you are a shared secret kept between cupped hands; you are the first drizzle of spring, the laughter-filled nights of summer.
(there is static in your head and in your heart— breathe, and remember that you are more than what your reflection tells you.)
longing paces circles in your heart. the want for more thrums just under your skin, and in your blood there are a thousand wolves howling, necks craned back in prayer to the moon.
(you are not a monster for wanting more than what has been offered to you.)
count the stars, and count the distance between where you are and where you want to be.
(just because icarus fell doesn’t mean you will.)
stand beneath the night sky and let the wind run cold fingers along your arms; let the air scrape your throat with each inhale, let it sit in your lungs like something precious.
(the night sky is deep enough to get lost in. just like life. just like you.)
you are not atlas, and they are not your responsibility.
(the weight of your world is heavy enough without trying to carry other people.)
one day, you will wake up and realize that you are happy, and you should be around to see it.
(darling, you do not need to have it all figured out now.)
you are the nostalgia of swing sets; you are the smell of petrichor, you are a childhood lullaby, only half-remembered.
(who you want to be is never out of reach.)
close your ears to them— your dreams are no one’s but your own, so never let them take that away from you.
(you have a star within you, and it burns bright.)
you are not an island; you are the sky, and when you hurl down lightning and rainfall, you are not hurting only yourself.
(please treat others the way you wish to be treated.)
those memories are stamped onto your eyelids, I know; but, when they come to you, unbidden, in the night, do not cringe. do not cry. do not waste your time regretting.
(you are not who you were then.)
take down their pictures; delete their numbers from your phone.
(your garden is dead, dear; do not waste your love on corpses.)
you are the sting of tears; you are the first snowfall of winter, the burnished golds of fall.
(believe in yourself the way you believe in others.)—to the signs: you are loved, you are loved, you are loved. | e.c.s
komorebi (japanese) sunlight filtering through trees
tsundoku (japanese) the act of buying a book and leaving it unread, often piled together with other unread books
dépaysement (french) the disorientation felt in a foreign country or culture, the sense of being a fish out of water
fernweh (german) a longing to travel, missing a place you’ve never been
hanyauku (rukwangali, namibia) to walk on tiptoes on hot sand
laotong (mandarin) a friendship bonding two girls together for eternity as kindred sisters
tidsoptimist (swedish) a person who is always late because they think they have more time than they do; a time optimist
culaccino (italian) the mark left on a table by a cold glass
hiraeth (english) a home sickness for a home you can’t return to, or that never was
sobremesa (spanish) the time after lunch or dinner spent talking to the people you shared the meal with
mångata (swedish) the glimmering, roadlike reflection the moon creates on water
voorpret (dutch) pre-fun, the sense of enjoyment felt before a party or event takes place
limerence (english) the state of being infatuated with another person
meraki (greek) to do something with soul, creativity, or love; when you leave a piece of yourself in your work
mencolek (indonesian) the old trick where you tap someone lightly on the opposite shoulder from behind to fool them
petrichor (english) the smell after it rains
seigneur-terrasse (french) a person who spends much time but little money in a café
mamihlapinatapai (yaghan) you go first. no, you go first. the special look shared between two people when both are wishing that the other would do something that they both want to do
jayus (indonesian) a joke so poorly told and unfunny you can’t help but laugh
gigil (filipino) the overwhelming urge to squeeze or pinch something very cute
utepils (norwegian) to sit outside enjoying a beer on a sunny day
Surprise promot: journal about (at least) one of these words and tag me in a shot of the spread! :)
“He raised his hand stiffly and gestured me to follow him, I did. He stood under the pouring rain with bloodshot eyes, he was looking everywhere but me, for a second it hurt, the fact that he wasn’t capable of looking me right in the eye, I thought that the least he could do was stand still, tell me what his heart wanted, I wanted him to have the courage I urged him to build. It was cold, I was hugging myself as if it could protect me from the storm surrounding me. I stared at him, no feelings visible, I moved forward to show him that he should start talking, I didn’t mind waiting but time was passing, each second was escaping us like it was a pile of sand slipping through our fingers. He moved backwards, inhaled deeply, pulled his hair as a sign of frustration then exhaled. He raised his head slowly, looked at every inch