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  • maddwithlove
    18.01.2022 - 1 hour ago

    Para: Dr. Darrow Corrigan

    Dr. Corrigan is all business. When he isn't taking notes on anomalies, he's taking notes on his eccentric colleagues. What he lacks in bedside manner he makes up for in sheer professionalism. He's one of the best researchers this side of the Foundation and he isn't going to let his ragtag group of coworkers slow him down for a second.

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  • maddwithlove
    18.01.2022 - 1 hour ago

    Para: Dr. Qebehsenuef

    A Victorian known commonly as Dr. Qeb, this man is known for being... odd. Even for a Victorian. Not all Eras believe in the rumors of Victorians acting like the main characters of life, but apparently Dr. Qeb does. When he isn't dramatically swooning and fainting, he's falling in love with anyone that shows him kindness and coping with his eagerness to be wed by being an atrocious person henceforth. Little else is known about him from the mansion he resides in in his lonesome.

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  • maladaptivelover
    18.01.2022 - 9 hours ago

    My veritbond, Kelly! She's been with me since I was around 14.

    She's a big ol' lesbian in her 20s who's not afraid to say what she thinks. She's addicted to coffee and is basically a big sister kinda figure to me (unfortunately complicated by the fact that I have lots of feelings for her)

    She's not really part of a paracosm- she just kinda does her own thing in my head, though I do have rooms where we chat n stuff.

    Basically, the way my MADD works- she's a part of me and I'm a part of her. My twin flame that I honestly can't live without (๑♡⌓♡๑)

    anyways I'm gay ok bye

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  • v1nkuva
    17.01.2022 - 1 day ago

    I want to try writing down a long script for my daydreams

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  • aircastledweller
    16.01.2022 - 1 day ago

    Finally back in packsong

    I was actually worried I couldn't go back for some reason (its been months and months which is totally normal so no need to worry)

    But despite it being different and special, it still works the same way in that I don't control when I'm there

    I can't control which daydream land I'm in at all even if I want to daydream something else, if one's got me, it's got me until it lets go

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  • nosleeptillmadd
    16.01.2022 - 1 day ago

    ok but. does anyone else have paras that are an idealized version of someone they know irl/online or am i my own special brand of insane 😭😭

    its just like having a crush with extra steps. i am in hell

    #seriously is this just me #maladaptive problems#maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actuallymadd
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  • skiaismadd
    16.01.2022 - 2 days ago

    i wish i could watch my daydreams tbh

    #maladaptive daydreaming#madd memes#madd#actuallymadd #maladaptive daydreaming memes #immersive daydreaming #maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive daydreamer #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #actually madd
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  • amateur-madder
    16.01.2022 - 2 days ago

    I'm curious but does anyone else have ocs separate to their paras?

    Like for example I have my (orginal) paras those are those the characters that are fleshed out with backgrounds and personalities (but sometimes not names (*/ω\)) and I would die for them and love them with every part of me.

    But then there's ocs and I don't know how to explain but these guys feel different then paras, even though technically they're all characters I created, my ocs feel different and less connected to my paras

    I don't know and I might just be rambling but I wanted to know if I'm alone in the fact that not all characters I create are loved equally and that not all ocs become paras

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  • aircastledweller
    15.01.2022 - 3 days ago

    i feel like if i ever go into details about my 'lesser' daydreams y'all are gonna be a bit taken aback

    and you would figure a lot of things out about me very quickly

    #you walk into my daydreams and go Wow that's a lot of trans parames and Soulmates #you look at everlast. ask me about the plot. start glitching as my words come out in no known language. back away slowly nodding and #deciding to never ask about dominic again #actuallymadd
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  • aircastledweller
    15.01.2022 - 3 days ago

    I want to try to name more daydreams both for this blog, and my daydream journals. Cause rn my titles are just main characters or vague premise and that's not ideal😂 especially as they won't be consistent and that irritates me in my notebook

    Unfortunately naming things is the bane of my existence and i have So Many daydreams that 🙃

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  • paraesthetics
    14.01.2022 - 4 days ago

    when will @paraconvo and @paraportal come back from the war

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  • celestialmadd
    13.01.2022 - 5 days ago

    My old daydreams used to be so damn creative. Like I would be merging multiple fictional universes together and adding my own paras into them as well. Now I cant make a consistent storyline to save my life.

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  • paraesthetics
    12.01.2022 - 6 days ago

    @lotsa-juicy-shit

    A.) Whether I have a relatively new para that I’m trying to solidify and flesh out in my mind, or I’m drawing a para for the first time after daydreaming them for months and having difficulty knowing where to start because it feels overwhelming, I start with outfits!

