Ooooh this is very useful for me
1. Remind yourself that you are not who other people think or say you are.
2. Remind yourself that everybody makes mistakes at times, has areas of weakness, and things they want to change.
3. Remind yourself of ways in which you’ve grown and changed with time. You’re not who you once were - so celebrate how far you’ve come.
4. Also, the ending isn’t written and the future isn’t fixed. You’re free to change your image, and an old identity.
5. Identify the lies you have believed about yourself – and work on changing them so they’re more accurate and true. Also, don’t reinforce those lies by acting like you think they’re true.
6. Remember that your feelings are not the same as facts. Don’t live based on your feelings … as that will keep you trapped.
7. Hang out with those who see, and who appreciate, your worth. And take their words to heart, and let them help to build you up.
So today, I am starting a new journey with the help of my personal trainer.
Well, I’m doing the thing alone, but I do have a check-in with my personal trainer again in eleven weeks from now.
So here it is, my (Swedish) workout/weight loss/bullet journal plan.
Starting fresh monday with a gym session provided by my trainer, I’m hoping to give my weightloss and health situation the boost it needs to show results.
So wish me luck, guys!
Super woman🎥 evolve.nation
My jaw is on the floor.
2018 is the year girls being fuckin SWOLE
So much hard work went in to her being able to do this! Set a goal and work to attain it!
by me, a fool who doesnt wanna die anymore
- never make a suicide joke again. yes this includes “i wanna die” as a figure of speech. swear off of it. actually make an effort to change how you think about things.
- find something to compliment someone for at least 4 times a day. notice the little things about the world that make you happy, and use that to make other people happy.
- talk to people. initiate conversation as often as you possibly can. keep your mind busy and you wont have to worry anymore
- picture the bad intrusive thoughts in youe head as an edgy 13 year old and tell them to go be emo somewhere else
- if someone makes you feel bad most of the time, stop talking to them. making yourself hang out with people who drain you is self harm. stop it.
That’s some pretty good advice. I don’t know what’s left of my humor after ‘guess I’ll just die’ jokes but it’s worth a shot.
Personally i went from “guess I’ll die” jokes to “IF I HAVE TO BE HERE FOR 5 MORE MINUTES I PROMISE YOU I WILL BUY JUST, AN ARRAY OF CLOTHES.” and other wild hyperbolic stuff. Just replace the death part with something ridiculous and off topic. Its very entertaining
This also works with calling myself things like stupid, worthless, trash, etc. Even if you do this jokingly to yourself, your brain still believes it, and keeps up the cycle. Seriously, I found that when I stopped saying these things about myself, even jokingly, it made a massive difference.
Here’s a tip I picked up from a friend that’s helped me a lot — replace self deprecating jokes with ironically self aggrandizing jokes
Like every time I trip and fall, instead of saying “l’m just a disaster human” I say “I’m the epitome of grace and beauty”
Or like, when I draw a picture I’m not 100% happy with, instead of saying “my art is trash” I say something like “you know I think it’s time we replaced the Mona Lisa”
When you do that you get to make a joke, but you’re ALSO getting practice building yourself up, y’know?
And eventually it becomes a reflex and you get so used to it that you can say nice stuff about yourself even when you AREN’T joking
Also, imagine you’re saying all that mean shit to a 12 year old you. Personally, I’d never say “You’re stupid. Go die already” to a 12 year old kid, even if it’s a 12 year old me.
Woah, so much stuff happening, dear lord.
New boyfriend, new job, new stuff around the house. Lot of changes lately and I have been really bad at focusing on me and myself. However, I feel like it’s time to get back in the saddle again, so tomorrow I’m hitting the gym again.
Hopefully I will not be melting away straight after warmup, since it’s been raining all day. Fingers crossed it’ll continue to rain tomorrow as well, lord knows we need it…
So here we go. Getting back up everytime we fall down. Never giving up is the key to success here, people!
I have personally never believed in the concept of restrictive eating when it comes to weight/fat loss. I always believed and suggested to people to eat BETTER instead of less. See this above is speaking the truth… When I hear people saying that they don’t eat because they’re trying to lose fat it makes me laugh (deep inside) because not eating actually slows down the metabolism, so when people start eating restrictively they are actually sabotaging their fat loss efforts; slow metabolism = NO weight loss! The body thinks it’s starving, so it will go on the “survival” mode which means it will literally slow down its calorie-burning capacity in order to “survive”.
