#TW: Suicide Tumblr posts

  • kyomito
    17.06.2021 - 3 minutes ago

    I was going to reblog and leave my thoughts under this post, but I don’t even want to risk someone seeing it and thinking at first glance that I agree.

    this is probably the absolute worst thing you can say to a person who is struggling w suicidal thoughts.

    to keep it short, it’s selfish. it’s not something you want to hear when you are finding it extremely difficult to keep going. this whole “when you kill your self you cause a domino effect of a burden that will effect everyone around you, and that’s completely on you” thing? you sound hostile and angry at someone who doesn’t deserve hostility or anger.

    I understand what op was trying to do, but the execution was terrible.

    if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, know that at the very least, I love you, and my messages are always open. For absolutely anything.

    suicide hotline: 1-800-273-8255
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  • bees-and-mushroom
    17.06.2021 - 7 minutes ago

    I want to do it.

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  • illegalharpy
    17.06.2021 - 14 minutes ago

    I Want To... Disappear

    (also posted on AO3, warnings for suicidal thoughts and discussion)

    Lloyd wasn't even sure what he was talking about. His mouth was opening and words were coming out, Garmadon was replying but whatever they were saying, he couldn't get himself to actually focus on the real words. All he could hear was that little whisper in the back of his mind, the deadly reminder of his worthlessness. 

    And yet, despite the whisper he kept smiling, laughing at a joke Garmadon had just told. It didn't matter that the voice was telling him he was worthless, that Garmadon merely pitied him and had to have him in his office because it was mandatory. That Garmadon, like all the others, always just tolerated his existence. That he didn't deserve to live. 

    It was a silent whisper, one only in his mind and he was sure if he ignored it, it would go away. Of course, that hadn't worked. The voice has plagued him for years, sometimes growing quiet only to come back in full force. Now it was at its usual strength, a strong and solid whisper in his mind, reminding him that his place among them was mere circumstance. 

    "Lloyd, is there anything else you want to talk about?" Garmadon asked, breaking through his thoughts. 

    He jumped in surprise, not even realising that their conversation had stopped. 

    A small frown crossed Garmadon's face, his eyes studying Lloyd's expression. "Is there something on your mind?" 

    "Uh-" He hummed, wondering if the voice in his head was speaking to Garmadon too. "N-no." 

    Garmadon let out a small sigh, a warm smile on his face, "Lloyd, that wasn't awfully convincing. Whatever it is, remember you can tell me here. In this space whatever you say here, stays here." 

    Lloyd hummed again, tapping his fingers against his knees. Maybe… maybe he could say the voice out loud. Maybe he could tell Garmadon. "You promise?" He found himself saying, his eyes cast down into his lap, "You won't… 'dad' me about it?" 

    "I promise Lloyd, what we discuss in this room, stays in this room," Garmadon affirmed, his expression serious, "I won't bring any of this up outside of this room with you or anyone." 

    He narrowed his eyes, studying Garmadon's expression. It hadn't always been easy, trusting his father to keep their sessions to the office but the months they'd spent together had shown him that Garmadon always kept his word. 

    He took a deep breath and opened his mouth, speaking the words of the voice that whispers in his mind. 

    His own voice. 

    "I want to die." 

    Garmadon's expression softened, his concern plain across his face as he watched Lloyd tap his knees, eyes down as the words poured out of him. 

    "Ever since I can remember, there's always been a voice in my head, reminding me of my worthlessness, that I don't belong," Lloyd continued, his heart racing, "It was really loud at Darkleys but after running into the Pythor, it kind've went away…" he trailed off, the strangeness of his time with Pythor, who tricked and used and betrayed him, was the time where the voice in his head was quietest. "It kept coming back." 

    "What else does this voice tell you?" Garmadon asked, his voice soft and gentle. 

    "It doesn't tell me anything," Lloyd murmured, "It is me." He took a shuddering breath, his whole body giving a small shake. "Sometimes… sometimes it's one of the ninja or Wu but most of the time it's me, telling me things I try to ignore." 

