Ichigo didn’t believe them for one second, of course. If those two weren’t plotting something random and designed to fuck with Ichigo’s life then it was likely the world was about to finally end once and for all.
Ignoring Grimmjow behind him trying to breathe his way through two busted balls, Ichigo grabbed the shopping bag of booze and threw himself down at the table with a glower. He needed something to wash the taste of arrancar tongue out of his mouth, stat.
“What are we playing tonight, assholes?”
Yoruichi and Urahara looked at each other and smiled.
“It’s funny you should ask, since you’re up next.”
It would be so, so easy to write Douan off as just another bastard, a character that doesn’t even merit a second glance. And ultimately, that’s what he wants people to think – he’s a monster, a force of nature, someone who doesn’t care about anything.
The truth is that Douan cares too much, just as much as Licht does, and that’s why they stood side by side during the war. Douan understood the toll that the war took on Licht, and that he just didn’t have it in him to take young lives on top of the other countless number of lives he’d taken. So Douan took them for him, doing for him what Licht did for everyone else.
Having grown up isolated, neglected, and taught only scorn and the need for survival, Douan has never known how to be kind nor how to show love. As a concept, he understands it, but showing it is something else entirely. Violence and anger are all he’s known. This doesn’t excuse any of his actions, but that’s something he knows more than anyone else, being “just the kind of guy you love to hate.”
Every story needs a villain. If he has to be a villain to protect the ones he cares about, so be it.
This panel is so so painful. Aki is often the voice of reason in the manga/the one pulling the dumb faces making jokes.
This panel shows a completely different and painful side of his life.
‘Any means necessary’
‘Almost everyone asked for something in return’
‘I did things I can’t even joke about’
These words coupled with him shirtless and curled in on himself, I just want to protect him. I think this glimpse into his hidden life explains (but in no way excuses) his actions with Haruki.
I think he sees sex as something people take, something they want, something he has to do. I think aki himself has been in situations where he felt like he had to do it regardless of his own feelings.
He’s so ashamed of himself in this panel and all I want to do is tell him he’s not worthless and those people that ‘wanted something in return’ for giving a bed to a teenager desperate for a place to shelter are the worthless ones.
Anyway sorry for ranting, we are always saying protect haruki/mafuyu but aki needs protecting too!
Pls guys, stop making me so emotional, I can’t handle all of this.
Aki, you’re a little sunshine to me and I feel you so much.
I thought love would be softer, sweeter, and kinder. I found out with my first love that those thoughts were just a happy delusion. Falling in love with someone is something much more violent, like having your flesh ripped apart.