In other words, by not eating the body will sense that it is in “trouble”, so it will try to conserve the little amount of energy it has left as much as possible, which will result in a slower metabolism! Fat is emergency storage for your body. Your body will burn muscle first if you get on low calorie diets, so the body is going to use muscles as fuel, yes muscles, so not only the metabolism will slow down, but the body will also lose some precious muscles.
So… Moral of the story, you don’t have to eat less - you just have to eat BETTER!! In the above picture you can clearly see the sticking difference between 1575 calories of “junk” foods and healthy foods. Remember this, when you’re eating right you don’t have to constantly worry about counting calories
So I gained weight again.
It’s not a full kilo, but enough to change the 4 in front of the period on the scale to a 5. Which is annoying. I am disappointed, but at the same time, I know that I really can’t be, for a number of reasons.
1. I’ve eaten badly. Not by overstepping my daily calorie count, but based on the ingredients I chose to eat (read: carbs). And carbs are not bad in their own right, I mean, potatoes are not bad. French Fries, however are. As are the carbs in beer. And snacks. (There was a bbq party, and two days with unexpected “there’s no other food” while on trips with friends.)
2. I’m on my period. This always causes me to gain weight. No kidding, I can gain everything between 1-5 kilos in just a few days because of this, and it’s super annoying and frustrating, because there’s nothing I can do about it. One day my jeans will fit, the next I can’t even button them because I’ve gotten bloated. It’s a fashion hell as well as an emotional one, I am not even kidding. It’s all fluids, however, and I know that it’ll be gone in just a week, but it’s still frustrating to step on the scale and get an increased number thrown at your face after a week of hard work.
3. Muscle gain. Compared to the past 8 months, I’ve spent an huge amount of time at the gym these past two weeks. And since I know that it takes time for the body to start burning the fat I’ve collected in those eight months, I can’t expect a weight drop too quickly. There’s also the famous “muscle weigh more than fat” saying, but that’s not technically true. In my case, I’ve started to gain muscle mass faster than my body can burn off the fat, which also means that I’ve gained weight, not lost any.
So, taking all those things into account, I know that most of the weight I’ve gained this week is basically water, or muscle. The water will go away and the muscle will still help burn the fat I need to loose. The bad food habits, the snacking and sugar cravings will be remedied (Tip: drinking applecider vinegar in water three times a day is a great way to keep your bloodsugars leveled and stay hydrated at the same time)
I won’t give up. In two weeks I’ll take my measurements again, and then I’ll know if the food, the workouts, and daily walks has changed anything, or if I need to step up my game even further.
Current weight: 105.4 kg (+0.6kg from last week)
Total weightloss: 0.3 kg
Hours spent at gym: 2
Hours spent walking: 2.25
Note 2 Self:
Applecider vinegar and water, three times a day! (stop snacking on bad stuff!)
Watch your choice of food. Don’t deny yourself something you really want, but ask yourself first if you really want it, or if you’re just chosing out of habit.
Well, not really a week, it’s just been 5 days since I started, but it’s close enough.
The week’s been okay. I caught some kind of stomach virus or something and ended up feeling nauseaus for a few days. It made me miss out on a few workoutsessions, but overall it’s been going well. I’ve had my smoothies, and my healty food, and I haven’t felt hungry yet. My bloodsugar’s been a bit wonky though, and I’ve been sleeping a lot (both due to sickness and lack of energy), but I expected that. It takes a while for the body to detox from the sugar I’ve been eating lately, so I trust that I’ll feel more energized and leveled soon.
Current weight: 104.8 kg (-0.9k g)
Total weightloss: 0.9 kg
Hours spent at gym: 1,5
Hours spent walking: 1
Note 2 Self: Drink more water!.
