So this is probably my what..fourth or fifth time doing the dragoon job questline? And every time I seem to learn something different and how it applies retroactively to what I know of Estinien Wyrmblood.
BIG FAT WAD OF TEXT UNDER THE CUT, please read it and feel free to give your opinion and/or corrections!
As a disclaimer some of this is drawing inferences based on some objective observations in game and they are for the beholder to interpret. What you are reading, other than the facts, are conclusive points I’ve drawn and I do not attest to make them canon.
In the dragoon quest we learn that he is an orphan. We learn how he feels about how Ishgard treats orphans, which is bitter, as it is for most in his predicament–probably well familiar with places like The Brume, considering.
We learn that when we first meet him, he is a fugitive of the law, that he stole The Eye, and I always questioned why when we quest with Estinien in Heavensward we didn’t just hand his ass in; it was because Alberic didn’t report it, whether out of guilt for Ferndale or otherwise, so even the Archbishop didn’t know of what transpired.
It can be assumed that once it was reported why Estinien kept The Eye, he was allowed to remain so to keep track of Nidhogg and his brood, and charges were lifted. Ameryc as well as other officials in Ishgard speak very highly of Estinien’s service as Azure Dragoon, it can be implied that they strongly believe though his deeds make him a martyr to the core they are also heroic and may save the very walls of the Holy See.
Text and interaction change depending on when you complete the dragoon questine to 50 and attain the title Azure Dragoon in accordance to where you are in the Heavensward storyline:
- If you obtain the title and level before ARR 2.4, when Ameryc introduces Estinien, you as the Warrior of Light recognizes him and he you. If you notice the facial expression changes of your character they will start as shocked and then angry; I believe this is because though Ishgard has been informed Estinien’s purpose, you as the PC have not, your last exchange caused concern of Estinien’s control over The Eye and you witnessed Estinien succumb much to your dismay. When Ameryc gives Estinien accolades the dragoon immediately after gives them to you, saying you are his better.
- If you obtain the title and level before you, Estinien, Alphinaud, and Ysale reach Moghome, there is a flavor line added once you assist Alphinaud, that Estinien mentions how as fellow Azure Dragoons you two can relate to each other, and emphasizes the importance of your roles to Ishgard’s fate. He also mentions Hraesvalgr, and “expect[s] you to do what must be done” if the meeting with the great wyrm should turn ill favorable.
- If you obtain the title and level before you reach Final Steps of Faith, once Nidhogg is defeated and you and the party are in the infirmary treating Estinien’s wounds, he looks at you with a touch of surprise (and perhaps slightly offended!). There is another set of lines only dragoons get, something on the lines of “I had not known you possess such prowess behind the lance” and a bantering “Why didn’t you tell me?!” (which I found INCREDIBLY interesting but I’ll elaborate below)
Now, I had a very concrete opinion about Estinien when I played through the first time as a non dragoon, mainly? He’s a jerk. Screw that guy.
It took me really focusing on the job and relating it to the story multiple times before I realized just how complex a character Estinien truly is. We know his story to be tragic, we know Nidhogg took his family, we know it orphaned him, and we can imply he didn’t grow up in the best conditions because of it, because we’ve SEEN how Ishgard treats their lower class, downtrodden, unfortunately without, and orphans. His disposition to remain true to Ishgard even through his upbringing speaks quite a bit, and we can’t forget that he was eventually taken in by Alberic who seems like an upstanding guy, as well a former Azure Dragoon who gave his services to Ishgard. But this is all basic backstory filler. What makes Estinien ESPECIALLY interesting is who he became after possession of The Eye.
Estinien is cold, stoic, but was he always? Ameryc mentions Estinien after he was possessed a second time, how they would feud and butt heads, but how it oddly formed into a bond and Ameryc considers them close. Estinien has a blunt humor it seems, it can be seen with how he picks on Alphinaud. But we never really see him laugh or express himself outside the importance of his duty and life’s will. And it must have been the fourth time completing that damn 50 mission in Steel Vigil, but the scene stuck out to me and it just HIT.
First, the fight itself. Estinien’s lines “you have awoken the dragon within” and “My flames shall consume you,” I suspect that once you get to the part where The Dragon’s Curse consumes Estinien’s body and soul (so sayeth the green text), every Skydragon Dive was Nidhogg literally trying to bust out. When the fight is over, and the ‘voice from within’ which we know to be Nid is begging Estinien to consume himself within his own rancor, Estinien falls prey, but the visage of Haldrath expunges Nidhogg’s presence in Estinien, at least temporarily.
