*daydreams about getting murdered*
*daydreams about getting murdered*
I have a new FP. I feel like I'm dying. It's been so long since I've genuinely split on someone, I forgot how much it hurts. I'm so angry. The switch in my head that flips was so covered in cobwebs and spiders it's now hard to turn back off. He lead me on; for three days he let me believe he would give me the love attention I was so desperate for. Then, all of a sudden, he's too high and mighty for me. "We need to be healthy," he said. We were healthy, until you brought it up. This is your fault. Now everything is different and I'm angry. I'm angry at YOU for what YOU did. Fuck you. You ruined this for me.
You ever just feel like a walking list of symptoms? Because man do I ever
having borderline personality disorder is burying it down deep, and then a wave of pain rears up in you so strong you feel your skin go cold. it’s like a physical wave that breaks on the inside of your skin, you can feel it physically pushing the goosebumps up, feel it pushing the tears from your eyes, and your chest actually hurts. heartache becomes a real and tangible thing. and then, if you’re lucky or maybe very unlucky, you close your eyes and will it away and you feel it recede instantly but it’s never actually gone, and neither is your fear of when it inevitably comes back.
Why does my coochie betray me like this
hi yes it is i. i remember making this blog when I was first diagnosed. Well, it’s years later and surprise surprise, this disorder is chronic and I’m still struggling. All u guys out there with bpd, I love u. I know how terrifying paranoia is. Take ur meds, lovelies.
i think part of being an adult is being able to admit that school genuinely sucks
I totally get telling people mental disorders are co-morbid (having more than one), and that it’s normal and common. BUT if you have been diagnosed with like 5+ that’s probably bc you have shitty clinicians or are relying on TikTok teens to self-diagnose without any professional input. There’s a thing called differential diagnosis where you assess which symptoms might be better explained by certain disorders even if on paper you “meet” for several. Before you tell me to stfu, I’m a clinical psych PhD student with 5+ years of administering diagnostic assessments and 8+ years of mental health research.
i had so many flashbacks today of things i had completely forgotten and now i'm afraid to go to sleep
I can’t stand summer, I hate the heat, it honestly suffocates me.
// TRIGGER WARNING - eating
I don’t understand why I’m never satisfied.
I eat breakfast, lunch, dinner, I eat snacks during the day... but I’m still hungry. What am I hungry for? What will stop my stomach from hurting?
corrosion by soren noel
I have a mental health server by the way :]
It's main focus is DID/OSDD and personality disorders, but there's sections for other disorders too!
everyone’s emotions and experiences are real and valid. except for mine. i am not real, and not valid and should never be treated as such.
when someone criticizes a politician and you’re with them until they call the guy a “psycho” 🙃
not to be dramatic but sometimes i wish i never had to cook lunch or dinner
tbh it's kinda wild to me that a lot of illnesses are caused or worsened by nothing more than stress, and honestly i never think i'm THAT stressed until i get actual chest pains
// TRIGGER WARNINGS - implied overdose and suicide attempt
good news i don’t have covid and maybe my chest pains are probably stress and not from the quetiapine overdose. which means i will probably take more pills yay