I tend to forget that weight loss can be relaxed. I don’t need to bust my ass at the gym 5 days a week, I can go swimming or do yoga or a YouTube video, I can go for a walk or go bouldering with friends. I don’t need to eat perfectly clean, who cares about a tiny donut? I got so much time, I don’t need to lose 5kg in a month. Obsessing over being perfectly healthy ain’t particularily healthy. Gotta remind myself once in a while.
damn…. I needed to see this!
We really need to normalise exercising and eating well for reasons other than losing weight or building huge amounts of muscle. I’ve started going to the gym recently to relieve stress and help me sleep but despite the fact that I fit into shirts and skirts in size small, I’ve been asked if I’m trying to lose weight numerous times.
Here’s a list of non-aesthetic reasons to exercise:
- relieves stress
- keeps you healthy
- improves sleep
- can have a positive effect on mental health
- makes you stronger and fitter
- something to focus on other than work/school/uni
- IT’S RECOMMENDED AS PART OF A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE
I am not good at writing introductions. Never have been, especially not when they’re about myself.
Descriptions, however, I can do. So I’m gonna start with writing a description about this here blog of mine, and what I intend to use it for.
This is a health blog. And by health, I mean all sorts of health, both physical and mental. I will be reblogging content on gym exercises, body positivity, self care, food, motivational and inspirational posts, and I will of course be posting my own content.
First and foremost, this blog will be used as a personal log for myself and “my quest” for this mythical health that I’ve heard so much about. So this is my first log entry, and to keep your dashes clean, I’ve put the rest under a cut for those who are interested,
Who am I?
My name is Carro, (or Chi, as some friends call me) and I am 30 years old, Swedish, single, cat owner, unemployed, and suffering from social anxiety and depression.
Approximately a year ago, I went through a big change in my life. I lost everything; my home, my boyfriend, my financial security, the works. I basically had to start my life over, which has been a challenge. In some ways it broke me, in others it made me stronger, but nonetheless it changed both me and the way I view the world. The emotional bagage left beind has been a bitch to carry, and I’ve ended up gaining a lot of weight and bad habits because of them. But I am slowly getting back on my feet. I take it one day at a time, and it’s not easy, and some days are worse than others, but I have set up goals for myself and I intend to reach every single one of them.
So what are my goals?
How do I plan to accomplish this?
First of all, I intend to go for walks. A lot of them. 30 minutes a day, unless I do any other form of physical exercise.
Second, I have bought a membership at an open gym, and I have plans on going there 3 times a week, for starters at least. I have previous experience from gym (I used to go 5 days a week before the events of last year) and I look forward to getting back in the game again.
Third - the food. I have already initiated a shake-based foodplan for the upcoming month, but I will be mixing it with solid foods as well. I will try to stay clear of bad carbs and eat more clean (no processed sugars, saturated fats, empty calories etc) but I will not forcibly exclude anything from my meal plan. I’m on a long-term lifestyle change here, after all, not a jojo-diet.
Fouth - Short term deadlines. Because I know that due to my anxiety, if I fail to reach a set goal on a specific date after having had all the time in the world to reach it, I will feel horrible about myself and end up quitting. Instead I will set weekly goals for my weightloss, and monthly goals for my gym exercises. That way, even if I don’t reach the goal, I’ll have a chance to ‘redeem’ myself after a short amount of time, which will increase my motivation to continue.
How will I be keeping track of my progress?
With this blog. I will be posting weekly updates on my weightloss, as well as monthly summaries of my progress at the gym, along with my body stats. I will be tagging these posts with ‘my quest’ to make them easier to find, so if you’re following this blog only for inspiration and pointers, you can blacklist that tag if you’re not interested in seeing those.
So, to officially kick things off, these are my current body stats:
Now, let me make on thing perfectly clear: I am not proud of these numbers. In fact, I hate them, and the kind of deterioration and failure they represent for me as a person. However, if all goes according to plan, this will be the last time I’ll have to post them.
This is the beginning of my quest for health.
The game, my friends, is on.
I will never not reblog this. The 2 guys in the back are just ❤❤❤
people who get hyped up for other people are the greatest people you can have in your life.
