Self Harm Questionnaire
Age: body is twenty-two, but i’m stuck at fifteen
Age started: when the body was nine
Label yourself: pastel-goth, goth-ish, emo-ie?
How long have you been cutting?: thirteen years
Favorite tool?: razor blades from pencil sharpeners
Where (place) do you cut?: at home or work
Do you have to hide your whole arms?: when they’re new, i do when i go to work. when they’re scars, i don’t.
Do you have to wear long sleeves/pants all the time?: no. everyone at work knows about it because it’s too hot to cover my scars all the time and my scars are extremely visible.
Do you cut on your stomach or chest?: i’ve cut in both places, but chest is too easy for infection because i sweat a lot, and stomach just makes my stomach pain hurt more.
Are your arms, legs, or other body parts covered in scars?: both arms from shoulders to wrists, thighs, hips, stomach, a few on my neck, a couple on my face
What’s your excuse when someone asks what happened?: mostly stick with cat or say none of your business
Have you ever been hospitalized because of your cutting?: psychiatric wards, yes. i have cut so bad that i had to be rushed to urgent care though
Of the top of you head, how many scars do you think you have?: well over 500. impossible to count because a lot of it is scars on top of scars
Do you have diagnosed depression, bipolar, or BPD?: persistent depression disorder and borderline personality disorder
Who knows you cut?: my family, friends, my fiance, coworkers
Have you ever been caught cutting?: yes, my father walked in on me when i was in the closet at thirteen
Have your parents ever confronted you about a bloody sleeve/towel?: yes. Mommy dearest decided she wanted to do my laundry when i was sixteen. she found a thing of gauze and yelled at me and told me to “try harder”
Did you have a good childhood?: no. my immediate family was extremely abusive up until the point i finally moved out. they still are whenever we talk.
Why do you cut?: it’s an addiction to me now. sometimes it helps when i’m too angry to deal with anything else, or if i want to stop feeling so depressed.
Have you talked to a therapist/counselor?: many
Do you want to stop, but can’t because it’s an addiction?: no. it’s a massive comfort for me
Do you like cutting?: love it
How many times have you tried to commit suicide?: multiple. tried slicing my veins open vertically, tried beating my head in with a kitchen spoon, tried suffocation, overdosing
What are your views on cutting/self-injury?: if you’re gonna do it, do it, but take care of them afterwards.
Do you like watching movies on self-injury?: yea
Do you like pictures of self-injury?: not really. if the wounds are extremely wide, it makes me feel sick and makes my veins scream
Have you ever taken pictures of your scars/cuts?: yes, i find them aesthetically pleasing
Do you listen to anything when you’re cutting?: not really. i like quiet and concentration
Have you ever needed stitches?: yes, back in september of 2019
Do you dream about cutting?: sometimes
What do you use to bandage your cuts?: gauze or nothing