What Healing Looks Like
You’ve built a wall to block the pain.
You’ve realized the wall is holding you back more than it is protecting you.
And it takes so much work to maintain. It’s exhausting.
You start to realize that you are capable of feeling pain without breaking.
You are willing to feel pain to stop feeling this way.
Trapped. Angry. Hurt. Tired. Anxious.
You put down your sword and walk to the wall.
You’re looking for a rope to scale it and jump to the other side.
If only you could just get over it.
It starts to crumble.
You panic and patch it up. You’re holding your sword again.
When did that happen?
You put it down and look for the rope.
There is no rope.
You cannot just get over it.
And that’s okay.
You find a door. A much easier way. The only way.
With your hand on the handle, you start to freak out.
You know what it’s like on this side of the wall.
Though not ideal, it’s familiar and known.
You don’t know what’s on the other side of the door.
You take a deep breath and remember the only thing to fear is the pain of an emotion.
You remember that you are strong enough to handle pain without a wall. Without a sword or a shield.
You’re desire to feel love and freedom and to share love and freedom outweigh your fear.
You open the door.
You walk through and feel the wall surrounding you. All the pain and fear that created it. You feel it. You cry. You keeping walking through.
And then you’re through. You turn around and the wall has disappeared. Like it was never there.
Like it was all in your head.
You turn back to the present and see the sunlight. It warms your skin and lights your soul.
With a smile on your face, you continue.