of me as if he was debating whether he should continue his journey to my face or simply turn around and walk away. He finally looked at me, his eyes were brown, just like the coffee I drink at early mornings, they were deep as an ocean, I remember I once felt as If I could drown in them, I guess I did for a while. His skin was white, pale like it never witnessed the sun, his lips started moving fast, as if he was trying to fit all of his words into the passing seconds, I couldn’t hear him, I couldn’t hear the words I have been dreaming of hearing for the past year, he suddenly stopped talking, closed his eyes for a brief moment “I love you,” he said, so passionately, so full of pain. it was tragically beautiful to hear him confess what he never did. He opened his eyes for them to meet mine, he didn’t urge me to speak, he didn’t want to hear me talk because he knew it wasn’t what he wanted to hear so he kept staring at me, I tilted my head to the right, smiled sadly at the angel in front of me, I wanted to lie, tell him the consuming love he is looking for is inside of me, I wanted to swim deeper in his eyes, I wanted to move forward again, I wanted the storm to calm down for a second, I wanted silence to surround us, maybe then he could hear my heartbeat, notice how it wasn’t rushing, I wanted him to figure it out on his own, I wanted him to save me from saying what we both dreaded to hear. He didn’t though, he kept looking at me, the storm was louder now, so I moved backwards, until I couldn’t reach out to him, ‘angels and devils can’t collide together; I remember saying, ‘devils are bond to burn angels with their flames; he looked at me desperately, telling me with his eyes that he didn’t fear burning, he moved forward as if to tell me to stop talking, to allow myself to feel for him what he feels for me. I moved forward too, I saw the glimpse of hope in his brown eyes, I laughed humorously, noticing how ironic the situation was, 'one year ago you told me love was a joke’ I said moving forward again. He looked away, knowing what he said was a lie. 'How come you’re crying now?’ I asked him with a glint of curiosity in my eyes. He wiped his tears furiously, his love turning into anger 'how come you’re laughing?’ He asked with his shaky voice. I moved forward again, looked him deadly in the eye. 'Love is a joke’ I whispered. He leaned in until he was inches away from my face 'love is a tragedy’ he whispered back. I left that day with no sign of heartbreak, I was trying not to cry, reminding myself that devils and angels cant collide together. A tear finally escaped its way down my cheek 'love is a tragic joke’; I whispered.”
— Nada Toghoj, submitted by @atelophobiaxx
Aries: Funniest rants, trust me; Seems like a badass, but they’re harmless until you seriously piss them off; Do not piss them off, their limits are usually reasonable and they will fight you; Unafraid to act, especially to defend you; Always thinking about what’s coming up next; Great at starting projects they never completely finish; Sincere friends.
Taurus: Big, sweet cow eyes; Honestly just hug them and never let go, it’ll be the best decision you ever make; Warm aura; They’ll embarrass themselves, but it’s endearing instead of cringe-worthy; Calm presence; Naturally reserved, but they will let you in if you genuinely care; Unintentionally funny; Some quality of theirs makes people look up to them.
Gemini: They try so hard, bless their hearts; Cutest clothes; One of you is going to have a crush on the other; Awkward in a way that makes tension disappear; Unintentionally attracts trouble; It doesn’t occur to them to not put up with your shit; Not very considerate to your emotions unless they’re helping you with a specific issue; Super passionate about their fandoms and interests; Someone you can always talk to.
Cancer: Fucking dweebs that will laugh over the most bizarre things; Will always love you; Messy; They genuinely want you to do your best; They deeply care about all of their friends, too; Give great hugs; Take everything personally and fully invest themselves; They might get too wrapped up in something that doesn’t seem important to you, but just be patient with them, they’re worth it.
Leo: Simultaneously the most self-absorbed and caring people; Lucious locks; So intimidating, but it’s all a big, fat lie if you’re friends; Would kill for you; Childish and immature; Can actually be very practical minded; Really wants you to like them, but they’re not going to try hard for your approval; Let them have the last word because they’re going to have it eventually.
Virgo: Sad eyes that know the dark secrets of the world; They don’t feel in control, yet they try to be; Organized and methodical; Outwardly cynical (but they secretly hope for the best); If you meet their standards, consider yourself lucky; Big sister who will always help you with your problems; Feels most comfortable in a dark movie theater; Listen to them because they know what they’re talking about; Surprisingly patient.
