Call me when you’re having three am thoughts.
a message you always left before you went to sleep.
you witnessed how bad my late night thoughts were, how my anxiety struck as the night gets deeper and my battles with the voices in my head became harder—
when three am strikes and the demons in my mind are scarier than the ones lurking out in the open.
you knew how to calm my raging thoughts, my overflowing emotions, your silly confessions and our conversations were my only escape and distraction.
Tonight, the clock struck three and I called but you were sound asleep and I was left with the monsters in my head.
I was left sleepless for what felt like the longest of nights tossing and turning waiting for morning to come when all this is over.
my mind overflowing with thoughts I did not long to hear but were screaming like beasts trying to tear me up.
I called over and over even if it was way past three but you didn’t answer so when dawn came I never called again.