A message in a bottle … words lost at sea
Here I type more words, that I never told you,
Which I now cast into the ocean,
To be carried away on the waves;
Perhaps they will reach you; or perhaps they will be engulfed by water.
These words I never told you, because in my head, they sounded crazy;
And I didn’t want to scare you away,
Though, this is what has come to pass, anyway,
So, I don’t think it matters anymore.
I accept the fact, that I am, in my own way,
Really rather an odd person;
Some would call me bonkers.
But I genuinely don’t give a fuck anymore.
The first time I saw you,
I thought you looked like Jon Snow.
After our first conversation,
I understood from our energy, that I had found my way home.
Whenever I looked into your eyes for an extended period of time,
Your energy radiated so strongly that I felt completely entranced;
To the point where I forgot how to speak -
I physically could not remember how to make words flow from my mouth.
The first time I met your dogs through the screen,
I felt drawn to one of them in the strangest way;
The only way I can explain the sensation,
Is that it felt like looking into the eyes of the soul of my future child.
Maybe this all happened in the world inside my head;
But then again - this may be the only place where I ever see things clearly.
I hope you can understand, that the following is true for me:
I would rather breathe passion, and laugh myself to tears,
And wander amongst the trees and the clouds,
Smiling sunbeams and giggling with spirit animals.
For this world which is full of magic,
It gives me life and it gives me strength;
It is far more entertaining than the realms
Of the grey shades of cold-hearted logic.
You have tried to wish me well, a full three times now.
Please know that, wherever you end up, I always wish the best for you, too.
You have brought so much magic into my life, and I will always be so thankful for that.
Yet I am lost deeply in a battle, between listening to your words, and trusting my intuition.
They are at present, in conflict;
But I also know, that nothing is ever as it seems.