Libra: They have a story for everything; Loves to go out with their loved ones; They spend a lot of time thinking over ideas and concepts; DILF; Lifelong friend that you can always turn to; Confidence booster; Can be surprisingly selfish sometimes; Indecisive as fuck; They’re going to win you over before you even realise it; Silently judgemental, but this doesn’t mean they take sides.
Scorpio: 10/10 would bang; Could destroy you effortlessly; Lifelong struggle bus ticket holder; Romantic love is not their strong suit; Darkly magnetic; Shared looks and inside jokes will be abundant when you hang out; Do not fuck with their friends; I repeat: do not fuck with their friends; seriously; avoid this at all costs; These are the type of people who will burn your house down and steal your boyfriend; If you fuck them over, they will cut ties forever, even if they still love you. They hold trustworthiness and honesty over everything else. To betray a scorpio is to betray yourself, and they will contemplate your demise in several different ways.
Sagittarius: They’re best friend material; Lots and lots of friends but few close friends; Attractive/ Magnetic; You’re going to find yourself thinking about them later; Can go literally anywhere and fit in; Histrionic; Will not put up with your bullshit at all; They seem like an open book, but this is not the case at all; Take themselves a little too seriously; More loyal than you could ask for.
Capricorn: Sassy as hell; Sarcasm actually flows through their veins; You will admire them; Always seemingly stable; They have the soundest advice; Tend to think they’re always right, and they aren’t exactly wrong about that; If they love you, it’s true; Good listeners and friends; Grouchy is their default emotion; Lowkey SUPER competitive, just let them win because they will literally never let it go ever.
Aquarius: You will fall in love with them, even if it doesn’t last; They’re going to make you laugh; They try to be forgiving creatures; Lowkey super stubborn about things they believe to be right; Really, really good at one area of expertise; Detail oriented; Highly sexual beings; They downplay their emotions; It’s hard to completely understand what they’re thinking about unless they explicitly tell you; Trust their gut because they’re going to be right.
Pisces: Hug them, please, they’ll really appreciate it; They’re probably going to fall in love with you, too; Trusting and trustworthy; Watch what you say around them because they’re very sensitive; Encourage them to trust their intuition more; They’ll be able to understand your feelings more deeply than any of the other signs; Insecure but so, so, so worthy; Would die for you; Sneaky; Need a favor? Call this babe.
This is the most accurate one
So u guys have helped me with an art project before and it was super great! so if u could do me another little favor I will love u and send u kisses 💋🌬🕊 please comment on this post with things that make you think of warmth, being in bed (when the weather is cold), stuff like that!
camomlie tea with honey, old notebooks/sketchbooks from decades ago, rain and thunderstorms, button collections, stamps, white candles, old black and white photographs, yarn socks, quiet music, pressed flowers, huge granny cardigans with rolled up sleeves, pressed flowers, postcards, butter cookies, soft hair, listening, large books, poetry, knitted blankets, knitting sounds, bedtime stories, soft singing, pencil drawings and that one cat who lives in that small crafts store near my house. they sell things like buttons and yarn and sewing needles and thread there and he’s always there, asleep on a large pillow next to the window laying between small pieces of string and golden buttons he’s white and brown and his fur is long and seems very soft and i smile whenever i walk past him, he’s always there always asleep breathing calmly
I sat down last night with my art journal and ended up making a very long list of different themes for journals. It was quite fun and it reminded me that the possibilities for journaling are endless! If you have an empty notebook that you want to use but don’t know how, here are some ideas!
-tea journal (keep the wrappers from your tea, paste them on a page, decorate the page, and write whatever you feel!
-cafe journal (visit different cafes and record your experience)
-movie/tv show journal (if you love watching movies and tv shows, you can dedicate a page to each one you watch and write about the plot, the characters, and how you felt about it)
-book journal (write book reviews, thoughts about characters, what you would change about the book, etc.)
-recipe journal (if you like cooking, cut and paste recipes into your notebook and keep them for future reference)
-sports journal (whether you play sports or just watch them, record the results of games you played or watched, player stats, etc.)
