yr locked in a room alone with three adult men but you feel perfectly safe. who are they
when your self image and imposter syndrome is so debilitating that you have an internal freakout and debate when the person you’re seeing calls you beautiful or compliments you in any way and you’re trying not to let them see your internal struggle of your mind screaming that you’re not and somehow you’ve just somehow tricked or manipulated them into thinking you’re something you’re not. 😌😣🙄
literally just sobbed about it after he headed back home this afternoon. and i dont have therapy again until the 24 so trying to type this for memory and shs’ll probs tell me in a therapist way that im being ridiculous but yeah it’s awful. I don’t like it. Cause like someone has the power to gas you up like this and then what if I finally start believing it and then it all comes crumbling apart??? Like I’d be fuckin wrecked. Never attempting a relationship again. ugh. igh ugh i hate my brain
that last tiktok is what made me finally break down and download tiktok
This website would be so funny in the death note universe I think some of you guys would be really pro Kira
Imagining discourse where some people are reminding you not to put your name and face on your blog to stay safe and then other people call you toxic and abusive for that bc it means you’re hiding something if you don’t want Kira to be able to kill you
[ID: Image 1, a photo of Parker, Elliot Spencer, and Alec Hardison￼ from Leverage: redemption. With a tumblr post from ￼’birdsquirrel￼’ reading “every ot3 has these very important roles.” Image 2, a photo of Parker with text on top reading “person A, who runs headlong into crazy bullshit.” Image 3, a photo of Elliot Spencer with text on top reading “person B, who acts like they’re too sensible to run headlong into crazy bullshit, but is really just as bad as person A.” Image 4, a photo of Alec Hardison with text on top reading “person C, who actually tries to avoid running headlong into crazy bullshit, but keeps getting dragged into it by the other two anyway.” ID over]
[ID: Image 1, a photo of Parker, Elliot Spencer, and Alec Hardison￼ from Leverage: redemption. With a tumblr post from ￼’birdsquirrel￼’ reading “every ot3 has these very important roles.”
Image 2, a photo of Parker with text on top reading “person A, who runs headlong into crazy bullshit.”
Image 3, a photo of Elliot Spencer with text on top reading “person B, who acts like they’re too sensible to run headlong into crazy bullshit, but is really just as bad as person A.”
Image 4, a photo of Alec Hardison with text on top reading “person C, who actually tries to avoid running headlong into crazy bullshit, but keeps getting dragged into it by the other two anyway.” ID over]
Warnings: non-consent sex and rape (series), cheating, nothing much else to warn about yet…
This is dark!Zemo x reader and explicit. 18+ only. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.
Series Synopsis: You’ve always felt like you’re running from behind to catch up, but after a chance encounter with an enigmatic man, your life gets ahead of you.
Note: Here’s some Zemo to break up the Birch chapters, which we’ll have another of tomorrow, and more Zemo on Friday. Some breathing room for me but maybe I’ll just keep writing, hehe.
Thanks to everyone for their patience and feedback. :)
I really hope you enjoy. 💋
<3 Let me know what you think with a like or reblog or reply or an ask! Love ya!
You yawned over the new display of summer scents as you arranged the candles by colour. On the weekends, business picked up but with your new responsibilities during the week, you found it hard to keep up with the rush.
The end of your shift would not be the end of the day. You had a stack of documents to go over before Monday and you didn’t want to be the stuttering rookie as you sat in on your first meeting. You kept up stocking as you wondered at how quickly your break passed.
This line—-“But you took,” he leaned in and his nose touched yours, “I can take too.”—- whew boy!!! That created some feelings inside me.
Such a lovely update! Thanks for writing and sharing with us!
this kid is 14 oh my god is no one teaching children to protect themselves online anymore…
Meanwhile us olds are like: I don’t have a carrd and I’m not reading yours
Please don’t advertise your personal information, anyone could find that and use it however they want.
Oh my fucking god it isn’t 1998 anymore no one cares
??? Wtf does this mean??? 80% of employers google you before hiring you, child predators use that info to groom kids, abusers use that info against victims, police/government track activists online? Do you honestly think the internet has gotten safer since 1998????
also don’t tell any rando who wanders onto your blog with unknown intentions the specifics of how they can trigger you???? no????
the fact that its not 1998 anymore is exactly WHY you should be more fucking careful. do you have any idea the tools people have now compared to then? the fact that its gotten exponentially easier to find people in real life based off online info while young people have gotten extremely comfortable sharing all their personal details is deeply concerning.
im sorry no one ever taught you internet safety but that is NOT because its not important anymore. ITS MORE IMPORTANT THAN IT EVER WAS. please listen to the people whove been on the internet longer than youve been alive. our intentions are good and internet safety is vital. especially if youre queer, which i know for a fact a lot of you are.
