@simpleeynah

I’m ready to let go.

“If my fate is to disappear like this, then this is my last letter. Penned words, written then erased”

Hi , you are reading this now and I would like to welcome you and for you to know that my body is still alive , while I am so mentally dead.  BTW I am an ordinary employee , woman , daughter , niece and friend. I am a human who nearly give up every sucks things in this world.

I’ve never been so good in everything.  I’ve never been praised by my love ones. There is always a consequences for me to get those. I don’t know, ALL I ever know is that I did everything. Everything to make them amaze by me. I am so freaking tired. My life is sucks. HAHA!

Living in a broken family is not that too easy. Grown up being a bread winner isn’t that too happy. Pretending to be HAPPY is soo damn tiring. (Sigh). As long as I know , I did everything I know I can. :( 

I am so tired , I am so depress , and this depression slowly killing me.  Those nights full of despair became days, then months, and slowly years. The same despair that served as a reminder that I was alive now taunts me with life. It sounds like I’m being ungrateful HAHA. Just a whiny little bitch complaining about something so minute compared to all the other problems of the world.HAHA

But it’s really tiring and I guess I cannot make  it till the end. I want to disappear so fast  that , no one can even notice that I am missing.  I’ve been comforting only my self by listening to BTS musics. Indeed :) They become my happiness and they can make me happy even just a little amount of time. My life is full of drama, so you can’t blame me. aha!  

So if you are reading this please listen to “LET GO” by BTS ( search for english translation ) okay? :) Some of the lyrics will be my last message for you. :)

By the time you finish reading this I’ll be gone, but you’ll still be here.
You’ll still have a chance to create the life you want to live. Don’t be like me. Who gave up that fast. :)

I wish you keep living okay.? 

I wish you continue this life and don’t succumb to the circumstances of it.
Love and give infinitely.
Experience all there is to.
Chase after your dreams and wishes.
Live a fulfilling life. Fighting ! 

Don’t worry, I’ll still be here- existing forever within the memories and experiences we once shared. 

“ In order to release your hand right now
I gotta let you know that I need to let you go
Hard to say goodbye
But I can’t run
I’m ready to let go “ - BTS

-

Love,

YREN <3

“Pretend that our eyes didn’t met.”

 Everything remained blank.

Everything remained transparent.

Everything remained unspoken.

Everything remained NOTHING.

It sucks , doesn’t it?

Liking someone you can’t have.
Seeing them everyday.
But knowing that they’ll never be yours.

It’s the worst feeling erer !!!
Cause all you can do is dream about and wish for them but never have them.

I know , I don’t stand a chance but I’m going to like him anyway no matter what. I badly want to tell him my secrets, but he become ONE of them instead. It’s so hard to pretend that I don’t even have a little infatuation on him. Ugh ! that’s a bit too hard. Especially on having a good friendship on him WAHHHH T.T

Cause c'mon , he’s kind , he is sooo cute , so intelligent , funny as ever though. But he don’t even have the slightest idea how much I adore him. How much I idolize him. How much I look at him , gazing him everyday.  He doesn’t even know anything. And what’s most funny about it , suddenly all love songs I’ve been hearing almost everyday were all about him ! HAHAHAHA

BUT THEN AGAIN I CAN’T HAVE HIM DAMN haha .!!! </3

And the worst thing about this feelings is you will never think of me the way I think of you and there’s a part of me being killed almost everyday. HAHA and I hate it!. 

I just can’t stop thinking about you and deep down inside I know you probably haven’t thought about me even once :(  

EVERYTHING seem’s blank. The day’s you passed me by is the worst thing happen in my everyday lives. Our eye’s met but hearts keep on separating.Everything remained unspoken, everything remained NOTHING. 

There is always a warning that keeps on repeating in my MIND.

“ YOU CAN’T HAVE HIM” .

Yna’s WORD of WISDOM: 

Hey Yna ! 

It’s okay to like someone who’s taken. You’re not a home wrecker! It’s perfectly fine to admire the qualities of a guy, even if he’s already in a relationship with someone else. However, you have to keep in mind that you can only admire him from a distance. He can’t be yours, or at least he can’t be yours, unless he’s suddenly single.

Just bear in mind that admiring him from afar is very different from squeezing yourself into his life to steal him away. You have to know that if you try to make him fall in love with you, you might end up ruining his relationship with someone. Do you really want that on your conscience?

Okay okay ?  :) One day I know you can tell him what you feel. Yet those feeling are all gone when you look back on this BLOG. Okay ? That’s fine you are just in infatuation stage , that’s fine. 

XOXO : SIMPLEEYNAH

“ May mga taong HIHILA SAYO PABABA, pero TANDAAN mo. SILA yung taong dika kayang PANTAYAN yung KUNG ANONG MERON ka na WALA sila. Cheerio! You don’t deserve to be threaten LIKE THAT. 😊😊😊 ”.

Eto yun eeh !
:) thanks papa GOD. ILOVEYOU:*

The HAPPIEST MOMENT of MY LIFE.
(But then the SADDEST)

“ What do you feel when you and your CRUSH got met and contact each other.? Is it feel good ? Do you feel so happy ? Are you feeling some butterflies in your tummy ? And do you imagine that your relationship with him will last LONGER? ”.

