doing nothing than sit out in the cold alone. practical? no. but no one got left behind, not if she had her say in the matter.
and now, she found herself attempting to back track– just nothing but the nonsense in her head. nothing to concern himself with really.
‘ i’d wager its the opposite. had it been anyone else, i’d be too aware they’re even here. but i just felt like i was truly alone even when you were here. which, isn’t something i do. i should have been fully aware you were here too, i was and it still felt as though i was secure. and i don’t think that’s a bad thing, if unfair to you. ‘
there was a moment’s pause as she pour him a fresh cup. setting it on the table in front of him. in some effort to defuse what tension he may have felt in apologizing to her. he wasn’t a burden, and now– its as if she’s burdened him with her own mindless thoughts. ‘ i don’t see you being a burden. anyone down on their luck deserves to feel like they have somewhere to go. it’s what i was taught, and it did take a while– it’s what stuck. if i can admit to anything, you remind me a lot of him– before the world tried to break him. perhaps it is selfish to think this way. but even so, i don’t think i could throw you back out in the cold. everyone has their problems, and you never know where they might break. so treat people with the same kindness you would seek in your time of need. they both did for me, and now all i can do is give it back to those around me. no matter how much i take on, kindness comes first. ‘
it was almost at the change of a dime that she found herself laughing, even through the water in her eyes. ‘ i sound like an old geezer right about now huh? ‘
𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 ( 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 )
coffee or tea
early bird or night owl
chocolate or vanilla
spring or autumn
silver or gold
pop or alternative
freckles or dimples
snakes or sharks
mountains or fields
thunderstorm or lightning
egyptian or greek mythology
ivory or scarlet
flute or lyre
opal or diamond
butterflies or honeybees
macarons or eclairs
typewritten or handwritten
secret garden or secret library
rooftop or balcony
spicy or mild
opera or ballet
london or paris
vincent van gogh or claude monet
denim or leather
potions or spells
ocean or desert
mermaids or sirens
masquerade ball or cocktail party
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i always feel touka can come off strong when talking about kaneki but i think its important to remember: no matter what their relation- she holds him in very high regards. she values him greatly as he was an important person in her life. she admits to her past of kinda belittling him and seeing him as pathetic and inferior but in the end, he taught her a lot more than she’d have ever imagined. he is the reason she began to seek out her own growth as a person. he openly admitted to worrying about her when she went off on her own. he influenced her life in a positive way and she will always reflect that in the way she speaks about him. as someone who would absolutely talk about the positive people in my life the same way, it feels more realistic to me to do so for her as well.
touka deserves a gf
“what can i say? it’s written all over you.” it wasn’t. they just got lucky. they smile, and lean a bit against the counter. “oh, quit your worrying. i slept fine. but that doesn’t mean i can’t get my caffeine fix, right?
like, say, maybe just a large latte with oat milk?”
‘ sure it is. and i can’t say i trust you on that one. mr. ‘‘i only slept for two hours so give me two shots of espresso so i don’t fall asleep’’ sound about right? ‘ pulling from the front counter she moves to work. ‘ besides, skipping sleep is a lot like missing a meal. it does things to you. coincidentally caffeine also suppresses apatite. but that’s not my concern is it? ‘
i was playing pokemon early and went through teams for her
At the start of the original TG we have
by the end we have
But inbetween the conclusion of TG and the start of :Re her team changes once more and by the start of :re her team takes its final shaping
#as i think its during that time gap when she learns to really use her electric abilities via yomo #and picking emolga as it’s considered a flying type electric rodent #absol obtains an absolite and the mega stone #lopunny evolves in that time #absol was gifted via kaneki #nidorina evolved during the battle w/ shuu to be nidoqueen
SO I DID MOVESETS/USED MOVES along with natures and abilities
Nidoqueen ( ♀ )
Ability: Poison point ( Contact with the Pokémon may poison the attacker. )
Toxic spikes, Dragon tail, Earthquake, Thunderbolt, helping hand, Poison jab, Tackle, Body slam
Ability: Flash fire (Flash Fire makes the Pokémon immune to Fire-type moves and will activate when hit by one. When activated, the power of the Pokémon’s Fire-type moves is increased by 50%. )
Fire blast, Agility, Hypnosis, Extrasensory, Attract
Ability: Cute charm ( Contact with the Pokémon may cause infatuation. )
Seismic toss, Counter, Toxic, Wish, Body slam, Bounce, Copy cat, Defense curl, Misty Terrain
Ability: Limber ( Its limber body protects the Pokémon from paralysis.)
Return, Drain punch, Attract, Fake out, Bounce, Acrobatics, Ice/Fire/Thunder punch, Baton pass, Last resort
( ♂ )
Ability: Motor drive ( Raises Speed if hit by an Electric-type move. )
Volt switch, Tailwind, Acrobatics, Taunt, Light screen, Charge beam, Double team
( ♂ )
( GIFTED / HOLDS ABSOLITE )
Ability: Super Luck ( Heightens the critical-hit ratios of moves. )
Stone edge, Sucker punch, Psycho cut, Super power, Swords dance, Aerial ace, Night slash, Protect