Okay technically depression hours ended a while ago but the WHOLE DAY I kept having the urge to just like…… Cut my fucking arms open like how the fuck do I stop thinking about this shit
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I got more holes in my face & I’m getting tattooed for my 22nd birthday next weekend.
0like sometimes my sister will show me a dude and b like “ok what do you think of him” like…asking me if hes attractive (which like…girl why do you need to ask someone else if a man is attractive kdhakxga but thats a different conversation) and i just. stare cos its not like i have anything MEAN to say im just. they all look exactly the same. she’ll show me a pic of some instagram dude and b like “omg hes soooo hot hes way out of my league” or some shit and im like…but is he? like clearly he knows how to groom himself and take a picture but like…. ive seen eight million other dudes that look exactly like him that are being held up as the like pinnacle of hotness and i just dont get it. like also i guess im faceblind but truly i just do not find that genre of men That Attractive
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I want to be soft, but I want to
unsoften myself
for the benefit of only others. I would like to let the edges of myself show, to let my boundaries run wide and sharp and clear without dulling them down so people don’t cut themselves when they lie over them.
I want to be soft and loving. but I am ready to unsoften the parts of me that I have only softened for your benefit- for the benefit of someone who doesn’t love back.
n.p.
0listen im gay i love men too but sometimes i see some of the men that women r losin it over and im just…really?
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