ive been thinking about him so very much
wtf gay little jet plane
i’m back……..and i am a starscream apologist💔
for the past couple years, i’ve been trying to feel better about my current algorithm situation and how it doesnt align with my purpose as an artist, which is to make lotsa people happy with everything i make and make myself happy in the process. doing something as a career and not feeling happy doing it sounds pointless, which is kind of what i’ve been feeling the past while. i’ve practiced all i can to be at a place where my art style fits my desired look and personality better, where it uplifts me instead of making me feel disappointed with the final product but having tons of happy reactions from others to drown out that disappointment. i’m extremely happier with my art now than i was back in 2019-2020, and that should be the whole point. it should be. and i’m frustrated with myself that i’m letting this algorithm bullshit get to me.
i’ve been on the verge of deleting all of my old ship art, so notifications of it gaining traction again can’t hurt me anymore. so that people who may follow me because of it don’t feel disappointed and fall inactive when they realize i don’t post that kind of content anymore. my old posts often drown out my new ones, which makes it hard for me to even find a reason to post anymore at all.
i’m unsure of where to go from here. i do want to keep posting but i no longer feel like im making anyone happy with what i make, which was a big part of my main purpose and self-worth. art is supposed to be fun and fulfilling, and at one point, it was just that for me. now it just consists of constantly comparing myself to others, and wondering just where and when i went wrong. i feel i’ve truly lost touch with what making art means to me, and because of that i’m taking a hiatus to realign myself with what truly makes me happy, and to wholeheartedly better myself emotionally and physically. i’ve been so focused on how others feel about the things i make that i’ve neglected my own happiness completely. i want to care less about numbers and notifications and i want to make art fun for myself again.
please remember to take care of yourself anyone who reads this, especially other struggling artists on this app, i’ll be back soon - ramu
(copied and pasted from my instagram)
been rereading the four swords manga lately
SO TRUE BREASTIE!!!!🛐
“if you’re so tired of me, feel free to kill me anytime”
wtf…..gay little ninja
tired at work
still hung up on the fact someone went out of their way to try and call me out for something perfectly fine instead of worrying about actually problematic stuff😭😭😭funniest shit ever
isnt jotaro married and like 8 years older wtf
aren’t they both consenting adults wtf that’s so fucked up
this was @flonion ‘s idea she’s way funnier than me
i think about this jay line alot
quick doodle of Them =))