Love their reactions. They aren’t worried about being emasculated, they aren’t insecure, they are just genuinely impressed that she’s lifting like a beast!
here’s the deal with self care, for me:
pleasure, in the fun late-capitalism hellhole of present-day america, is treated like a luxury. it’s expensive. it’s frivolous. it’s guilty. if we want to eat ice cream out of the carton and be socially acceptable at the same time, we’d better have earned that ice cream. maybe by like running a marathon or getting dumped by an asshole. if we’re going to duck into the corner store and buy fresh flowers, it’s because we’ve had a hard week, not because flowers are nice. we can take a day off work, but only if we’re sick. we have to suffer before we’re allowed extra kindness.
in this equation pleasure is optional (irresponsible, even), except when it’s a balm for suffering.
however! we need pleasure to live. a life without nice feelings in it is like a diet with no vitamins in it. it’ll make you sick and eventually it’ll kill you. we know this because people with depression stop feeling pleasure, and they often kill themselves. left untreated, depression is a fatal disease.
pleasure is not optional. pleasure is not a luxury. without it, we die. that is literally the opposite of a luxury.
because pleasure is treated like a luxury, and priced accordingly, it is fucking hard to get. it’s hard to take time to relax and see loved ones when corporations aren’t required to offer paid vacation. it’s hard to buy that special face scrub or art print or pretty yarn when it costs $35 and student loans are breathing down your neck. so pleasure gets saved up for when things are really bad. pleasure gets budgeted. pleasure, once again, becomes something we have to earn by abstaining and hurting and gritting our teeth.
do this to people long enough and pleasure becomes potently associated with guilt. this thing we need desperately to stay alive is suddenly something we can’t seek out without looking over our shoulder and wondering if we’re allowed to have it.
that’s why it’s so important that we talk about self care, and tell ourselves and each other that it is okay to do things that feel good. it is necessary to do things that feel good. we have to uncouple suffering and pleasure, because the idea that we have to earn feeling good by first feeling bad is monstrous and wrong.
take care of yourselves, darlings. don’t feel bad about it.
I don’t know about you but I’m so sick of that omnipresent association of sports/fitness with weight loss as the ultimate goal.
(PS: I’m not sure how efficient punching people is for building muscle mass but I’m afraid she’s had a lot of opportunities so I guess four pounds is probably realistic?)
I wish… I WISH I could somehow reblog this HARDER and with MORE LOVE. Sorry to put more non-art stuff in my main tumblr here, but goddamn I feel this so hard. I’ve been hitting the gym with the goal of making a good habit, so that when winter comes around and the inevitable S.A.D. creeps back into my life, I’m more likely to get some exercise as a coping mechanism just out of habit. I’m also weightlifting because I want to get strong (like ox, you might say).
I do not care if I lose weight, I’m not keeping track of my pounds, and if I stay chubby but get stronger I will be just as fucking happy. So glad I found this comic, and so glad I found your art Ephi! New watcher ahoy! <3
Proof you can market anything as a “Superfood” if it says Organic, Raw and Gluten-free.
THERE’S A FREAK’N WARNING ON THE BACK THAT IF EATEN IN EXCESS THEY CAUSE SYMPTOMS OF CYANIDE POISONING!
Their suggestion to eating these is to methodically poison yourself by eating 2-4 every other day. Since when has eating Apricot kernels been a thing in anyone’s diet!?
these can be found at Wholefoods
Jesus Christ, how is this legal
What in the HELLS O.O
Mmm, delicious poison.
Please do not eat the Healthy Poison O.O
Someone could fucking kill someone with these if they poured them in a ziploc bag and called them peanuts
QUESTION: if i eat enough of these, can i build up a tolerance to cyanide poisoning
Alright, folks, time to get Science Side of Tumblr on this. There is SO MUCH BULLSHIT packed into this that I ended up writing an obnoxiously long post, for which I apologize.
Let’s start with the product description page that Nora helpfully linked to. There’s just a ton of bullshit pseudoscience and feel-good woo in here and I’m gonna break it down.
“Apricot Kernels are one of the highest natural sources of a rare phytonutrient called amygdalin, also known as vitamin B17, an important nutrient which has largely disappeared from Western diets.”
