i know you did not ask but if you fancy it,, mayhaps could you ramble about k_k and memory?
youo know I wove you and wouwd do anything fow you bwoss! ♡
also I Always enjoy rambling when I get the chance (provided I somehow find the drive to do so)…
my cks’s memory issues stem from defects that can’t be repaired - much like their absence of pain sensors as a whole. while this isn’t severe, it can still be a bit. strange? at times. in that they don’t remember too much about their past (beyond particularly important memories), whether this be in moments or people entirely beyond the - [feeling a way towards experiencing/looking at something, but uncertain as to why]. the kind where they’ll go into the city and can’t place who they used to talk a lot with in an alleyway but feel that dip-ache of longing.
tastes and music tend to be better associations with memories for it. citrus is a stronger sentiment with the strong sour-flavor of lemon being for happier memories than not - a sort of gold warm auburn sunshine grounding note across the sensors. being a radio cassette player, they are capable of burning and returning to memories in that way - but cks doesn’t normally do that since while they can play tunes rather fine, there have been times in the past where they’ve ruined a memory they were particularly fond about and can never quite reexperience it the same way. has a lot of muscle memory at least. ‘s why they enjoy dancing - feels right, makes ‘em alive.
and, they do write. they have a lot of boxes of journals and notes they’ve made about the people they’ve encountered, the people they care for, any scenes/memories/anything at all they want to keep around and know they’ve done. not only to make sure they know/remember the little stuff like the likes and dislikes of someone, but because at least that’s another and more immediate form of returning to a memory. easier to doodle and throw in some fun colors. (it’s not the same albeit; it’s not like taking a record and being able to play it over again in clarity whenever it wants.)
which is why they’re a little sentimental sometimes, too. not as much as cap’n - at least not expressively - but they do try to live in the moment more than not. thinking about the past can be tiring. those what “if’s,” the strange displacement. don’t like to think much about that future either. and it’s naturally passive - prefers to follow, let others lead. happy to just be with someone. it is a little frustrating though - those gaps of memory - those unfortunate times where they may have lost something a bandmate shared with them, but.
(swt and cpn always happy to remind them time after time again.)
that squeeze of hand in hand. forgetting their next move, led anyways and paced back, sliding step forward and turn-pivot to another note. // reenacting a scene. a moment. // how many times was that? - I forgot. - that’s okay. let’s try again. // and they’re really appreciative - all those times they’re patient with them and for whatever reason looking up to them in a way they can’t understand.