-consumption journal (record everything you consume! food, drinks, beauty products, toilet paper, ink from pens, etc. Anything you spend money on or use)
-snack journal (for those of us who love trying new snacks! keep the wrapper or part of the wrapper of a new snack and paste it into your journal. Write about the taste and texture of the snack and rate it accordingly)
-happy things journal (write about all things happy, both big and small. Sometimes the things that make us happiest are the little things.)
-restaurant journal (write about your experiences at different restaurants. Write about the food, service, atmosphere, etc.)
-rant journal (rant about anything and everything you need to. This is especially useful if you don’t have anyone in your life who is willing to listen to you rant)
-current events journal (keep a journal of current news events and your opinions on what’s happening.)
-future plans journal (write about what you want to do in the future. Write about the kind of life you hope to have and any goals you want to achieve, big or small.)
-health journal (write about the food you consume, weight loss or weight gain, exercise done, doctor visits, any medications you take both prescribed and over the counter, how your body feels when you wake up vs when you go to sleep, etc.)
-money journal (make budgets, keep lists of bills to pay and bills already paid, keep track of what you spend, where you spend it, and what you buy)
-creative writing journal (I have one of these! Write down lines that come to you, poems, short stories, paragraphs from potential novels, monologues, character descriptions, beautiful words, etc.)
-date journal (keep a journal about any and all dates! Dates with friends, dates with lovers, dates with yourself, etc.)
-museum journal (do you visit a lot of museums? maybe not, but if you do why not write about the museum, paste in your ticket stub and pamphlet, etc?)
-music journal (write down lyrics that inspire you, info about different artists, concert and musical reviews, thoughts on what a particular song means to you, your own song lyrics, chord charts, etc.)
-quote journal (write down quotes you like. decorate your pages and practice writing in fancy letters)
I have more ideas that I’ll add later!
THINGS I’VE NOTICED ABOUT GIRLS AND THEIR SIGNS
aries; unafraid to speak their mind and are usually very upfront. aries girls can be intimidating however they’re usually very kind and easy to get along with. many aries girls seem to attract drama, but this is probably because of their take-no-shit attitude. they are very passionate about the things they love and can be very creative.
taurus; like taurus boys, taurus girls can seem very intimidating if you aren’t close with them. taurus girls are huge sweethearts and generally enjoy being of use to people. they have an eye for beauty and are very sensual. they are extremely stubborn which can be hard to deal with but they’re usually trying to show their point by doing this.
gemini; gemini girls are some of the most versatile. they seem to be good at multiple things and have many talents. very intelligent and appear to know something about everything. they do have a “two faced” nature, but this is usually so they can fit comfortable into their surroundings. gemini girls can become very malicious if you’re on their bad side, however most of the time they don’t enjoy conflict and are free-spirits.
cancer; caring and considerate, cancer girls are extremely maternal. they love to take care of others and to be the protecter. however, cancer’s can often get caught up in problems whether it’s their own or someone else’s. this will result in them drowning in their own self pity. cancer’s are extremely spontaneous and love to be around those who are closest to them.
leo; some might say leo girls are overly generous. leo girls love luxury and are extremely romantic. they dream of simplistic lives filled with happiness and are not the biggest fans of drama, however they can also get caught up in conflicts. leo girls seem very self confident, but they might actually be very self conscious and insecure. they’re very envious people and seem to always be overthinking what other people think of them, putting up a fake front to seem better than they think they are.
virgo; virgo girls love to socialise, believe it or not, most of them enjoy being out and discovering new parts of the world. they do have a reserved nature but this doesn’t mean they don’t like being fun. they are very neat and tidy but are not necessarily “clean freaks”, many virgo’s probably have their rooms messy more often than not. virgo girls are also very creative and are usually good at drawing.
libra; libra girls can often be seen as shallow and materialistic, and this can be true, but there is always more beneath the surface. libra girls are kind and caring and usually do the best for people. they expect for people to do the same for them which can leave them very disappointed. they are charming and adaptable to their surroundings as well as being ambitious, however libra girls tend to get lost in their dreams.