If you don’t believe that people can track you online from a little bit of information, please check out this thread by Emily Gorcenski, an anti-fascist activist, where she breaks down how she was able to determine the exact location of someone’s storage unit based only on a photo in the New York Times. (Gorcenski also uses her super powers to out fascists, but in this case, she is using it on one of those people who were buying up hand sanitizer in the early days of the COVID-19 pandemic.)
The whole thread is fascinating, and is based on nothing more than a single photo, with most of the stuff she relies on to make the ID not even being in focus, let along in the foreground. Stuff you might never think about, like the angle between two building or the exact color of the storage unit doors.
Because you might think to yourself, “What is the harm of sharing a photo that shows the color of my storage unit doors??” But combined with your name and the fact that you live in, say, Eastern Tennessee, that might be all someone needs to narrow it down.
You should really read the whole thing, but to quote something she says at the end:
“The things that give you away are things that are not the focus of the shot. It’s details in the background, the foreground. Shadows, changes in coloration where they’re not expected. … I have geolocated people from pictures of cranes in the background of images, and use local construction permits to figure out where they are. I have used the shape of downspout guards and styles of siding to identify neighborhoods.”
And as she reminds us: You should always assume that bad actors are capable of doing this, too.
So for the love of all that is holy, please protect yourselves. Be conscious of what you share and where and who can see it. This stuff matters.
Not to mention, like……… predators lie. Predators will do one of these carrds with information specifically designed to lure people into a false sense of security.
I could say that I’m a 15 year old trans indigenous girl named Jess who lives in the inner suburbs of Sydney, and NOT A SINGLE word of that is remotely true, but how do you know??? How do you know whether I’m telling the truth or not??
But you might read it and think “oh she’s a minor like me; she’s Safe to talk to” or “she’s trans too she understands me on a personal level” or “I know her; her name is Jess” or “she’s indigenous, I can take her stances on indigenous topics as Truth” – but I’m not any of those things. And if I wrote all that and stated that they were true and you believed me then you would be in an inherently vulnerable position, because you would be believing I’m your age or have the same gender experiences as you or that I’m of the same heritage, and meanwhile I could be a predator who’s specifically trying to target children by making myself out to be both a minor and two different types of minority.
And yeah, people can lie all the time if they want to; there’s nothing to stop me right now from announcing that I’m actually American, or I’m actually 52, or I’m actually a natural redhead, or I’m actually [insert something that I am not]. But if its becoming commonplace to lay all your “basic” information on the table from the outset then youre gonna start taking that at face value. Youre gonna believe peoples bios. You’re gonna check someone’s carrd out and go “oh they’re a fourteen year old boy from wisconsin” and every interaction you have with them from then on is going to be through a lens of “theyre a fourteen year old boy from Wisconsin,” and they might not be.
For the love of GOD please stop sharing your personal details online. You dont need to tell people your actual name. You dont need to share selfies. Godding fuck dont announce to the whole world that you live in a certain specific area and that you’ve just been kicked out of home. There are people who will take that information and use it against you.
And if you are ever, EVER going to meet up with an online friend in real life, here are some basic tips that you really absolutely 100% should do:
- Do a zoom chat with them first. No, not selfies; selfies can be taken from anywhere. I could google “teenage girl,” screenshot it, and send it to you with the claim that its my face. I could steal someone’s Facebook photos and claim they’re mine. Its a lot harder for an adult to con you into thinking theyre a teenager if you insist on doing a zoom call or similar with them first.
- If you have a facetime/zoom call/Skype/whatever scheduled, and they cancel it, but still want to meet up in person at the pre-arranged time, DO NOT GO. Straight up say “no, we’ll reschedule; how about we Skype at the time we were meant to meet in person instead.” DO NOT MEET UP WITH SOMEONE IF YOU HAVENT VIDEO-CHATTED WITH THEM. DO NOT. If they dont want to Skype with you or keep agreeing to and then dropping out, then thats a fucking huge warning sign.