Wow. Lots of fail in one sentence. Amygdalin is not, in fact, particularly rare; as the wiki page states, it’s found in “many plants” “particularly the Prunus genus, Poaceae (grasses), Fabaceae (legumes), and in other food plants, including linseed and manioc.” The only people who refer to amygdalin as a vitamin are those trying to make money from it. It is absolutely NOT a vitamin in any way, shape, or form. The definition of the word “vitamin” is “a compound which is required by the body in small amounts, which it cannot make on its own and thus must be obtained from the diet.” Your body does not *require* amygdalin in the least. In fact, if you consume too much of it, you will LITERALLY DIE OF CYANIDE POISONING. It is NOT an “important nutrient.” It has not “disappeared from Western diets” because it was never a part of any culture’s diet. Any group of people who ate too much of it probably died.
“Our raw, certified organic apricot kernels originate from wild apricot trees that have never come into contact with any sort of pesticide, herbicide or synthetic fertilizer. The apricots are harvested gently by hand, then the kernels are removed and slowly sun-dried. Our farmers pride themselves on cultivating the highest quality kernels possible while maintaining eco-friendly and sustainable agricultural practices.”
Wait, there’s a contradiction in there.
“…originate from wild apricot trees…”
“…farmers pride themselves on cultivating…”
Listen, I don’t wanna be a pedantic asshole and debate semantics here, but if farmers are cultivating something, then it’s not wild. Okay? You can certainly have a bunch of people going out into a forest and harvesting things from the wild; for herbs this is called wildcrafting and for fruits/vegetables it is generally called foraging. No part of this involves cultivation or farms, which are about as far removed from wild plants as… well, most varieties of fruits and vegetables that we eat today.
Now we get to the hilarious part:
“WARNING: Sweet apricot kernels contain amygdalin (Vitamin B17) which can cause symptoms of cyanide poisoning when eaten in excess. DO NOT EAT MORE THAN 8 SEEDS PER DAY. See a doctor immediately if you experience symptoms like nausea, fever, headache, or low blood pressure. Do not eat if you are pregnant or nursing. Not intended for children”
THEY LITERALLY FUCKING TELL YOU THAT THESE CAUSE CYANIDE POISONING. Oh wait, no, my mistake, they tell you that they cause “symptoms of cyanide poisoning.” Well, you know what else causes “symptoms” of cyanide poisoning? CYANIDE. If you read the wiki article on amygdalin, you may have noticed this part:
“Amygdalin is hydrolyzed by intestinal β-glucosidase, emulsin, and amygdalase to gentiobiose and L-mandelonitrile. Gentiobiose is further hydrolyzed to glucose, whereas mandelonitrile is hydrolyzed to benzaldehyde and hydrogen cyanide. Hydrogen cyanide in sufficient quantities (allowable daily intake: ~0.6 mg) causes cyanide poisoning (fatal oral dose: 0.6-1.5 mg/kg).”
Also, from the article on apricot kernels that Nora also linked (thank you Nora), there’s this little nugget of info:
“On average, bitter apricot kernels contain about 5% amygdalin and sweet kernels about 0.9% amygdalin. These values correspond to 0.3% and 0.05% of cyanide. Since a typical apricot kernel weighs 600 mg, bitter and sweet varieties contain respectively 1.8 and 0.3 mg of cyanide.”
The kernels that these assholes are selling are the sweet variety, so they do have less cyanide than bitter apricot kernels do. However, let’s run the numbers, shall we? One sweet apricot kernel contains approximately 0.3 mg of cyanide, which means that to get to the fatal oral dose of cyanide (0.6-1.6 mg/kg), one would have to eat between 2 and 5 kernels per kilogram of body weight. Now, admittedly, this would take some effort; I weigh about 84 kg, so a fatal dose of these would be between 168 and 420 kernels. These are 8 oz bags, or approximately 226 g, and one kernel weighs about 600 mg, which means there are around 376 kernels in an average bag. This is WELL within the lethal range for me, and I’m a pretty big guy; someone who weighs a lot less than me would have to eat a lot fewer kernels to get a lethal dose.
Let’s not mince words, folks; cyanide poisoning is fucking awful. Cyanide blocks an enzyme that your cells need in order to properly process oxygen. It basically causes you to suffocate on a cellular level. Sounds like fun, doesn’t it?