scorpio; just like cancer, they love to protect others. scorpio girls love to feel needed and enjoy helping others feel happy again. they’re extremely intuitive and can tell exactly how you’re feeling. they can be seen as manipulative, and sometimes they are, but they’re generally trying to help someone out.
sagittarius; sagittarian girls are so varied, but they’re all definitely adventurous and open to new things. these girls, even the quietest ones, are not shy. they are honest and curious and do not like to waste time beating around the bush. they can sometimes be too forward for certain people to handle, but this never really bothers them.
capricorn; capricorn girls make amazing friends. they’re considerate, humble, funny and will do anything to make you happy again. they may seem detached but this is only so they can make friends more easily. they’re quite easygoing and love to joke around. they can be moody and extremely emotional at times but they usually won’t open up to many about this side of themselves.
aquarius; they love to shock you. aquarian girls will do anything to prove people wrong. they’re fiercely independent and almost always have a very large circle of friends. like capricorn, they’re very easygoing and love to joke around. they are brutally honest and can be detached. aquarian girls will also get frustrated if they feel someone is dragging them down, they hate extra baggage.
pisces; pisces girls give the best advice, they always seem to understand and know exactly what to do. like cancer, they can get pulled into a lot of drama and end up in their own self pity. pisces girls are very creative and love to express themselves. they usually get along with many and are also big romantics.
+ thousands more 💛
There are so many beautiful things out there. This will all pass. You can get through this. Please don’t kill yourself.
“1. The friends you have at the beginning of the year can completely change by the end of it. People change, and if they aren’t improving your life in some way, it’s okay to drop them. 2. Take many pictures. Don’t let it take over your life, though. You don’t want to look back and see that you only captured your memories with your camera lens and not within your mind and heart. 3. Find your safe place. Whether it be in the arms of a certain person or on the balcony of Barnes and Nobles with a cup of soup, find it and don’t let it go. You can have more than one safe place. 4. Be nice to everyone. You honestly don’t know what skeletons people are hiding in their closets. Everyone has their skeleton. Every person on this earth has something in their life or past worth collapsing on the ground in uncontrollable sobs over. 5. Reading is so important. Highlight the things that you read that you find intriguing. Read a lot, it can only do good things for you. 6. Writing always helps. 7. The girl with anxiety has the deepest thoughts. The autistic boy has the kindest heart, and the schizophrenic has the ability to put a smile on your face in seconds. Do not judge character based on a mental illness. 8. Music has an indescribable ability to connect and heal. Let it do its thing. 9. Her prettiness doesn’t make your prettiness any less pretty. 10. Getting close and letting someone in is scary as hell. You know what else it is? Worth it. 11. The minute you feel your happiness being dictated by someone else, take a break from them. 12. Adventuring is a must. Sunsets always help the soul, showing that endings can be as beautiful as beginnings. 13. Spend more time with your parents doing things they enjoy. Later in life, you’ll be wishing you’d spent more time with them than on your Netflix account. 14. Home is not always a place, but whatever you love with your whole heart. I have many homes, and it’s okay if one home doesn’t feel like home anymore. 15. Making someone smile and feel genuinely happy has the ability to warm your heart from the inside out. No matter how much pain someone is going through, you made them forget about it for a few seconds. Isn’t that something? 16. Feel everything and let it hurt, but don’t go back to what broke you. 17. Don’t let fear hold you back from what you want. The view from the other side is spectacular. 18. Tell people how you feel. Even if you’re scared it’ll burn your life to the ground. You say it loud. 19. You find the most extraordinary things in the most ordinary places. 20. Swollen lips and sweaty “I want you’s” can make you feel again, but I don’t want to feel anything if it means having to sit there feeling like the wind is constantly being knocked out of me when he stops calling back. 21. Sometimes the way you think of someone isn’t the way they actually are. 22. Never underestimate the amount of joy the holiday season can bring you. Try and find ways to feel that way all year long. 23. Timing is never going to be perfect; if you care about something enough, you’ll make the time. It’s all about priorities. 24. If women used their words to build each other up instead of tearing each other down, our world would change drastically. 25. Recovery can take 2 weeks or 5 years. You aren’t any less of a person if it takes you longer to find a way to let go of what’s hurting your heart. 26. You only need yourself, but having people by your side trying to understand means a lot more than you might think. 27. You find your truest friends in your darkest hours. 28. You can feel the whole world in a month and nothing after 2 years. Time does not define love. 29. Always say yes to dessert. 30. Concerts make life worth living. So does yelling your favorite song along with your best friend in the car with your best friend with hands intertwined. These are things that show you that you don’t need to be on drugs to feel invincible. 31. So does kissing.”
