oh, lemme watch jacks new vlog rq, I didn't watch it 

Some more musing and speculating about some stuff regarding Loboto's backstory...

There's a few things from Loboto’s parents' conversations in his memory vault that really, really concern me. (...I mean okay, ALL of their conversations are concerning, but I wanted to focus on this one specific point.) Part of the conversation when kid!Loboto is hiding in the closet goes as follows:

"Will the procedure... hurt him?" "Well, the ice pick is long, but it's very thin, and in the right hands..." "Oh, I don't care. I just don't care anymore. Just take him away and let this be over one way or another!"

As well, when kid!Loboto is leaving to go to the hospital, there's this line from his father:

"Ah, soon we'll be free of this devil child!"

I didn't think about these lines too much until recently. With the closet conversation in particular, my initial thought had only been that Loboto's mother didn't care whether or not he was hurt--pretty concerning to begin with, but... that combined with the father later saying they would be "free" of Loboto made me realize things were a lot more serious than that. If we're to take these lines as being genuine and not exaggerated, then Loboto's parents genuinely did not care if he ever recovered from the surgery, or even if he survived. They only wanted to be rid of a psychic "devil" child, whether that be by the removal of his powers via surgery, having him taken completely out of their care, or letting him die at the hands of the surgeons.

They were fully prepared to send their own son to his death.

This is truly a heartbreaking thought, especially since this kid was probably hearing his parents' thoughts and was fully aware of what his parents were thinking.

But something else of note here is that Loboto's memory vault only shows us a very small period of his life--from his infancy to what I'm assuming would be his preteen years (probably around Raz's age). We know little about his backstory past this point. (Yes I know there's the Li-po doc but that's more development notes and not necessarily canon.) We don't know if he ever did return home to his parents, or if he ran away, or was admitted to a mental institution at a young age.

I'm sure we'll probably learn more of this come the release of Psychonauts 2, but I wanted to throw out a bit of speculation. This is an idea I'd been mulling over--I don't know if it's a solid headcanon or not, but it's interesting to think about at least... 

So, if we trust the memory vault enough, it's safe to say that Loboto's parents were prepared for their son to be out of their hands whether it be due to becoming mentally damaged due to the surgery and needing care at a facility, or else straight-up dying. They were prepared for the possibility that he would never come home, which makes me wonder if they prepared for this in other ways...

Unless we assume that they never wanted another child due to the risk of a second child also being psychic (which is a possibility), IMO it's not out of the realm of possibility that they planned another child. Their first child was (to them) a “mistake,” a “monster,” but if they really wanted to have that picturesque “normal” life, maybe they would want another child... one hopefully more "normal" than their first one.

Granted, nothing we've seen from Loboto indicates that he ever had a sibling, but sadly there's also never anything indicating that he came back home after the surgery. If he has a sibling, he may not even know of their existence (or if he does, he probably doesn’t like to think about it, since the thought that his parents tried to “replace” him would be pretty awful). He may have a sibling out there who's either not psychic, or better at hiding their powers than he was. I don't entirely know what this would mean for him, whether he knows of them or not or is even in contact with them, but it does give an alternative to another popular theory.

I'm admittedly not a fan of the "Dadboto" theory--I personally really can't see him... being interested in the prerequisite activities for that, or romance in general for that matter (not that he's too immature or “damaged” or anything for either--I just imagine he lacks interest in it if he's not straight-up aroace), but other than that I can't see many faults in it, particularly regarding resemblances (especially in official art where the two are placed next to each other). However, the idea of Loboto having a sibling would make an interesting tweak to the theory--the theory of Loboto being an uncle rather than a father would explain physical similarities without requiring Loboto having a... partner of some sort.

Do I think this is what's going to be revealed in the new game? Probably not. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I'll be going into Psychonauts 2 mentally preparing for all my headcanons to get jossed and theories I'm not a fan of being proven true. I just felt like rambling about this for a while. 

Poets Diary

my fear is that i’ll end up like hp lovecraft or van gogh, and someone like Elly becomes this figure like how Daniel Johnston had with a woman, and that’s something as an artist, i always have to protect myself against, amidst other ingidnities, 

and its why i present a violence at times, a violent passionate energy, because i am scared, i will end up suicided by society, so i have to always have my armor on, and my sword ready, because especially living in america, like this isn’t france, this isn’t europe, 

being an artist in america and understanding beauty, and sex, and love, and glory, is something that automatically can ostrasize you, amidst a slave society that has puritanical values, even in its so called progressive veneer, 

a society like the one i was born into here in america, could never produce a de sade, do you understand ? instead it produces men like Thoreau who make a virtue of being seperate and detatched from the world, in fact all american artists are like that, they seek to detatch and compartmentalize life into things where they deny life essentially, 

and i am not like that, i am more european in my demeanors then anything, 

hey hey guys do u think the dream team house is their forever home

I’ve connected the dots (you haven’t connected shit) I’ve connected them

glad to see my good friend slimecicle speaking up about the use of the word refugee in this fandom

2:01 am

I want tiramisu and someone to write 12 monologues for the English exam instead of me

;-;

20-6-2021

1058 cal

my boyfriend has apologized for what he said to me. I have forgiven him I feel like everyone disappoints me, and that I cannot trust anyone. I just want to weigh 48 kg / 105.8 lbs

guys I played fnaf while my room was in pitch black darkness and there's also thunder and hail, I almost fucking died lol 

me after writing the latest chapter of WNBJB: see? I can write fluff😤

beck: i didn’t catch your name

jade: i didn’t throw it

If I let them, the Rodrigo x Lucio fic could be just 3k of banter, these bitches are mean and gay

I will NOT be letting them, but it will still be very wordy

throwback to when my mom walked into my room at night when i was laughing while asleep and found it cute

Kachow😎

I accidentally started dream music video discourse in the group chat :(

Chaos Creates The Muse