Kiss me better
Kiss me better
STOP STARING AT ME STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP
and I would burn myself alive from the inside to feel a little less of this.
yes i have experiences but not in a form convertible into ATP
All of it. And maybe I wouldn’t be so fucked yo today.
just like the ocean it comes in waves you’ve visited me in my dreams again oh how I wish I hug you one last time and make you promise you wouldn’t let go
but your promises are just like pencil lead you break them so often as you design a picture you never intended for me to have each curve and colour change you sculpted me until I was nothing more than a stepping stool for you and as you moved on you forgot to build me back up
if my dreams were reality we’d be in a field of flowers sharing a meal while the soft sounds of gentle music played in the background but my dreams are not real and friendships fade away and like I predicted you got tired of me too
I need a break but simultaneously my brain craves stimulation. I need things to happen but have no idea what would be useful. Like, how can I use my brain so I'm not so fucking bored without burning out even more?
I'm hollow, I'm dull, the pain burns inside me and consumes every thought. I've become passive. I manage, I cope. I don't create.
i need to be sick again
Alright a bit of an update I’m just doing my best to accept the fact that we are a system and I’m getting rid of that internalized ableism and finally accepting the fact that it is what it is and I’m going to look into and mediate to learn how to love myself to love everyone who is sharing this body we are all different personalities, different people, different souls we shall get through this together and help each other out and learn how to navigate through this and face every challenge head on if someone tries to fake claim us we will not engage, we will just simply say “we are plural, we aren’t fake, we know we aren’t fake. Kindly fuck off”.
anyways we will be dropping new stuff! Such as introductions of every alter, alter moodboards, alter aesthetics maybe a gacha life yt channel that will have content about our experiences and playlists! Feel free to send us more asks and other systems please follow! (Endo systems dni)
“you shouldn’t isolate yourself when you’re depressed!!”
if you’re so concerned, then you better do shit to help me. replying “oof” or “lmao” isn’t fucking helping, moron.
Oh, to be a fair lass dancing through the meadows of Elysium🌼🌸🍃
tw suicide mention
this picture basically sums up my whole life. wanting to kill myself and not killing myself because other people need to be talked down. i’m getting to close to losing it. i can’t keep doing this anymore. there’s basically no point in anything i do. i don’t want to be here anymore. it’s too hard. everything is going wrong. i think my fiancé is going to kill himself one day. i really think he is. i can’t do this anymore. i need help and i don’t have anyone to help me. i’m drowning and everyone around me is just watching and letting me. no one can help me. no one is helping me. i don’t know what to do anymore.
"The world is a vampire sent to drain, Secret destroyers hold you up to the flames, And what do I get for my pain? Betrayed desires and a piece of the game... Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage. Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage. Someone will say, "What is lost can never be saved." ...Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal, But can you fake it for just one more show? And what do you want? I wanna change. What do you get, when you feel the same?... Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage. Then someone will say, "What is lost can never be saved." Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage... Tell me I'm the only one, Tell me there's no other one. Jesus was an only son, yeah, Tell me I'm the chosen one. Jesus was an only son, for you... Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage, And someone will say, "What is lost can never be saved." ...Despite all my rage, I am still just a rat in a cage, And I still believe that I cannot be saved." Bullet With Butterfly Wings // The Smashing Pumpkins
Why can’t I just feel fucking safe already
One for sorrow, two for mirth, three for a wedding, four for a birth, five for silver, six for gold, seven for a secret to never be told, eight for a kiss, nine for a wish, and ten for a bird you must not miss.
I wonder if any of you knew how much I was hurting, do I reek of suffering? I should. Afterall, once something rots on the inside, the infectious mold must spread outwards.