eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.
no one needs to add “sounds fake but ok”, “no”, “well, not me”, “impossible”, etc. to this post. and i’d rather you not.
one day you think: I want to die.
and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book.
and I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun
I want a cleaner kitchen
I want a better job
I want to live somewhere else
I want to live
I actually think the real advantage tumblr has over other websites is the ability of “reblogging” to create posts with contributions from multiple users. This allows people to build on others’ posts, whether that’s derailing them with a terrible joke, drawing the scenario proposed as a comic, answering the question posed originally in lively essay format, or rewriting the previous interaction as a scene in Shakespearean iambic pentameter.
There’s like 12 different kinds of tension in this image.
why is the one in the middle wearing 5 shirts
that’s why she’s being bullied
ok but they also have different versions that show each girl in the group getting bullied by the others
This is a modern work of art
I’ve seen them once labeled as “homoerotic bullying pictures” and honestly don’t know what else to call them
Mitski song interpretations
Album: Be the cowboy
Nobody- being alone/feeling alone and realizing how lonely you truly are, you could care less if it’s just the sound of a human you just need and crave human interaction.
Me and my husband- Depending and putting all yourself worth on your lover even though it hurts you they are all you have so you don’t care if it hurts you’re just glad you have them by your side.
Geyser- Loving someone so much and willing to do anything for them being so in love that you are blinded and are to attached to them needing them to feel worth something.
Why didn’t you stop me- wanting them to chase you because you aren’t sure of your choice and you want to see if they care enough to make it work.
Old friend- you miss someone so much you don’t care what you do or what they say you just want to see them again.
A pearl- feeling like a relationship is coming to ended because of your actions and being scared that they are growing old of you.
Lonesome love- About only having a relationship we’re it’s body only and feeling so lonely.
Remember my name- you want to be remembered for something grand… you simply want to be remembered.
Come into the water- you dream of being with someone you don’t feel you can ever be with.
Pink in the night- you lost your chance with someone and you love them so much all you want is to be with them.
A horse named cold air- you thought you’ve changed but you relapse your mistakes you work fed hard to change.
Washing machine- you willing to take the burdens of the one you love but They still don’t want you even after giving them your all. They are using you to get over someone.
Blue light- you just want a some love
Two slow dancers- you miss your old life but know you could never get it back.
Album: Bury me at makeout creek
Texas reznikoff- someone living the life you’ve always wanted but not having it even though your tried so hard for it.
Townie- every boy you’ve met has never liked. “The most important man” in your life failed you so you failed him back.
First love / late spring- everyone that has claimed to love you growing up failed you causing you to have to grow up faster without true love. But now it has left such a big make you act like a child when it comes to love since it’s what you wanted the most but never got and you know it’s not real it still feels nice you you’d do anything to feel it even just a little because it’s all you’ve gotten that comes close to love.
Francis forever- loving someone so much all you want to make them happy, you want to be noticed by them. You don’t care what anyone else thinks but them. You always ask “what would you do without them”. You need them to love you.
I don’t smoke- you miss someone causing you to fall into addiction not being able to let go of them.
Jobless Monday- being used by someone you care so much for they only call you when they need something but you don’t are because you feel good they at least use YOU.
Drunk walk home- you do the most to be recognized by someone but they never do no matter what you do.
I will- you want to care for someone you are willing to do everything for them. You love them so much you will carry their burdens even if they don’t deserve it you love them to much to see them struggle. You want to be in there life no matter what. You deserve so much better but you don’t care because your love for them is to big to just walk away from them because they are all you have and want.
Carry me out- hoping they’ll be there when you need them most.
Last words of a shooting star- After trying to get your pain to be recognized you grow tired from being told it gets better and that you needed to change, waiting for them to change. You finally give up.
Album: Retired from sad. New career in business
Goodbye, My danish sweetheart- Your lover and you break up and you weren’t what they wanted you to be. You know what the expected but you weren’t able to give it to them.
Shame- You love how they love you you don’t need anything more.
Because dreaming costs money, My dear- you wanted to peruse your life dream not you’re scared you won’t go far financially but you will still try even though you feel fear.
Humpty- you try so much to fix yourself you never mange it feels so impossible because every time you do so it falls apart.
Circle- you cheated one your lover but told no one that’s how why you broke up
I want you- after breaking up with your lover you mange to get back together to make things work and you love them so much.
Strawberry blonde- you don’t fit into the beauty standard so you try to do everything to fit in.
Class of 2013- you love your so much but feel so much pain from her but you don’t want to leave her since she gave you love even though it wasn’t want you wanted it was something. You want to be with her just a little long.
Liquid smooth- you are in your prime and you wish that you are noticed right now before you no longer hold the beauty you currently do because you believe it won’t get better then this and you won’t ever appeal to anyone after later on.
Eric- being in a toxic relationship were you won’t let yourself lose to them but it hurts you so much because of how you need to prove it.
Brand new city- you don’t recognize yourself and who you’ve become and when you became you now are. Your past self feels betrayed because it happened without a warning. You still struggle with the same insecurities and you never gave up on wanting to be beautiful.
Real men- toxic masculinity hurting every men and women.
Wife- not feeling like you are able to complete your “duties” like a wife should and you feel ashamed.
Bag of bones- You are no longer of use to anyone. You try your hardest to try to gain some worth.
Pearl diver- someone tried to take advantage of you but just ended up getting hurt instead and you feel betrayed but you will manage.
Album: Puberty 2
Happy- you’re on drugs and your hallucinating what happiness feels like
Dan the dancer- you never ask for help nor do you like help from others you feel like it’s unfair to others to put your burdens on them so you always say you’re fine.
Once more to see you- your in a secret relationship you it bothers you but it’s okay because you are with them. Alone.
Fireworks- a betrayal you saw from the bringing but choose to dismiss it because you believe they would change.
Your best American girl- You compare yourself to someone else. Everyone looks down on you and shames your for who you are.
I bet on losing dogs- you expect the worse outcome and you are sure that it will always go wrongly for you.
My body is made of crushed little stars- you want something but don’t really want to work for it but believe you can do it.
Thursday girl- you make bad decisions and you are aware but can’t stop them. You need someone to help you walk down the right path.
A loving feeling- you aren’t in an official relationship but there’s feelings on one side. But they only look for you in secret and don’t want people to think you guys have something.
Crack back- you want something you’ve felt before and it felt amazing or you but you can’t remember for the life of you what it was.
A burning hill- you hurt yourself and you are watch yourself doing it but you don’t know how to stop it nor why you do it or how you do it. But you put on a mask to show you aren’t burnt but in reality your forest is covered in ashes.
- lol emma anon
You’re going to hate me but I’ve never listened to a mitski song in my life. But wow her discography sounds super sad :( why do you do that to yourself :( who hurt you Emma anon?