Europhia Rue is so much like me in so many ways. Fuck that's disturbing watching someone like me on screen. Idk. I fell so fucked up. And I don't even have a Jules.
Everyone leaves. Everyone disappears. No matter what anyone says to me about wanting to be in my life, it's not true. I'm alone and I always will be. But who cares right? I don't even care about me. Why would I expect someone else to? I'm done trying. You can all leave. I'll hold the door for you
Me when I realize these near/far trace skills are based on the movement possibilities after attacking/defeating an enemy in og
i have a fantasy high fic rattling around in my brain but im not sure if ppl will like it cuz
a) none of the bad kids appear in it. it’s just the setting of aguefort adventuring academy w/ a bunch of new lil freshman running around (either before or after the bad kids are juniors)
and b) i like to imagine aguefort as more of like my highschool (which is in a pretty rural area and canon aguefort academy is... well not rural) so i feel like people will hate it like that
idk. if anybody is willing to read it, then i’ll write the first chapter but i’m not sure
hate when people find it irritating when people start using words bc it gets popularised on tumblr. like im FUCKING yearning dude !!!!!!!! im YEARNING !!!!!
The second anything medically unfortunate happens to me, worse than the common cold, I IMMEDIATELY start begging the universe to end me. To the point that hoping for spontaneous death is a warning signal to me from my brain that I'm about to realize I need to go to a hospital
Anyways (violence and death cw mostly just me needing to vent)
I’m about 98% certain I heard one of my neighbors get murdered tonight (the 2% is my vain hope that they are maybe still alive) and I’m supposed to just go to sleep and keep acting like everything is normal and as if those screams aren’t going to haunt me for the rest of my life
(I’m so tired and my stomach is in knots and it’s been hours and I’m just overwhelmed)
Still thinking about how Alphinaud asked Y’shtola if it would be appropriate to call G’raha “Nunh” instead of Tia, so she told Alphinaud to call him what he wishes.
I still wonder if G’raha had to open up the dialogue to Alphinaud about what a Nunh mostly does.
I used to be very anti hand holding but now I’m like mehhhh I guess this is ok.
I just started watching Infinity Train and I am in love with the season 2 cast, Jesse and MT are just both so stupid, I love them
I come back after an evening of putting together furniture and the tags were on fire apparently.
I'm a very easy person to forget and I don't know why that is but I'm tired of fighting to be part of people's lives when the signals I receive indicate that they clearly don't want me. I'm just tired. I'm so tired.
So today I learned that I can no longer use Nair products on my legs. Even if they’re made for “sensitive skin”.
My washer really woke up this morning and chose violence, huh
