78/100 Days of Productivity
🌾 I did part of a Disruptions in Power Systems assignment
🎧 Maple Glider - Swimming
I would like to personally thank the Hawkeye soundtrack for having a full version of this
" it's like im falling , falling , for e v e r .
and when i open my eyes ,
i am here .
ah, you must be looking for andrey. "
desperaux joysz , the sleepwalker
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HOW TO PREVENT BURN OUT DURING STUDY
⚡️Change your environment.
Go to the library, cafe, learn from a friend. Sometimes one place gets boring, so you can somehow diversify the process.
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⚡️ Make yourself happy after school / university.
Don't ONLY study. Reward and pamper yourself sometimes. Each person has a favorite activity, and even better if you sign up for a favorite activity after school. Get high from everything and don't get lost.
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⚡️Exercise!
It sounds too trite, but it is a fact. It is scientifically proven that exercise is beneficial for our productivity, study and health. You can always find time, "no time" is just a matter of priorities.
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⚡️Change your attitude.
Learning should not be associated with something terrible, boring or difficult. Remember your goals and change your mindset. The simpler you feel, the better.
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As the semester closes, so do doors
My roommate gets ready to leave and I won't see her again
half of the dorm is vacant and I sit wondering how I'll feel when I come back in spring.
Will, it still feel like a home, will I be alone once again
for now I rearrange the room as a way to calm the fear of the finals.
Uh, BJU? You all didn't do very well at containing your sin viral load over the holiday.
Be sure your germs will find you out.
The differences in adaptations for how Nie Mingjue discovers Meng Yao’s treachery is really interesting to me.
One thing to always keep in mind is that every time there’s an adaptation there are choices being made. I personally think that there is no “one true canon” because there’s no reason not to take an adaptation and say “yes, this is the canon I choose” and run with it. Like I don’t need to read a single comic book to enjoy Batman: TAS, just as for example. However, when adapting from an original material, there will always be things they kept, things they left out, and things they changed.
I first watched CQL/The Untamed, and in that version we have a super complicated relationship. It’s worth noting that they chose to insert MY/JGY’s character much earlier, clearly making the decision that because he is such a pivotal character, we should actually be introduced to him during the flashback episodes. It’s important because CQL does not hop back and forth between the first and second lives of Wei Wuxian, so they have to approach the narrative a bit differently. It wouldn’t land right for JGY to just come out of left field (the same can be said for Xue Yang/Xiao Xingchen/Song Lan, by the way) as a major character.
However what this means is that now Meng Yao goes to Cloud Recesses with Nie Huaisang. He is already Nie Mingjue’s trusted deputy. Nie Mingjue is the one who met him first, not Lan Xichen. In this case, it is Nie Mingjue who initially vouches for Meng Yao’s trustworthiness. He trusts Meng Yao to escort his brother! He trusts Meng Yao to keep his brother safe!
We know that Nie Mingjue is already aware of Meng Yao’s background. In CQL he has clearly made the choice that he finds Meng Yao to be capable and trustworthy, that he does not hold his background against him. In the Nie sect, it’s not about your background, but about who you are. Nie Mingjue values capable people, he is straightforward and honorable and does not care about nepotism or family status. He gives praise where it is deserved.
What this means is that when Meng Yao, his trusted deputy, stabs another member of the Nie sect with a Wen sword during an attack by the Wen sect (and who could possibly be unaware of Nie Mingjue’s feelings on the Wen sect?!) it is a deep, deep betrayal. Nie Mingjue vouched for this man, he is the one who discovered him, he is the one who lifted him up, he trusted him with Huaisang’s safety, and then he sees him stabbing a high-ranking member of his sect, sees him holding the sword, sees the look of vindictive glee on his face, when they were being attacked! And then he has the audacity to say that it wasn’t his fault? That Xue Yang did it? How did Xue Yang even get out!?
