my effect lenses came in the mail today and they’re absolutely magical
It sure is fun for your brain to make you think that you should leave someone’s life, walk away, and not because you don’t love them or something isn’t right, but because you shouldn’t bother them and take up their time and because they’d be better off without you.
And you try hard to not believe your brain, these thoughts, but you can’t not wonder if maybe that’s the truth, and you should do it, you should make things easier for them.
The Fosters is such an amazing show, I can’t believe it’s ending in the summer. It’s inclusive, diverse, promotes love and kindness, tolerance and understanding, learning from your mistakes, listening to others… In just a few past episodes they portrayed ableism and a big part of the season concentrates on immigrant issues, DACA etc. And it looks like in the future episodes they will be exploring the depression and anxiety in adults. Is there a better teen/family show on TV right now? It isn’t perfect, I had a few smaller issues with the show in the past, but seriously, the creators are doing such an amazing job with it.
And I cry every time I hear the show’s intro.
when you always say that particular months are more difficult than others, but when you think about it you honestly know that every month is a bad month.
Having no sources of intimacy in your daily life and therefore resorting to learning as much as you can as a way to pass the time is such a sad cycle, every single day its like what can I become obsessively interested in this time to vaguely simulate companionship and a temporary sense of purpose that I know will eventually make me feel even more alone because even if I find meaning and enjoyment it is completely irrelevant to and isolated from everyone and everything else
22/09/2017 6:07 PM
Autumnal afternoons with sun and no sun. To think that in a few weeks it’ll be dark at this exact hour. Just appreciate the light.
Why do I get worried sick? Why it gets so extreme? And why it seems selfish to feel this way? And I get even more worried as a lot of people do not understand this level of worrying and carrying and stress, especially not if it’s about another person, not if it’s about them. I hate feeling like this. I feel sorry that I feel like this.
There are so many emotions in me right now and then so many additional stressful things that I don’t know how to deal with it. I am trying to nap and drinking lemon balm tea, but my heart is acting crazy and I can’t shut off my brain. Why can’t I just let things be?
no other person on this planet was made for you, they were made for themselves. love is all about choices. no one is going to be perfect for you, and i think we need to stop raising everyone on the belief that someone out there, just one other person in the whole world, was “made for you” because it isn’t true. no one is made for you, besides you. other people belong to themselves. if you want to make it work with someone, it’s about hard work, understanding, compassion, communication, and choice
stop telling mentally ill people that no one is gonna love them if they don’t love themselves that’s actually really fucked up and you need to reconsider why you think someone who’s been brutalized into hating themselves doesn’t deserve love