    "What things?" 

    Lloyd took another deep breath, his fingers curling around his knees to stop them from shaking. "No one actually wants me around," his voice was barely above a whisper, "they only tolerate me, only say they like me, because they're good people and they have no choice but if they did have a choice… well they wouldn't be my friends." 

    He bit his lip, his breathing going shaky. "I can't keep up with everything I have to do. I'm not as good a fighter as everyone thinks, I can't lead the team, I am floundering with no idea of what I'm trying to do or what I want to try to do and I just… I want to quit." 

    Garmadon gave a soft smile, "I know the ninja catchphrase makes it hard to want to stop doing something like being a hero but it's not entirely impossible." 

    Lloyd shook his head, "Yes it is. The only way to really quit is to get injured or…" he trailed off, the word left unspoken on his lips. 

    "Lloyd, I would rather stand in front of the city and all its people announcing you've quit then let you keep doing something that hurts you," Garmadon said, his voice firm. 

    "I don't just want to quit being the city's hero," Lloyd replied, his voice shaking, "I… I want… to disappear… forever." 

    Garmadon leaned forward across the table, placing his hand on Lloyd's knee, "When things are overwhelming, when the voice in our heads is telling us we are worthless, it can be almost impossible to remember the people around us," he gave Lloyd's knee a gentle squeeze, "Although your meeting with the ninja and joining their crew happened because of the things happening around you, it does not mean that they love you any less." 

    Lloyd shook his head, "I don't believe it's true."

    Garmadon gave Lloyd's knee another squeeze, "I promise you Lloyd, that voice in your head isn't fueled by the truth, it is fueled by our fears. When things are as bad as they can be, it makes the voice stronger and when that happens, we have to listen to the real voices, the people around us who love and care for us." 

    "I… I don't know…" 

    "It is okay to be uncertain," Garmadon affirmed, "The negativity in our minds can seem like a friend when it has been around for so long, but it is far from your friend. Instead, let's try something new." 

    Lloyd looked up from his lap, one eyebrow raised in question. 

    "Spend some time with the ninja, doing something you enjoy," Garmadon said with a soft smile, leaning back into his own chair. "Give yourself a break from yourself and let them do the talking." 

    Lloyd chewed on the inside of his cheek, his eyes unfocused as his mind ran through all the terrible outcomes of trying to hang out with people he'd convinced himself that hated him. 

    "If you'd like," Garmadon spoke up, his tone gentle, "You could start with your parents." He smiled, his eyes twinkling. 

    Lloyd couldn't help but smile, the mischievous twinkle in Garmadon's eye reminding him of the sweetest moments between them. "Maybe… maybe I will," Lloyd replied, his small smile reaching his eyes. "It sounds like fun." 

    He sat back in his own chair, his shaky body feeling the most relaxed it had all session. The voice was still there, whispering in his mind that it was a lie, a useless endeavour but he pushed it aside. Sitting in the office, in front of Garmadon, he felt something he hadn't felt in a long time. Peace.

    #ninjago#tw suicide #tw sucidal thoughts #tw depression#lloyd#counsellor garmadon #or rather counsellor garmadad ;) #(yes a father counselling his son is probably not cool in our world) #(this is fiction and i can do what i want) #(also let's face it lloyd wouldn't trust anyone else) #also sorry this ends weird #i didn't know what else to really do #projecting onto fictional characters is my hobby #unfortunately i do not know how to help myself #so rip lloyd but he's kinda stuck for now :P
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  • whoactuallygivesacrap
    16.06.2021 - 41 minutes ago

    I really just want to fucking be dead and be done with it. I hate this

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  • parker-holland-osterfield
    16.06.2021 - 45 minutes ago

    it’s the fact that people on this site still go on anon and tell users to k*ll themselves.

    it’s 2021, grow the fuck up and get a life.