Then Meng Yao throws himself in front of a sword to “save” Nie Mingjue’s life — and whether that actually saved his life or not is irrelevant, really — and now he has to face this possible life debt. So fine. You betrayed me, you murdered one of our own after I trusted you, you clearly didn’t trust me to come to me with this bullying issue (and ffs murdering someone over bullying?! REALLY??) but you jumped in front of a sword for me so… fine. Get out. (And isn’t it convenient that Meng Yao overhears that Lan Xichen is on the run at the moment… so if he gets there before Nie Mingjue could put any news out…)
Meanwhile, in the novel, we have a totally different scenario. Lan Xichen is the first to meet Meng Yao when he is on the run after fleeing the burning of the Cloud Recesses. Meng Yao later joins the Nie sect in the Sunshot Campaign and is elevated based on his behavior — behavior that he would know appealed to Nie Mingjue because, after all, he would have heard all about Nie Mingjue from Lan Xichen. Nie Mingjue writes him a recommendation letter so he can get recognition from his father, since that’s what he wants so much.
It’s only later that Nie Mingjue discovers that Meng Yao is not being treated well. He goes to find him, and happens to see him, again, coldly murdering the Jin captain who stole his credit, with a Wen sword (as well as the other Jin cultivators there iirc). And now Nie Mingjue can only say that no matter if someone stole the credit, you can’t murder someone over it! Not in a war, not when we’re fighting such a powerful enemy, and certainly not in such an underhanded way!
Meng Yao points out that if he turns himself in he’ll almost certainly be executed, but to Nie Mingjue, that’s just consequences for your actions. Meng Yao then pretends he’s going to kill himself and Nie Mingjue tries to stop him, only for Meng Yao to attack and incapacitate him, then flee. In this version, we have Meng Yao actually attacking Nie Mingjue personally — and he succeeds! — to evade justice.
So! Our contrast. In CQL Meng Yao takes an injury to avoid justice, in the novel he gives one to avoid justice. In CQL he murders one of Nie Mingjue’s own, in the novel it’s some nameless Jin. [An interesting additional note is given in the donghua, where Nie Mingjue finds out about the credit-stealing beforehand and is angry about it! So I do think there’s an interpretation that Nie Mingjue would have spoken for Meng Yao in the credit-stealing-incident, although of course Nie Mingjue still believes that for committing murder you have to face justice.]
The betrayal hits worse in CQL, even though Nie Mingjue is not injured (by Meng Yao). He had trusted this man with his brother, with his sect, and Meng Yao murders one of his own, in Nie Mingjue’s own house. And then he has the audacity to take a sword for Nie Mingjue! And then the next time he sees him, it’s having more of his disciples die at Meng Yao’s hands?
But the novel, oh man. For Nie Mingjue to allow a personal attack because he was trying to save Meng Yao’s life? He opened himself to be hurt because Meng Yao was threatening self-harm? No wonder he has the speech later asking if he had pretended to be pathetic! His own good nature is weaponized directly against him! And again, the next time he sees him, it’s to watch Meng Yao murder Nie disciples. In the novel Meng Yao hurts Nie Mingjue again and again, until he kills him.
This is all just to say, I think it really changes the 3zun dynamics from CQL to novel. In CQL you have more overt suspicion from Nie Mingjue, because Meng Yao has already betrayed him, personally, in a very direct and obvious way. But in the novel there’s more rationalization — after all, that was a Jin that Meng Yao killed, not one of Nie Mingjue’s own, and as for later in front of Wen Ruohan… well. The “I had no choice” holds a bit more water there. Needs of the many vs needs of the few, etc.
What kills me is that in the novel you can clearly see how Lan Xichen would push it — of course he thinks he really knows Meng Yao, he met him on the run! Whereas in CQL it was Nie Mingjue who knew him first, and was betrayed, even before Meng Yao spent that time with Lan Xichen on the run. It kills me that CQL!LXC doesn’t defer to Nie Mingjue’s judgment on this, and pushes for the sworn brotherhood anyway.
Anyway I just think Nie Mingjue deserves better, no matter the adaptation.
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