— wnq-writers )
“i. He tells me that our love is like Vegas; forbidden and taboo outside of the bedroom. ii. I can feel his heart throbbing in the bass of the music that’s blasting out the car speakers. Revving up the engine as he takes another sharp turn. Another sharp wail escapes my throat. I mix up fear and pleasure all the time when I’m around him. iii. Everything was prettier when you were in my head. You crawled through my psyche and fashioned yourself out of blood and tar. You’re so fucking cool, aren’t you? iv. i’m slipping back to you. i’m slipping back to you. i’m slipping back to you. i’m slipping back to you. i’m slipping. i’m slipping. i’m slip- v. I keep showing you the songs I wrote about you. Maybe one day I’ll put them on vinyl; make you feel like a real rock n’ roller. vi. I hope you drown in your own sadness. (No, I don’t.) vii. We used to drown roses in the bathtub. I’d whisper, “I loves you,” into your hair. You’d stick your fingers into my mouth and reach down my throat. You love to suffocate beautiful things, like flowers and my love.”
— SUBURBAN DIARY PT.1 // k.m (via kaylemarie-spacey16 )
aries:forgetting something important, being exhausted, slipping in the shower, cold stares, having a mean dentist/doc
taurus: fuckboy wont leave u alone, getting lost in a big crowd, being cold at night, getting laughed at
gemini: being lied to, going to school/work with your least favorite clothes on, messing up ur makeup, having to clean something gross
cancer: unrequited love, stubbing your toe, sand in ur ass, breaking glass, seeing a kid cry
leo: short lasting relationships, not having wifi, no friends, biting your tongue
virgo: getting blamed for something u didn’t do, not have any place to vent, being criticized about everything u do, broken heart
libra: snitches get stitches, falling asleep while watching a good movie, somebody eats all of your favorite snack
scorpio: being screamed at, cat scratches, losing a loved one to a horrible disaster, people forgetting who u are
sagittarius: making bad food, puking in public, failed a test, having a friend stab u in the back, dead plants
capricorn: being called names, unappreciated, pet ran away, daddy issues, hearing people talk about you behind your back
aquarius:hanging up the phone before somebody answers, lost contact lense, dirt under your nails, lied “i love you"s
pisces: crying in the bathroom, new pimples the day before pictures, seeing ur hated ex, biting something hard in ur not hard food
- someone in your class mentions communism. they speak about it at length. you are in biology class.
- you text your mother. she does not respond for 3 days. you text her again and then realize that it has only been 2 hours since your first text.
- freshmen travel in packs. what are they afraid of.
- your class is in room 153. the numbers start at 201. you cannot find the first floor.
- someone is talking about communism. it is not the same person as last time. this is an english class.
- your transcript says you have an A in philosophy 3310. you do not remember taking this class. what did you learn? what did you do?
- you meet your elevator buddy. you do not speak. you never do. you ride in silence. one day, they are not there. you miss them.
- your advisor refers you to the registrar. the registrar refers you to admissions. admissions refers you to both the registrar and your advisor. you have spoken to two people who do not exist and one who has been dead for ten years.
- the boy who sits next to you wears the same clothes everyday. you think this is strange but when you mention it, he tells you that this is the first time he has worn this outfit. you realize that you have lived this day before.
- you pass someone sleeping in the quad. he has always been there. stop looking at him.
- someone answers, “communism.” it is not someone who has been previously mentioned. the question was, “what is an example of the art of ancient greece?”
- you have a doppelganger on campus. you have never met them. they know all of your friends.
- the seniors speak only to professors. their eyes are dead. they have given up the safety of the pack long ago.
- the professor is talking about STD’s. your math class is very strange.
- the powerpoint is in comic sans. you suspect that your economics professor is an extraterrestrial being after all.
- “communism,” the man serving you lunch insists. wearily you nod. that’s what everyone says.