Messages from many of you are sad/upset about my marriage/divorce keep on increasing with each new day.
Friends, I can fully understand your feelings.
Remember, though, that what you see on one side of the screen is not necessarily how things are/were in real life.
Right here you see me
standing. I look happy. Dresses up. Makeup-hair done. Ready to have fun.
What you don’t FEEL is the pain in am
experiencing right now. The type that is actually keeping me up since 2 am today.
I’m hurting. A lot.
When I take a painkiller, it numbs the pain. Temporarily. But unless the source of pain is healed, it won’t just disappear.
Same happened with my marriage.
All you saw, was a happy picture. Which was true. Just the same as the image above is real me right now, what you saw in marriage was true too.
You just didn’t feel the pain.
I clang to happy moments as my “painkillers”.
But there came a time when I had to just remove the source of pain in order to
be able to Keep going forward.
If you knew all details, you would understand.
For now, just trust that I made the right choice.
#livingnotes #life #marriage #today (at Los Angeles, California)