Oh I see 🤚🏼so when you’re told to keep OFA from the public , you can run off to tell Bakugo this world ending discovery - but when it comes to telling your inner circle crucial information about how you unlocked a whole new power , now you’re suddenly able to keep secrets 💀 You decided that you could risk blabbing about One For All , but when it comes to Kacchan it’s all quiet 💅🏼
#like get over yourself🙄 #I know it's embarrassing bc he's sitting right next to you but bro #🤨🤨
bro I have a banger thought…like imagine Uraraka being the first person who realizes that Deku’s feelings for Katsuki are fruity? like she catches him staring or idk she realizes that he’s jealous or smth and it just clicks🤯 and then she goes like aaah I get it and Deku is like ????
#bro might draw it #shiketsu party au part 2🤭🤭 #bakudeku
there's something i can't put my finger on about the scene where kid katsuki finds out that izuku doesnt have a quirk (i believe its a flashback when they fight all might) and it bothers me every time i think about it. its like the point where he really starts believing his own hype and breaking away from thinking anyone else is on his level. i think specifically because izuku isn't on that level anymore? someone he actually thought could rival him as a kid? maybe? the dialogue is pretty in your face but i always feel like theres a subtext im not grasping. of course theres a BUNCH of other emotions on top of it because kacchans havin a little freak out but that whole ep in particular does make me wonder how much katsuki actually acknowledged izuku before their quirks were a thing
Assuming I’m understanding correctly, you’re looking at the flashback from Deku vs Kacchan (S01E07).
And you’re not wrong: Katsuki singles Izuku out even before his Explosion quirk develops.
((Side note: The two characters I relate to the most in the entire series are Izuku and Katsuki as four-year-olds. It’s almost unnerving to me, actually. I had so many similar childhood experiences (well, I imagine many people did, there’s so much that’s universal in that bit of the story), and honestly this is the first dynamic that got me invested in the story.))
My opinions about this flashback have changed over time, even undergoing a drastic change…just now while watching it again, lol.
You see, for reference, I am of the opinion that Katsuki has a unique, meaningful perspective about the world, and he knows it. I’m not talking about his obsession with power or victory, nor am I talking about his arrogance or superiority and inferiority complexes.
I think Katsuki has opinions about the world, recognizes they are different from those of most people, and realizes that society’s views are very often superficial and meaningless in comparison. And I’m not just talking about his treatment of Ochako and rejection of first place at the sports festival.
I see it as early as episode 1 when everyone except Katsuki laughs at Izuku for wanting to apply to the UA hero course even though he’s quirkless.
I see it in episode 2 when Katsuki ignores the praise from pro heroes to focus on Izuku, whom the pro heroes are simultaneously scolding.
Katsuki has always seen something in Izuku that the rest of the world misses. He takes Izuku very seriously, even when society around him tells him that he shouldn’t. Katsuki doesn’t seem to always know what to think or how to feel about it, but he can’t stop noticing whatever this thing is about Izuku that demands his attention.
It’s his heart, in case you don’t know. Katsuki is in awe of Izuku’s heart, whether or not he realizes it.
GUYS STOP I’M NOT GAY ! IM NOT I SWEAR PLEASE STOP IT I JUST ADMIRE KACCHAN AND CHASE AFTER HIM BECAUSE HES MY SYMBOL OF VICTORY AND HES SO AMAZING AND I CANT IMAGINE A WORLD WITHOUT HIM !!! STOP LAUGHING GUYS ITS NOT GAY I JUST STARE AT HIS BIG MUSCLES ALL THE TIME BC I WANNA BE AS STRONG AS HIM IM JUST ANALYZING HIS POWER !! IM NOT A LITTLE GAY BOY !!! IM NOT !!!!
Saudade is a Portuguese term that’s definition is essentially the intense longing or melancholy for something or someone important from the past. It carries with it the knowledge that the person or thing may never be had again.
This is what I’m using to represent the Volume 29 Cover of My Hero Academia, and Bakugou’s feelings toward Deku.
This cover…is everything.
It says so much, with so little to go on. There is the posture, the eyes, the specific way his hand is extended. All Bakugo has wanted, for probably such a long time now, was to have Deku back in his life. To throw away the pride and misunderstanding that kept his former childhood best friend at arms length.
This sentiment is reflected even more heavily in the rough drafts Horikoshi provided us for Volume 29.
There is no undoing the past, though. Despite how much Bakugo wants it, despite how much he wishes he could change that day he neglected to take Deku’s hand, he can’t. Time only moves forward, and so we’re left with Saudade.
A longing for the past, for a time, a place, a person, that Bakugo can’t have anymore, and that’s Deku.
But just because the past can’t be had again, doesn’t mean there isn’t a future.
The Endeavor Agency arc, when we’re shown a small glimpse of Bakugo’s feelings, of how he sees Deku, and how he was beginning to wish for their friendship to return. The hints are subtle, but I think they’re definitely there and they’re important to pay attention to, especially this.
He was watching this interaction closely and he’s pouting.
I’ve seen people interpret this scene differently, and that’s perfectly fine, but I see this as him acknowledging the fact that he wanted to be referred to as Deku’s friend, too. He wants that back, and this arc was a huge turning point for his acknowledgement of those feelings. He told Endeavor he wanted to watch him to see what he was missing, and I think these moments really put into perspective what it was.
Being able to better understand himself and where he stands with the people close to him, to set aside his pride and strength to get a good look at what really matters. That’s, what I believe, he was able to pull from watching Endeavor up close. Witnessing his concern for his son and his willingness to forget being forgiven so his children can have a happy life, I like to think Bakugo was putting everything he saw from the Todoroki’s in terms of him and Deku.
This is a huge one.
“You don’t have to forgive me. I’m not looking for forgiveness. Just atonement.”
If we fast forward to 284, this scene begins to make a lot of sense for Bakugo, and how he saw himself in this and decided to take from Endeavor. Atonement. Just like this, it’s fair to say that Bakugo isn’t looking for any kind of forgiveness from Deku, and I also think he’s smart enough to know Deku probably never even held it against him in the first place.
But that isn’t what’s important. That isn’t what he wants. He wants to make up for it, for how he treated Deku and pushed him away, when he should have been taking his hand and keeping him close.
For Endeavor, his atonement comes in the form of separating himself from the people he hurt. For Bakugo, it’s the opposite. He’s putting himself back in Deku’s life. He’s no longer keeping him at arms length, he’s no longer misunderstanding and letting his pride get the better of him. He’s humbling himself and doing what he can to pave a way for a future where he can be by Deku’s side.
They can’t have the past back. There is never any going back to who and how they were as children, but he can work to gain and maintain a future where he’s righted the wrongs of who he was in the past, and mend the broken relationship between him and Deku.
Though, I want to point out that the relationship between them was only ever broken on his end. Bakugo was the only one to see their friendship as damaged, and it was because of what he did, and how he treated Deku.
Circling back to Saudade, I firmly believe this term completely encompasses Bakugo’s feelings for Deku and their history together. It’s reflected beautifully with the Volume 29 cover because the Bakugo we see is the current one, and the person who he’s reaching out to is little Deku.
He longs to go back and take that outstretched hand, but it’s a time that he can’t return to. It’s also followed by the feeling that, even with his atonement and change, he might not get that chance again. It feels much more like this considering the current climate of the manga and Deku being gone.
Was this an opportunity lost? Is this a longing that will forever be trapped in the past, or will Bakugo find a way to shape a future where he’s by Deku’s side?
Horikoshi gave us an absolutely beautiful dynamic with these two, especially Bakugo’s feelings and him coming to terms with his past self and behavior that severed a very important relationship in his life.