And these things are legally for sale? In fucking HEALTH FOOD STORES?!? Can you imagine if a small child got into one of these bags? I can only hope these alternative health wingnuts buying these things are keeping them away from their kids.
Oh, what’s that? You’ll be okay as long as you don’t eat the whole bag? Well, I have unfortunate news for you. Cyanide is not like iocaine powder; you don’t build up an immunity to it by ingesting small amounts daily for years. It can still kill you, although in much more horrible ways than acute cyanide poisoning. From wiki: “Exposure to lower levels of cyanide over a long period results in increased blood cyanide levels, which can result in weakness and a variety of symptoms, including permanent paralysis, nervous lesions, hypothyroidism, and miscarriages. Other effects include mild liver and kidney damage.” Sounds like fun, doesn’t it?
Oh, and if you want a real treat, read the reviews on the product page above. Hoooooooly shit, people can fool themselves into thinking ANYTHING is good for them if it has the words “organic” and “natural” on the package, and if the seller hypes it up to be this AMAZING LONG-LOST SUPERFOOD OMG. Here’s some of the highlights, in case you don’t want to read them all for fear of losing too many brain cells (note that all of these quotes are from separate reviews):
“I eat these apricot kernels because of the B17 cancer fighting factor.” No such thing as B17, and amygdalin has been shown to be useless against cancer.
“I noticed that my energy is constant all day and I believe they are actually helping me to lose weight.” Chances are it’s whatever else you’re putting in your smoothie. Keep eating these long enough and I doubt you’ll have energy all day.
“I love them even more after researching all of the health properties!” Clearly you didn’t do any research outside of browsing a couple articles on fucking David Wolfe’s website or some shit.
This next one has three separate hilarious bits so I’ll quote all three parts together:
“I still am not sure what they do for me yet; however they are loaded with B17 which is said to be really good for certain health benefits.” 1/Well, that sounds promising. 2/Loaded with cyanide, yum! 3/“certain health benefits.” Not sure which ones, but a website said it, so it must be true!
“Too bad I can’t eat too many without lowering blood pressure too much.” I can only assume that this person is referring to the fact that your blood pressure drops to 0/0 when you’re dead.
“I like them…not too bitter, but enough so that I know I am getting what I need.” Because something being bitter is a great indication that it’s good for you, amirite? I mean, kale is great for you, and it’s bitter, so that must mean the bitterness is what makes it good for you!
“I have cancer and eat 5 kernels, 3 times a day.. I eat them with some food so I don’t end up with a stomach ache.” I would make a comment about how you should know better than to eat things that give you a stomach ache, but then again, this person could conceivably be on chemo, which also causes awful symptoms, so maybe they’re just conditioned to believe that things that make them feel horrible are actually helping cure them.
“I eat a few a day and I will hopefully see my blood pressure down next dr appt” …folks, please don’t eat poison instead of taking blood pressure medication. I know doctors tend to overprescribe pills, but COME THE FUCK ON.
“I’m trying to get off medication (over 30 years) and want to use natural food to help heal my body!” Which is an admirable goal, and certainly possible. But this is not the way to do it. You need to do your research into the foods you eat to try and heal yourself, and if you did the SLIGHTEST BIT OF RESEARCH you would have found that these things contain CYANIDE. Which absolutely WILL NOT heal your body.
“they are crunchy, aromatic, and slightly bitter, and numb the tip of my tongue when I chew on more than a few at a time.” HOW IS THIS NOT A GIANT RED FLAG HOLY FUCKING SHIT
“It is important to read the information about how many to consume per day as it is a medicinal food with great potential.” Great potential to kill you, yes. Medicinal food, not so much.
tl;dr Apricots are the devil’s nutsack, please don’t eat his testicles.
They look almost identical to almonds. When i see almonds i grab a handful and shove them all in my mouth at once. (Why? you ask? Because i can) I have giant hands so that usually 15-20 almonds.
I can see myself accidentally killing my self after eating three handfuks…
I literally had someone on FB the other day telling me I need more super-foods and then I’ll be “healthier” and one of the things they recommended was apricot kernels because, and I quote “the cyanide triggers your immune system into working again” and I just…no, nO, NO.