Gorgeous day. Grim project. I must finish cleaning the apartment and establishing some sense of order to the filth and confusion here. Went to mass with Lynn and George this morning. After church George, in a foul mood over arrangements with Richard H. to drive his old car, drives all the way to Shady Grove, Maryland looking for a bakery. As the ride lengthens the tensions lessen and soon everyone seems in a good mood again. Without finding a bakery we go back to their apartment. They’re planning a cookout at Great Falls today with Kathy and Richard to celebrate Josh’s fourth birthday. I am invited bu decline because I must clean house today. Yesterday I talked to Gayle on the phone and invited her and Ed over today. Now I regret it because the monumental job of house cleaning is leaving me lifeless.
All I really want to do is lie here stretched out across the bed in my robe drinking beer, smoking cigarettes, and feeling the day pass.
That’s all I’ve really wanted to do for two years now.