girl what did he do
alcohol turns him into someone i hate, and he also gave me upsetting news today that I can’t help blame him for bc it was an accident that he caused that has negative effect only for me…like he broke a promise bc he fucked up. i know i wouldn’t be so angry about that though if he weren’t also drunk.
i am like caught between a state of really really wanting to cry and vent about how upsetting my bf has been today and being totally numb from opiates
sorry if this is slightly odd but have you ever seen someone k-hole and if so how does it look like?? are you shaky, throw up or are you still and can hardly move? how can i deal with a bad trip happening? also what was your best time k holing like??
sorry that im asking so many questions ajhdjdj im trying to prepare for my first time doing this and u seem pretty expierienced so id gladly take your advice:) i love your blog also<3
people in kholes are like catatonic/can’t move. you can’t stand. I only ever am lying down when I do enough ketamine to k-hole bc you have to lie down there’s no chance of walking. In a k-hole you are not even here. Youre just not in this realm. you’re like out of ur body shooting through…. through … different dimensions? Places? Spaces? Narratives? All of the above? I can’t really describe it in words. but it’s extremely hallucinogenic and euphoric. It lasts about 30-45minutes and then it ends and you’re back in reality. Ketamine can make you throw up, that’s just ketamine lol, but it’s common especially if you do it on a full stomach /not an empty stomach. Or If you just do too much at once. You can’t do lines of ketamine as if they are lines of cocaine. For me it’s a guaranteed throw up if I don’t have an empty stomach and yeah it involves being shaky. throwing up is not indicative of a k-hole or necessarily related to kholing. Some batches of ketamine are just more barfy than others too…. Probably something to do with either quality or isomer…. I’ve had a batch that made me vomit after one line. But Ketamine in my experience doesn’t HAVE bad trips.. bad trips just don’t exist with ketamine .. also it lasts so short (less than an hour) that it doesn’t really even matter. But the k-hole is my happy place…. my safe space… i wanna live there. I don’t really have a best k-hole experience, they’re always fuckin amazing, that’s why I love ketamine. Plus If I had a favorite it would be too hard to describe anyway. I recently answered an ask giving my advice for someones first time doing ketamine, so you should look at that ask, it has a lot more info, and goes into specifics on how much ketamine to do at a time (as in lines) and how to make sure to k-hole and how to prepare etc. Just search my “ketamine” tag and you’ll see it. You should also check out the ketamine vault on erowid.org. Have fun! and thank you !
i like tumblr cuz u just talk to urself but out loud into the void and get shit off ur chest and ppl can see it but don’t have to acknowledge it. and u don’t want them to, really. anyway i feel horrible and can’t stop crying today
what's going on?
That is literally sugar
well if it is then this sugar tastes like shit and it’s making me leave my body wtf. 0/10 would not put in my coffee