    I’ll start with a base and essentially use it as a digital paperdoll. Even something as simple as this can say a lot about about a para. What kind of pose are they in? Are the confident or kind of shy and withdrawn? Insecure maybe? What kind of fashion are they into? Does it depend on the setting? Why do they dress the way they do (outside of personal taste). PJ is a small town drug dealer. He just hangs around his house all day, shirts are optional. Jeim is a detective, has the semblance of a uniform, but he’s the best of the best and has been at it for a while. He’s divorced. He’s kind of Over It™️, he feels his best days are behind him. He has no one to impress anymore. Teen!Horrance has budding hypersexuality and because of his s*xual ab*se, his sense of self worth is tied into how f*ckable he looks. He’s also no longer under his father’s roof and can wear whatever the hell he wants, so he can play with his gender presentation a bit more. These are all things just a simple outfit sketch can convey!

    B.) Usually after doing outfit sketches, I’ll have one I really like and I’ll want to see it in action (literally I will find a dynamic pose for reference to see if the outfit looks good in movement). And/or I’ll draw moments form the paracosm/daydreams!! Often ones I’ve daydreamed again and again. Doesn’t have to be anything fancy (mostly because I like drawing people and hate backgrounds 🥲)

    Horrance running while being pursued because [SPOILERS], random Huntgrave

    C.) And finally, what I call “fan art”. Just random art of the paras. It’s usually nothing canon and may have nothing to do with the paracosm. 100% self indulgent.

    PJ and Horrance “confrontation” (PJ does before Horrance ever leaves Texas but I wanted to see grownup Horrance towering over Pj for cathartic reasons.) Horrance as a feral mutant (like Sabretooth, Wolverine, X-Men). Soft Boy Horrance but he’s still a serial killer. Horrance fursona in Beastars + classic cartoon style.

    There’s also the NSFT option but I’ve reached post limit 🥲 sometimes you just need to draw spicy ship art between paras regardless of canon

    If you’re someone who likes doing backgrounds and landscapes and all that, I’d recommend drawing/painting/etc places and settings from your paracosm too! It could help solidify the world for you, make it feel real and tangible 💜✨

    Hopes this helps 💖

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  • inhum3n
    12.01.2022 - 6 days ago

    well...yikes. It’s been a long long time since I made a text post. I’ve done a little reblogging but besides that...not alot. I don’t think my account is that important per se (having said that I am grateful for all those who follow me, thank you) but I do view it as a way to keep myself on my toes when it comes to my MaDD. By typing in this account, I force myself to pull out of my daydreams and really examine my behaviors. So neglecting to upkeep this account makes me feel like i’m a failure. 

    I have stuff going on, internally. I’m not sure what I want in life, and because of that I feel like i’m wasting time and wasting the opportunities that were given to me. I guess i’m a little lonely too. Its weird. and unfortunately my natural reaction to these things is to just drift away into my daydreams. And it just saps me, I struggle to have motivation to change my circumstances when I could just rely on my cheap trick of daydreaming to momentarily console myself.

    This is all rather moody sounding. I may come back later and roll my eyes thinking I was being dramatic. But this is how I feel now. I really want to get back on here though and start writing more. I want to develop a stronger connection to other people who are like me in this way.

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  • nianals
    11.01.2022 - 1 week ago

    my “para”? so last year. blorbo from my daydreams 

    #actuallymadd #blorbo from my shows #cassie.txt #im sorry i had to
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  • cigarette-and-disorder
    10.01.2022 - 1 week ago

    i can't believe i'm having 4 year anniversary with my fictional husband this year and he's still not real

    #maladaptive daydreaming#actuallymadd #maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive daydreamer #i feel like i'll stay single forever bc he feels so real #and it doesn't even bother me anymore lmfao #i feel like i'm becoming insane
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  • paraesthetics
    10.01.2022 - 1 week ago

    college would’ve been so much better if I had applied the same level of diligence to my work as I am recording Mem Am 😔

    Basically the binder is just a physical collection of the various timelines, para notes and tumblr posts. Since I have notes in my notes app, on tumblr, in emails, in Google Docs, Discord and in journals I’ve been sifting through all that to find out what all I actually need for reference to write the story 💖

    It’s strange (in a good way) to have this thing I’ve spent nearly a year on now like… physical. Organized and physical and linear. It’s not just in my head or on my phone. I can touch it with my fingertips 💜✨

    #paraportal#actuallymadd#madd journaling #paracosm: memento amouri #daydream journal #i can’t actually journal my handwriting is too bad
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