Hello ’ I’ve got my 2nd acct. haha, yeah ! Diko na kase nabubuksan yung isa. I have a lot of mem'ries panaman don. :)

Unexpected. Shocking. And HAPPINESS. Yan lang naman yung mga na feel ko’ when you exist here 💜💜 and in my life. :)
I didn’t expect that youre going to SMILE at me.
Those SMILE that caught my ATTENTION. Those SMILE that I can’t get out of my mind. Those SMILE that brings SMILE into my face too. THOSE SMILE that makes me REALIZE’ that I STILL have a chance to be loved. :)

Hayyy (*insert name here*) I badly da*n miss you! 😢😢😢

It was so SHOCKING when we have those Time to know each other. Yung tipong ’ I came just to visit a friend, but then you came BEACAUSE YOU WANTED to see me. :)
Which BRINGS SOME (SHYNESS,SHAMENESS and NERVOUSNESS) in me. Hahaha ! 😂😂

Yeah ’ hiyang hiya ako sa twing nakikita kita. Yung tipong gusto ko ulit magtago sa tiyan ng nanay ko to hide myself in the middle of the battle. Ahaha which is ikaw yung kalaban ko na diko malabanan. Haha yung tipong ayoko nakikita mokong tinitignan ko. Yung binibigyan moko ng isang NAPAKAGANDANG ngiti that I can’t hide my KILIG. (SIGH) HAHAHA.

Gooood!! I FEEL so AWKWARD. haha ’ kinakabahan ko sa twing lumalapit ka. Kinakabahan ko sa twing ngsasalita ka. Kinalabahan ako pag andiyan kana. At mas lalo akong kinakabahan kapag … KAUSAP nkita. 😥😥

I still remember those time. That I first met you. While Im in your botique , You already caught my EYE. haha which is iiwas din ako ng tingin when you catch me looking at you. Hahaha NATATAWA ako non. XD
Eh yung araw na’ you came into our store to buy foods kase maglalunch ka? Gulat ako nun. Hihihi 😲😲 Nahuli din kita non tumatawa kana. Haha

Then after a long days na nakilala kita, but you did'nt mind me pa’ gumawa si destiny.para makilala kapa. :)

FIRST NIGHT ^
I’ve waited for my friend kilala muna *insert name here*. And then suddenly andon ka. Sabi kase sakin umuwi kna. Pagkaharap ko , nakita kita. Gusto kong magtago at lumundag ng Groundfloor from 1st floor. Haha sa sobrang hiya. Kaya habang nglalakad nagpahuli ako. Eto namang kaibin natin nilaglag ako. Na mas lalo kong ikinahiya. :/ alam mo yun .. haaay !
Hinabol moko ’ to say sorry for not accepting me in fb. Hahaha is that kinda awkward. But then that was them 1st encounter ko sayo. Na naging masaya at kinilig ako. Hahaha I admit it! yoour so cute sa malapitan haha. :D dun na tayo ng karoon ng mga conversation sa fb. Puro kalokohan lang naman. Haayts hahaha

Eh ’ yung araw na pinipilit mokong aag nang mahiya sayo? Pinpilit mong sakin ka pumila. Para matangal yung hiya ko. Pero di ee andon padin -.- hattttssss on ! Haha Hindi molang 1 beses ginawa but twice and thrice. Haha

Pero alam mo kung anong the best MOMENTS ko with YOU —–

😊😊😊😊😊

When you SURPRISE me ’ and you wanted to talk to me. Yung IKAW LANG AT AKO. Yung TAYO lang dalawa. Yung PINAKAMASYANG PANGYAYARE ng buhay ko. Yung pinaka best shot nating DALAWA. Yung mga simple ACTIONS mo na NAGPAPA'ALALA saking CRUSH KOTO. :) Yung araw na NAGPAKA ALDEN RICHARDS ka and you treat me like I am MAINE MENDOZA. Haha 😂😂 Ang sarap balikan yung mga ARAW na yun na masaya pako kase andiyan ka. :)

Yung word na “ANG CUTE MO NO!”. Pero alam mo mas CUTE ka. ^^ haha
Yung araw na nakita kita at HINABOL to say HI! Isang malaking kahihiyaan ang ginawa ko. -.-.

Yung lage kong sinasabing GALIT ako’ pero hindi naman. Yung nagsosorry ka dahil may ipinapartner sayo kase baka ano isipin ko. Which is wala panaman akong RIGHTS to be jealous. BUT I DID. I PROMISE. HAHA

Yung tampo ko lapag na SESEEN mo mga mssg. Ko’ yung nkita knmin at kinuha mo number ko. But I expect to text me. But you didn’t do it. 😳😳

Then finally ….

YOU LEAVE…

It breaks me INTO PIECES..
It makes me SHOUT to bring out the SADNESS.
My HEART BREAKS , BROKEN , and I FEEL SO DRAINED and DOWN.. 😢😢😳😳💔💔

Ang saya na ee! Why do all the HAPPINESS can be a SADNESS? WHY??

All those FAIRYTALES BECAME A WORST NIGHTMARE.
ALL THOSE BEAUTIFUL DREAMS BECAME an UNWORTHY WISHES.

I am like a LOST STAR.
Always seeking and finding you ALL THE TIME. :/

I always missing you’ as in everyday. :’(
Why do destiny is a good player?
Why do destiny played us?
Why do destiny JUST BARROWED me a chance to met you?

Why I feel so SAD ALL THE TIME
WHY ? WHY?

“iingatan ko sarili ko para sayo”.
- that was the last phrase you give to me. And I am still expecting this now and everyday hopw you’re okay..

(*Insert Name Here*) ’ hey wherever you are, or whatever your doing. do take care of yourself. :)

Thank you for the HAPPINESS.
THANK YOU FOR THE MEMORIES.

And thankyou for EVERY KILIG you’ve been left me. Thank you ALDEN for bring out the BEST in me.

Haha . Maybe it’s time.

Time to MOVE ON..
Time to LET GO..

and TIME ..

TO FOCUS for my FUTURE. :)

- YNAH ROMAN