the front bottoms make music for bad bitches w bpd
Ich will dich nicht hassen müssen. Ich will dich aber einfach nicht mehr lieben.
Besser, wenn ich alleine bleibe. Egal, wie verliebt ich bin. Sobald es ernst werden würde, würde ich sowieso einen Rückzieher machen. Aber, als ob es jemals ernst werden würde...
Starting my new job in an hour
tw suicide, suidical thoughts
i've been feeling really suicidal lately. my favorite person has essentially replaced me, and i'm not coping well with that
it hurts because we were very close, yet i was so easily replaceable? i feel lost and alone, and everything hurts right now
and i continually have all these trust issues, and all these little things that have been bothering me have been blown out of proportion
i'm friends w my fp's replacement for me, and i find myself really resenting them and almost hating them for taking my fp away from me
and i just genuinely feel terrible because i still love and care about my fp (who's my best friend), and i think she loves and cares about me, but she's distanced from me, and i don't know if i've done something to cause that, and now i'm irrationally anxious over everything
Ok now the hard part of apply for colleges: I need 20 paintings I don’t despise that are good enough for grad programs
actually had my 246 with lunch but then we had a mentoring meeting and I ate a lot of strawberries ….
Today's dose of irrational anger comes to us in the form of being so full of overwhelming anger because ads keep playing when I'm trying to figure out if I can switch languages on the movie I'm watching.
I keep clicking on the screen and it sends me to another ad, I fucking can't.
I'm getting so angry that I'm getting a fucking migraine.
My anxiety is so bad it feels like I’ve drank 3 Red Bull’s
I need to scream what the actual hell I can’t sit with this shit
“Do you remember those days?
They were oh so funny
When I could call you my babe
I could call you my honey
Well, you held my hand
And you took my money
But you don’t wanna be saved
You just wanna be lucky”
Mood: *passes away from embarrassment*
Can't wrap my head around how my boyfriend is physically attracted to a fat bitch like me. I look in the mirror and call myself big chunky. The last day of school is in 4 days when I have to make an appearance in a swimsuit so I'm not gonna eat anything until then. How hard can it be?
I don’t always wanna spoon rn thanks to the baby making life super uncomfortable so my partner just backs up to my back now and honestly that is so comforting.
I am safe 🥰
I dont even know 👽💛