Why is it always everyone else..
My grandma cares more about what’s going on with her than how my mom is and how hard she’s trying
My own friend saying she has nothing and just sits in her apartment all day, EXACT SAME WITH ME-
I REALLY DONT HAVE ANYTHING
She was telling me the only thing she did was call her mom about her allowance, AT LEAST YOU GET ONE WE’RE TOO FUCKING BROKE TO EVEN DO THAT NOW
I LIVE WITH MY ASSHOLE GRANDMA, MY MOM IS JUST AS BROKE, WE ALL CANT BE LUCKY TO HAVE OUR MOM HELP PAY FOR OUR OWN APARTMENT
AT LEAST YOU HAVE A GED, AT LEAST YOU HAD A REAL LIFE FRIEND
At this point I’d be so tempted to go off, in my mind for her own good
Thinking everyone is out to get her, thinking they’re all assholes, complaining that nobody wants to be friends but doesn’t want a server full of people and if there is more people they have to drop literally everything, respond in 2 seconds to a message or it means you’re just ignoring her
I love my friend to death, and if my grandma wasn’t fucking crazy I’d love to visit her, but I swear sometimes she sounds like my grandma, “oh everyone’s an asshole, I don’t trust anyone, fuck this fuck that fuck them-“
Like I love them both, it after a whole day of dealing with my cunt of a grandma who’s constantly just taking the wind out from my sails, can I just come to a friend who won’t make everything about her? Hell she’s said before “I feel terrible I’m never around when you vent..” and that’s kind of true because she’s either busy or taking a nap but I’d never be mad at her for that it’s fine, but yeah convenient that I get to vent when you’re away huh?
And again like my grandma; no amount of positive words or attempts at cheering up so fucking nothing-
Gets mad if everyone isn’t 100% happy and smiles and at their beckon call at every second of the day, with my grandma if you ask for too much then your abusing her and using her for her money, if you don’t respond in 1 second or are 100% at attention then you hate her guts
But I’m probably no better cause while I’m scared to say anything to my grandma I’m just as hesitant to say anything to my friend, I don’t wanna hurt her feelings even if it would be good in the long run to say something, this would probably be a tell that I’d be terrible in a romantic relationship 💀
But I just feel so emotionally tired of everyone but I either am in no position to say anything or I’m too sensitive to say anything cause I don’t wanna hurt anyones feelings