sent a dm to spartan, lets see if i get blocked or a response in 5 to 10 business days
I'll tell you when you get your soft, italicized, "oh."
you typically wait until the last second to believe the truth -- because it would destroy you to believe it, and then find out it was a lie. you are someone who has never wanted to want, but has rarely been able to do anything else. the idea that you might have to break down your walls for the sake of someone else, someone who could easily decide they don't like what is on the other side, is harrowing. why let people get close enough to be rejected? you are enough for yourself. and you will tell yourself that every time you catch yourself staring at their mouth, smirking at their joke, finding a reason to flick their shoulder. until the kiss. that's when the flood of want, want, want bowls over you and you realize that you are torn between two ways of living. Oh, you think. because despite how complicated you have made it, the moment you kiss, somehow, things seem incredibly simple. they won't be once you start thinking again, but for now, for this moment, you live in the quiet peace of revelation. Oh.
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I am prejudiced against English professors and very pro foreign language professors, and once again during the first week’s introductions I feel very vindicated in my thinking. Coincidentally, I am reading pride and prejudice
@phonestalked asked:“ the exorcist was on, got me thinking of you. ” :’ ) SCREAM SENTENCES.
“AW. THANKS? what part made you think of me, man? weird flex.“ but hey, maybe he gives off that vibe to people. he is sure he hasn’t twist his head 180 degrees but he is still young. “is it the crawl back? because that was one time and I had way too much to drink. I’m not doing it again, I could reopen my wound.“ it’s all healed and sealed but really, he is not going to test all of this just for the fun. the tok is not worth it.