he spread h is. ashds
he spread h is. ashds
i cannot believe how much time i spent being mad about supernatural lol like now that i’m busy and months have passed i don’t even remember the finale happened i just think of the confession randomly and vibe
really just thinking about how traumatically beautiful it was that cas essentially said. i know how to love because you taught me. because you loved so fiercely without compromise. i was an ancient being who was not meant to have emotion, but you are so good and true, i learned how to be human because of you. and i am standing before you bearing my self-made heart to you, the man i have chosen to be devoted, to love, to choose over everything including god himself. i choose you, and i have chosen you ever since i held your soul in my hands, and i am choosing now to share this small yet monumental moment of absolute love before i leave you forever. this may be good bye, but love is more powerful than god, and i want you to know that i love you. i love you so much that it doesn’t matter that we may never be together. being with you as a part of your life was enough. you were always enough.
absolutely OBSESSED with the line “now you might be able to forget about that, but i can’t!” because like. that’s textual, that is the writers telling the audience there is a marked difference between how sam and dean are grieving in regards to cas specifically. this isn’t just about the differences in the ways that sam and dean cope with loss; it’s about the difference in intensity in dean’s grief about cas vs. sam’s. sam can move on from cas’ death, but dean can’t, and the question we are left with is why.
new aspect of the prisoner i haven’t analyzed to bits yet: when cas is like “i don’t want to have to hurt you” and dean goes “i don’t think that’s gonna be a problem” its fucking. TERRIFYING. because its dean FINALLY acknowledging what he’s known all along which is cas would never hurt him. like up to this point all the times when cas was like i rebelled for this! i could throw you back into hell! i can smite you if you don’t respect me! dean went along with it but it was like the (to quote zoe stellakowalskis) equivalent of a old film actress beating her tiny fists on the protagonist’s chest. like there’s NO real threat or malice behind it because cas is SO devoted to him. and dean DOES have the capacity to hurt cas because like his love for cas is SO wrapped up in his self loathing ESPECIALLY during the mark of cain arc. and he’s like inVOKING this power dynamic between them with the EXPRESS intent to hurt cas. and its like later, he CAN’T forgive himself for that but he can’t bring himself to apologize to cas either because he knows cas will forgive him. so like the ONLY way he can think to make it even is to not let cas heal him in the bad seed. you FUCKED UP MAN GO TO THERAPYYYY
thinking about the confession and “daddy’s blunt instrument” a line said to dean by dean in a dream sequence pre-cas’s introduction and how dean had to have told cas that specific, self-hating thought, that nagging fear that’s all he is, at some point or another, and trying to pinpoint the single most emotionally devastating point in their twelve year relationship for them to have had that conversation
NEW DNI INCOMING
dni if you’re the oldest sibling, you have a cowboy kink, you’re obsessed with your car, you’re repressed, have mommy issues, have daddy issues, only have one sibling, you’re a swiftie, you can quote rent, you’re a neat freak, you’re a control freak, like beer, fell in love with your best friend, have slept with your partner’s sibling, like classic rock, dress like a lumberjack, you’re a trekkie,
sorry i’m super inactive
i read that time travel fic where established destiel dean goes back to 2008 and 2008 dean goes forward and the ending made me extremely emotional and i should have been finishing my work for tomorrow but i didn’t and now i’m just emo
In all seriousness it is high-key fucked up how many people had to have seen Dean’s Asian fetishism as just a “haha what a guy,” thing, and not a deeply horrifying trait for a story’s hero to have.
Multiple people chose to write those jokes, sign off on those jokes, and not step in and stop those jokes.