    #no i will not apologize #i’m officially sick of this shit #tw: suicide
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  • lachrymosestorm
    16.06.2021 - 45 minutes ago

    A Whole New World (Prologue)

    Pertains to: @allteethandflesh​​

    ‧̍̊·̊‧̥°̩̥˚̩̩̥°̩̥‧̥·̊‧̍̊ ♡ °̩̥˚̩̩̥°̩̥ ·͙̩̩͙˚̩̥̩̩̩̥·̩̩̥̩̩̥˚̩̥̩̩̩͙‧͙ °̩̥˚̩̩̥°̩̥ ♡ ‧̍̊·̊‧̥°̩̥˚̩̩̥°̩̥‧̥·̊‧̍̊ How long had she been walking..? It had felt like a century.. It had felt like time had stopped as she dragged her body the direction she was heading.. whatever direction she might end up in.. She had no idea where Tian’s manor was.. she had no idea how she escaped Saji.. Maybe he just let her go.. maybe he just wanted to see what she’d do.. maybe he did it to hunt her down later.. but she was somehow free.. She was free to find Tian and crawl back to him.. beg for him to welcome her back.. But she had no idea where she even was let alone where to go..  Night.. day.. night.. day.. night.. She was losing hope.. She wasn’t able to find him.. And he had let her go.. He had decided to let her go.. he had given her away.. When she loved him.. Was devoted to him.. She messed up once but Tian wasn’t willing to find her.. look for her.. She was sure Saji told him by now.. but she was without a home.. without his arms.. 

    Eventually her tired feet made its way over towards a cliff and she looked down at the waves. He wasn’t looking for her.. he wasn’t searching for her.. She was a toy with no owner and she couldn’t live like this.. She didn’t know how to be her own person anymore.. A shaky breath was taken before she took a few more steps forward.  “Tian..” She choked as the tears rolled down her cheeks. She wanted them to be together.. All she wanted was a world where the two of them could be together.. where he’d love her.. Where he’d look at her like she looked at him. “Tian.. Tian..” She couldn’t stop thinking of him..  And then she threw herself over the ledge. What was a toy without a master? What was a world without Tian? 

    #allteethandflesh #v. A Whole New World #Do Not Respond | Closed #AND THEN A GOD DECIDES TO GRANT HER WISH YAY #tw: suicide
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  • sexysidon
    16.06.2021 - 58 minutes ago

    I'm really not sure if my bf understands the severity of my anxiety and I'm scared that will affect our relationship bc I'm obviously not telling him all the stuff that goes through my brain but i think it's quite clear? It seems visible? But i think that he sees me as a joyful gay clown who jokes around all the time and stresses out about school too much ... Like I'm wondering if he'll be fine finding out that i actually have an extensive backup suicide plan and i cry myself to sleep every other night ... Does he know i live my life like a suicidal prey animal is what I'm saying

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  • asakishi
    16.06.2021 - 1 hour ago
    #7theaven #( how edgy of him dont u agree ) #( xoxoxo ) #( 'take your own advice' and then tifa dolphin kicked him into the sun dsfpgspg ) #☼ ╱ ☽ —Interactions— ☾ ╲ ☼ #☼ ╱ ☽ —VERSE: MAIN— ☾ ╲ ☼ #noose mention for ts #noose tw #suicide mention ts #suicide tw
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  • idolclubs
    16.06.2021 - 1 hour ago

    My friend didn’t say she’ll be the yandere imposter to my crew mate I’m killing myself

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  • anarchozombie
    16.06.2021 - 1 hour ago

    bottom dysphoria is so embarrassing i'm literally like i don't have a dick therefore i have to k*ll myself lmao

    #tw suicide mention #don't message me i'll be fine #feel like shit though
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  • take-half-of-me
    16.06.2021 - 1 hour ago

    I may have a boyfriend but he doesn’t even notice I’m slowly silently killing myself so for everyone who thinks having an SO will fix all of their problems : it won’t. Change comes from within yourself