- If they video chat with you and you’re satisfied that they are who they say they are and youre happy to go ahead with the meet, then agree to meet up in the middle of the day in a crowded place. A shopping mall, a busy cafe, etc. Somewhere with lots of people around. Do NOT go somewhere else with them. Do NOT get in their car or go somewhere with fewer people or etc. Hate to break it to you, but it is NOT outside of the realm of possibility that the person you’re meeting is bait to get you somewhere isolated where someone else can grab you. This is a thing that has happened. Easiest way to avoid it? Don’t go places alone with your online friend until you know for sure they’re not dodgy.
- Also: TELL SOMEONE WHERE YOU ARE GOING AND WHO YOU ARE GOING TO MEET. It doesn’t have to be a parent. Lord knows some of you kids don’t trust your parents, and I understand that. But tell SOMEONE. A friend, a sibling, a cousin; whatever. Tell them when you’re going, where you’re going, who you’re meeting, and what the other person’s online details are. If it turns out that theyre a normal human person who is just keen to meet their online friend, then great. But if they turn out to be some kind of creepy whackjob who kidnaps you or something, then at least there is someone out there who can give the police a start point about where you were and who you were meeting.
Online safety is so important and it really freaks me out to see how cavalier some of you kids are with your own safety. There are loads of freaks out there; don’t hand your information over to them in a handy little personal bio.
also if your online friend even possesses one iota of common sense, they will be fully understanding about every one of these safety precautions, and take them themselves, too.
if your online friend dismisses these concerns, then they don’t care about your personal safety, and they aren’t your friend, and you shouldn’t meet with them.
Remember kids, It only took a picture of a flag against a blue sky for 4chan to find it, steal it, and use it to terrorize famous-at-the-time actor Shia Lebuff so badly he left social media entirely.
I’m always amazed at the double standard.
The customer shamed her for being in porn… but… how exactly did that customer *find* her videos in the first place?
These people are perfectly happy to consume the content but refuse to respect those that make it.
Just in case anybody tries to make a case that sex work is illegal:
I work at Taco Bell.
We are a felon-friendly company.
One of the best workers on my team is on parole for transporting drugs and we literally had a party for him when he graduated from his halfway house. (Well, “party.” Because of COVID it was more like “we brought you a cake and you can control the aux cord tonight,” but the thought was there.) I’ve worked with multiple addicts and trained a former gang member to become a shift leader. We don’t give a shit if you have a less-than-pure-as-the-driven-snow past. Porn is hardly a blip on the radar.
There is no reason that “this is illegal/legally gray work” should count against her. This is ENTIRELY about optics and “the customer is always right” gone insane.
Reason #35675324678 sex work needs to be made unequivocally legal.
Okay everybody else who ever read this story immediately realized that there’s no possibility the angry customer found out after the fact, right? Nobody is ever going to think “hey I wonder if that random taco bell worker is a porn star, perhaps I’ll google it” and the odds they accidentally found out days later about a random taco bell worker they interacted with are impossibly astronomical.
That was an anonymous complaint from an ex, a stalker, a judgmental neighbor, someone who already knew who she was and had a personal problem with her. Her employer should be ashamed of falling for disingenuous bullshit that stupidly fucking obvious.
This makes me cry, actually.
Just to add on. Libraries in many cities have 3d printers you can use that charge you only the price of materials. So if you can’t wait for the shipping from the engineers, try your local library.
Humanity at its best 🤗
I have a neighbor with essential tremors in her hands and know this would help her tremendously
Therapy is so great yall. Or better yet, a consistent therapist is so great.
Like friends and my own head will point out rational logical things or tell me that my brain is just being dumb but my brain will still be like, you dont know the real me you’re wrong.
But I’ve had my therapist going on a bit over a year now and I can’t lie so I’m super open with her about everything and she’s heard me talk about all the great things that my friends and coworkers do to support me so when I get in my slumps and talk about how i feel like they all hate me she can pull back up receipts to prove my brain otherwise. And help me see my brain is just doing the awful most 🙄
And so now I’m like, ok yeah. Running away to ireland or new zealand would be even more stressful cause work visas and transporting the cats over and not having people i knew there so may as well stay here with a job I AM GOOD at, and have heard this from teachers, students and coworkers so it’s not just people blowing smoke up my ass. And the past couple weeks have just been flukes because of overstressing myself out and isolating from people then telling myself they hate me cause i havent hung out with them even though they’ve totally reached out to ask me to come over or hang out and I’ve just said no.
Brains are assholes. I know yall know this. But just needed to write it out.