ive come a long way in accepting my sexuality but nothing has thrown quite a wrench in my ability to feel pride like having to face the fact that i will never have the protection of a man. i know the stats but security theater can at least lighten the mental load and its something thats never gonna be available to me. i dont know if i'll never be not scared again. i feel like such a fucking coward!
also i keep jumping between "this is an overreaction" and "no it isnt" but like. please tell me it's not insane to be terrified when you wake up at 5:30 am to your downstairs neighbour breaking glass & throwing it out the window right outside your bedroom? and only stops to smoke a cigarette on the porch blocking your only exit from the apartment and when bylaw comes by (just to start back up again with hammering and yelling when they leave)? and for you to find that he's def not just hanging out inside his apartment bc he's gotten out to steal your package in between the hour and a half it was delivered and you got home? because you were hiding at your parents house because you were too afraid to be in the apartment alone or run into him in the TINY little entrance room your apartment and his shares?
#im at my parents house tonight & my roomie has 2 friends over including a man #and last night was fine im just. scared lmao
#idk what this is but here we are <3 silly boys being silly boys #asked and answered #janankarrus #dani writes things #star wars #fic: star wars #game: the old republic #oc: cadrien tirai #friend oc: minaiph #cadrien/min
#so uhhhh my dads been upset with me abt how much money hes spending on me #and one of the things he said was that unless i give him an actual solid reason im going to therapy then hes gonna stop paying for it #but uhm #ok so i have a hard time talking to my therapist bc i have a hard time opening up in general but #ive been meaning to talk to her abt a *thing* but if i tell my dad abt it someone might genuinely end up dead #and honestly it only concerns me bc my dad would probably end up in jail and hes financially supporting me rn #so uhm yea #thats#a thing #i should really talk to someone abt this but i dont wanna talk to anyone irl and i kinda stopped talking to my online friend group for #uhm#*reasons*#anyway #yes thats how my weeks been
so THAT’S what it’s for! (that’s not what it’s for.)
salsa edition and ranch edition to suit different party dip preferences 👍🍅🥕
#garrus vakarian#mass effect#garrus #mass effect fanart #mass effect legendary edition #this is the first time i've ever drawn garrus and i couldn't be happier with this debut #it turns out you can just draw whatever you want and nobody can stop you #this is so stupid but i made a joke about this the last time i watched a friend stream this game #and it's been on my mind ever since #my art#fanart#food
about to watch everyone’s favorite movie about a soulful white boy who took over the known universe with his lyrical flow and conscious bars
#i'm watching it at HOME since i can't go out and do things i want to do thanks to fucking midterms #i'm seeing it with a friend at a theater soon tho. yes even if it sucks i'll still watch it twice because i am insane
Nynaeve: So back in Tarabon, Elayne and I met this Seanchan woman we started to hang out with a lot and told a lot of our secrets to, and then we gave her that male a'dam to get rid of that apparently Semirhage ended up with somehow and used against Rand. Anyway, she just showed up here and wants to work for you so here she is.
Egwene: Ok you're gonna have to run that one by me one more time
#listen I love her but Egeanin does seem sketchy af in this situation #especially to EGWENE of all people #she's like 'hello I am seanchan and also Nynaeve and Elayne are my best friends please take me to them immedately' #wheel of time #a memory of light #wot spoilers#egeanin tamarath#nynaeve al'meara#egwene al'vere #the wheel of time
A NIGHT TO REMEMBER | continued from x | @devauer
emotions rage like a turbulent sea, anger and frustration seeping into her bones. the queen bee of mystic falls high was anything but fragile and most of all despised feeling kept in the dark or not in control. the blonde thrived on a daily basis-- perhaps even more so as vampire-- in her daily games of social war; she had always been in control of the narrative, releasing information as needed to meet her ends but now she had been on the other end of it, an end with much higher stakes. perhaps the blonde was a hypocrite but elena did not think herself in the wrong when her friends’ actions could very well have spelled all of their doom because they had stupidly thought they shouldn’t inform her of the plan. sure, she would not have gone through with it but that didn’t matter. furthermore, she’d been forced to unleash more Power than even she had realized she’d held on top of her actions with bonnie either, magic still such a foreign concept to the vampire. why was she able to wield it when other vampires couldn’t? her mother had always told her she was special, and sure, she could be her own biggest fan, but even elena could acknowledge that was another level.
breath emits as hand balls into a fist, back pressing against the wall as if that was enough to cover the exhaustion which encased her. she can hear people talking inside the building, hear their blood underneath their skin as if it was calling to her. her hunger was ten-fold now, so much worse than even when she had been in transition. light hues flit upward, her body standing straighter in defiance. “i know.” elena half-snaps though it’s clear it’s the strain of her current state causing her tone. “that would require getting home and dealing with--” she waves her hand in the direction her friends left though she quickly has to replace it on the wall, only frustrating her further. at this rate she’d never make it to a supply of blood bags before she collapsed. “is that an offer?” she questions though it’s more sarcastic than anything. “i know what you’re thinking, kol, and i can’t feed on inno--” she cuts off when someone opens the backdoor to the grill and looks at them and shrugs (it’s one of the new employees that she doesn’t know well), throwing out the garbage. her face changes almost instantly, whatever control she’d normally have on thin ice as she turns to face the wall and grips one of the bricks, crumbling it beneath her hand.
#devauer #muse; elena gilbert #how bad is it that she really has no interest in returning home or to any of her friends that night? #i mean she's going to end up staying with him that night but like the others were supposed to be on her side with stuff and they all #actively plotted without her and almost died because of it #she much rather be in kol's company than theirs that night #even if he's gonna tempt her to the dark side a little bit lol #threads; a night to remember
friends from high school: having kids, getting engaged, starting careers, moving out, traveling
me, in college, living at home, no money: i need my phone to tell me when to go to bed. also i made a new alcoholic beverage and i named it after piss
#i speakin #i shouldnt go on instagram like it’s just my gen’s version of facebook #like im happy for my friends but im the 2nd oldest person in our group and i feel like i’ve done the least/grown the least since hs
Look i know y'all forgot f!Nk has a bunker, a hot air balloon she regularly uses to travel places, a whole sniper rifle that just turns into a rocket launcher, so here's some of it
#i love how the underground is always drawn super cartoonish #with skulls and bones under there #f!nk #is very pretty too #love my girls who can murder someone in an instant #everytime i see a girl that is in a situation to murder i yell: Go girl!!! murder!!! #shes so ridiculously prepared i #cells at work #hataraku saibou#hataraku saibō #cells at work friends #caw friends #hataraku saibo friends
[ID: a screenshot of some text from the transformers: more than meets the eye comics. The speaker is saying “this isn’t funny! If they catch me out here they’ll think I’m disobeying orders— again! I’m already in trouble for lying to get onto the ethics committee! Wait…” End ID]
Whenever people talk about their favourite lines from mtmte no one mentions mine so here it is
#i just found this on my phone and it still cracks me up #so now I am posting it here bc I’m sure my friends are sick of hearing me laugh about the same joke by now ajdjsf #the library comic reader really is terrible that grain is awful…. #optimist.txt #mtmte