    #tw self harm #tw disordered eating #tw ed content #tw ed vent #tw ed stuff #tw sui mention #tw suicide mention #depressing post #tw depressing stuff
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  • shsl-anxious-lesbian
    16.06.2021 - 1 hour ago

    If I had a special ability I think it would be to airdrop my mental illnesses into people's brains

    Best case scenario: they start dissociating and/or start having delusions abt unreality

    Worst case scenario: they get incapacitated by the overwhelming amount of anxiety and suicidal ideation

    Most likely case scenario: I deploy my persecutor into their brains for a temporary amount of time and have him let out all the pent-up anger and rage from bad panera bread experiences in the form of A MULTITUDE OF POWERFUL PUNCHES AND KICKS THAT DESTROY THE ENEMY FROM WITHIN

    #/j#suicide ment#suicide tw #JUST TO BE SAFE ILY GUYS
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  • uniquabackyardigans
    16.06.2021 - 1 hour ago

    just remembered im going to the doctor tomorrow 🧍🏻‍♂️ can’t wait to lie about my mental health 😋

    #have you been feeling suicidal? #no🤥#LMFAOO #she speaks 👨🏽‍🏭 #tw mention of suicide
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  • watching--stars--collide
    16.06.2021 - 1 hour ago

    /// Warning: suicidal ideation

    He wakes up and shudders but he doesn't move. Maybe if he moves he'll back there, back on the bridge, letting go of the railing, about to fall and–

    "John ?"

    The words spill out of him and for once he doesn't feel the need to stop them.

    "You know, hours before I met you, I was thinking about killing myself. I had been debating with myself. A gun or a bridge. What if would feel like to put it in my mouth and taste it just before pulling the trigger. Or instead, what it would feel like to go to the other side of the railing. To see both the water and death so far below. To feel a brief moment of instinctive panic as I fall forward."

    Harold takes his hand.

    "You didn't do any of these things. Because you don't deserve it and never did." A pause. "Let's go sit somewhere else, alright ?"

    John doesn't have words inside him anymore. He nods.

    They go to the kitchen; John sits down and watches Harold fill a glass of water before handing it to him. He slowly sips it, lets the cold appease some of the turmoil inside. The city lights coming from the windows are enough to find Harold's hand again. It's impossible to tell who's squeezing the other's hand the most.

    "I'm happy now. Really. I don't want to die anymore. It's liberating."

    Even with what he said moments ago, he doesn't want to say it too loud, in case some rotten part of his brain overhears it and decides he's wrong.

    "I'm proud of you, John. For overcoming this, for opening up to me about it."

    #projecting trauma before going to sleep dont mind me #we love barely proofread and coherent stuff hell yeah #fanfic#tw suicide#writing#ficlet#spilled ink#my writing
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  • real-talk-dumpsterfire
    16.06.2021 - 1 hour ago

    What if I’m just a bad person who’s procrastinating their suicide when I should’ve killed myself a long time ago

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  • nancythebisexualslutwheeler
    16.06.2021 - 1 hour ago

    I’m feeling anxiety

    #I wanna die #tw suicidal ideation #shut up t
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  • lucrezia-thoughts
    16.06.2021 - 2 hours ago
    #lucrezia answers #hi friend!! #i 💚you #and so does neville nugget #🥵 anon #incredible 🥵 anon #tw depression #tw suicidal thoughts
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  • ojcobsessed
    16.06.2021 - 2 hours ago
    Gugu Mbatha-Raw, Oliver Jackson-Cohen, Stephan James, François Arnaud, Marianne Jean-Baptiste, Ari Graynor and Millie Brady to star in Apple TV series ‘Surface’. 
    Starring Mbatha-Raw as Sophie, Surface is an elevated thriller about a woman’s quest to rebuild her life after a suicide attempt, and her struggle to remember – and understand – everything that led up to the moment when she jumped.
    Jackson-Cohen plays James, Sophie’s (Mbatha-Raw) husband and a well-connected and successful partner at a venture capital firm.

    lots more details at the source

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