The words that the people around you say to you, appear on your soulmates skin.
The more often these words are said, the more it affects them, the bigger, darker and apparent they become.
Names and Places are censored by flowers.
Bede didn't know that Hop was his soulmate.... How would he? After all, he always believed that his partners was like him, an outcast, a defect child and unwanted by his family.
That he was an asshole like himself.
How would he have known that his soulmate, Hop, would be so cheerful, even after these cruel words that had been said to him?
"be more like your brother!"
"I don't have time for you right now."
"why can't you understand? Are you stupid?"
"### would have got it right by the first time."
"you are ### Brother, right? I am his biggest Fan! Let's be friends."
"you are just so annoying!"
"can't you just shut up?"
Now that he knows, that this brother his soulmate was compared to is the champion, everything makes sense.
These expectations, fake friends, being in the shadows...
It makes sense and Bede hates himself for making things worse.
He can only stare in self-hatred at his chest in the mirror, where the words stand that he told the other a few hours ago.
"you really are a shame to your brother"
The words are big and black, meaning that he took them to his heart.
Bede doesn't want to know how the other feels, how much the other must suffer right now.
It hurts, both physically and mentally and the boy knows that he needs to apologize, to plead for forgiveness.
But what if Hop didn't want to see him?
He shakes his head before putting his shirt back on.
It doesn't matter. He can't undo his doings and it's not his decision if Hop forgives him.
But he can apologize.
It's quite easy to the boy.
He was sitting on a cliff, looking at the wild zone before him. It made Bede feel anxious, scared that Hop could fall or-
"what do you want? Are you here to insult me?"
The boys words sounded hollow and Bede sank to his knees. This was his fault.
"I am sorry."
These words came out harder than he expected. It was the first time that he did that, or at least that he really meant it.
The other looked really surprised and shocked, something he could understand quite well.
"what did you just say?"
Bede swallowed for a moment, before bowing deep to the ground. He couldn't bear to look at those golden orbs of his.
"i- I am sorry for the words I said! I didn't - I didn't know that you had it as hard as me! I believed that you were just an entitled brat, that got everything from his brother-"
Tears started to well up in his eyes and he could hear footsteps coming closer to him.
Bede was ready for everything.
For Hop to scream at him, to kick or hurt him otherwise, even for him throw him over the cliff, but not for that-
Not for Hop to kneel down beside him and carefully grabbing him by the shoulder, and getting him back into a sitting position. For him to look at him with such emphatic and kind eyes.
It killed him inside.
"you -, you are my soulmate, aren't you?"
His voice sounded so soft, so kind and all bede could do was to nod, hoping the other wouldn't hate him more.
Hop hugged him carefully. Bede was shocked by this, a feeling of saveness and scare in his bones.
He couldn't finish the question, as hop let go of him. Bede could feel his skin crawl, wanting this touch back.
"I -, when I started to understand these words on my skin, I felt scared. Scared that my partner was alone and by himself, unloved by the world. I would cry myself to sleep, knowing that they, that you, didn't have a good place to sleep. I imagine how they must have felt, being so mistreated and how they would act. How they would react to me... "
The other closed his eyes, as if he was searching for the right words.
"what I want to say is, I understand why you were the way you acted now. But, but that doesn't mean that you didn't hurt me. It was cruel of you to say these words, even if we weren't soulmates."
Then he opened his eyes, full with forgiveness and affection. Hop carefully gripped his hands, as he smiled softly.
"Bede. I will forgive you, but I want you to stay with me. I want to make sure that you are alright and well cared for."
Bede could feel how the heat was rushing to his cheeks, eyes blown wide.
Hop has forgiven him? Just like that?
He couldn't help but stare at the other, before nearly jumping on him.
Bede was happy. Truly. He wasn't even so happy when rose adopted him -
"I - I promise to be the best soulmate ever! I will protect and love you! I would even fight your brother!"
He screamed out the words, way too fast for the other to understand. Hop just laughed, before hugging him tightly, as if he was afraid he would disappear. As if this is just a dream.
Then he perked up.
"Bede! Are you hungry? I can make you something to eat if you want!"
The boy stood up,taking him up in process, before leading him to his camp. They held hands the whole way and Bede wasn't sure how to answer. He felt as if Hop didn't just want to feed him.
"I want to tell you about my journey, about Leon and Gloria while I cook, is that alright for you?"
So that is what he wanted. Bede smiled faintly.
"if you want -, I mean, only if I can tell you a little bit about myself."
He had to start somewhere