Alberic is trying to calm Estinien down but that monologue he gave most likely wasn’t even an angering one; if we take what we see of Estinien’s near monotone monologuing in Heavensward we known him to be fairly collected in that sense. But let’s say Estinien was pissed anyway–to have Alberic warn Estinien away from his anger lest he be possessed should have been a big red flag. I was probably like so many who rolled their eyes and went ‘oh Final Fantasy, building up that oh so critical Melodrama™, so I ignored it. Then it happened again after Reactor, and Estinien wasn’t angry then, on the contrary he was calmed, he was relieved. So I had to add a few things up.
This man is on a quest for vengeance and won’t rest until he gets it, but can’t even feel hurt lest he be overtaken by Nidhogg’s spirit. He can’t be happy, because if he is, he is no longer keeping a strong conscious guard, but he can’t be sad or that too brings his emotional barriers down–like, the guy couldn’t even relax for even a MINUTE before Nidhogg swooped in and was like GOTCHA BITCH. Estinien can’t even feel anything, and if so it can’t be too strong, perhaps he can’t even concentrate on anything else other than just keeping focused, numb, and clear headed the best he can just to preserve himself.
And you know? That’s just really sad.
It’s even more sad that we ultimately don’t get to see the real Estinien Wyrmblood. The last we see of him he was so worn out fighting for his own soul, and every time before he has had to wear this stone mask and tunnel only to his mission.
I guess what this big ol’ block of post is trying to say is…I’d kind of really like to see Estinien in aftermath. I want to see this man Ameryc doted over, who was strict and martial focused but had a crude humor and a good head on firm shoulders. I want to see what he is like when he is finally able to just feel, or at least, what he is like after The Eyes. Is Estinien able to feel now or is he too conditioned to numbness? Or will it just take time? Who is the man now that his life’s will has been fulfilled?
And you remember points 2 and 3 from above? I sometimes wonder if Estinien wanted you as a friend and not just a fellow person in arms. He confides in you, we see that in point 2, but of course it was just business. Yet, with 3 it seems as if he WANTED you to confide in him, and I just…ugh, that is actually adorable?? Like, ???????????? Then again, when you think of how Estinien and Ameryc became besties, would any of this come to a surprise to anyone?
Idk, I just think Estinien is neat, and I think we really overlook his character and underestimate his development because of the complications of the Eyes of Nidhogg.
And also he’s got that awkward yet hot big brother thing going for him? Which will tooootally translate to DILF in some years so you know 👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀 good shit go౦ԁ sHit👌 thats ✔ some good👌👌shit right👌👌there👌👌👌
FFXIV dragoon class spoilers
reblogging for my own read. deleting soon-ish!
Before you get mad at your partner for not doing what you expect them to do, Stop and ask yourself “have I ever communicated to them that I have this expectation?” If you have not, it’s unfair to expect them to read your mind.
So many arguments are saved by just opening your mouth and saying “hey hun, in the future can you….” Whether its articulating how you like to be loved, supported, or communicated with, you have to open your mouth. Your soul mate (IMO) isn’t the person that just always knows what you need when you need it without you telling them. Your soul mate is the person who hears your needs and thinks “I have no problem doing that because I love this person with my whole heart”
So check your attitude and open your mouth. Closed mouths don’t get fed.
I was inspired by some of the Emet-Selch trust member posts I saw going around and took a swing at the three Paragons of the Source. Tomfoolery and MAJOR SPOILERS for Shadowbringers beneath the cut. Also thank you to @twelveswood for putting these together for me!
the FFVIIR ost never fails to remind me how eargasmic it is
It’s okay to be a beginner at the things you are interested in. There is no reason to feel intimidated by people more advanced than you are, because they too were in your place at one point. Keep learning and growing and expanding in whatever it is that you love and let nothing and no one stop you. You don’t have to be at the same stage as someone else. You can just be at your stage and that one is okay too.
i finished Stormblood and Shadowbringers in these past two months :)
Disappear into solitude and dedicate as many sunsets as you need to falling back in love with yourself, so your vibrations heighten and match the vibrations of a new love. Your spiritual partner is ready and waiting for you to elevate.
I hope you find a cozy home in yourself instead of wishing you were more this or less that. I hope you see something in yourself worth loving and protecting. I hope you find something that brings you comfort and lessens the loneliness. I hope you go on long walks and drink your favourite tea. I hope you have books, daydreams, paintbrushes, music and other escapes to hold on to when you have nothing else. I hope you continue to try even when you’re tired and can’t see the end. I hope unexpected good things come to surprise you. I hope you meet someone who lights up your life and makes up for all the goodbyes and endings that came before. I hope you’re going through your day and feel a sense of lightness all over and wonder to yourself, maybe it’s all going to be alright. I hope you make yourself proud. I hope you make new memories full of warmth and peace to replace the bad ones. I hope your heart will be surrounded with flowers, trees and stars. I hope everything gets better for you.
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