I need to be clean and I need my space to be clean
I can do my laundry and switch it over but the energy to fold my clothes and put them away is not there. I also need to wash my sheets and stuff but honestly I need to go through my entire room, donate clothes I’ll never wear again, shred any potentially confidential documents, take pictures of things I’ll probably never reference again, throw out notes from literally ten years ago because why, take pictures of items that are potentially sentimental and get those out of my room too. Just get rid of things that I don’t need any more. What a concept. Have things feel clean and organized and within my control. Don’t hang on to those pants with holes in them or at least try to cut them for the summer. Get rid of those socks that have lost their stretch even if they’re cute or fuzzy.
But honestly, get this assignment submitted. It doesn’t need to be perfect. Hit on all the items on the rubric as best you can. You just need to pass this class. It doesn’t need to be an A even though its an assignment you got way more time on than literally everyone else.
You’re worth it. You’re valuable. Even though your brain is literally fighting itself as you type out those words. You can make it through tomorrow. A first grader will not hurt you. Their parents won’t either. You get to work with so many cute and sweet kids and parents who are so grateful. You’re going to be okay. You’re going to move past this time in your life. You will not always be depressed. You have had times in your life that you were not incredibly anxious. You are worth it. You can do this. You will figure things out in your academic life, professional life, romantic life, family life, personal life. It’s okay that you’re taking your time. You should be taking your time. Mental health is a challenge for you. With everything you do, it is a challenge for you, and that is okay. You are okay. Things will be okay.